wow that big grieving events in your life real challengings losing both your parents in God all things are possible but God not the church minimizes the pain you must feel. im sorry to hear that. I prob wont share straight off the bat because I dont know you and issues around Christians saying youre healed now vs I will be healed soon - I believe God wants to do more first before I get that total healing healing (Ive started going to the gym last week i love it, Iam thinking about teaching basic Chinese over skype or basic english to Chinese Christians later on a car you know? things God wants us to do in our lives to be clean before him fully obedient ready for the rapture ready of heaven) healing is a sensitive and can be frustrating topic explaining the path God has chosen me to take for me in receiving some healing and more because wont accept the unique path or plan God has for my life anyway sister your question was caring and genuine so no worries but my frustration is with other people.