This has gotten quite a bit longer than last time I was on here, and I never like being overwhelmed by a large quantity of responses. As such, I'm hesitant even to post this one, but it's something I'd like to share with you,
@cvanwey .
You mention intercessory prayer on your behalf, requesting a personal experience. I have been & will continue to do so for you; yet sometimes, it's better that it happens at a later date than we would wish. "God's time" is something that isn't just an idea for me, but a real event.
My first college was largely engineering, and that was what I was there to study. While still in high school, I had my disastrous break-up that led me to turn to God deeply for the first time. This would've been the perfect time for God to reveal to me Himself to me more deeply! I was primed, I was accepting of this God guy I'd heard a lot about but hadn't experienced much, but He waited until I was already at my first college before granting me the personal experience necessary to totally turn towards Him.
It confused me at first, but so often it life, it makes more sense in retrospect. In short, engineering wasn't for me, and the major that was suited for me (Theology, which I'm currently studying), wasn't offered at my first college. Yet it was the people there, and one in particular, that made a massive impact on me & I on them. I had a friend who really needed support than only I could give; she introduced me to a mode of living out faith that I hadn't encountered yet, and likely wouldn't have, if I hadn't met her.
I'm not mentioning details, because details aren't important. All I want to do is display how God can delay His revelation to us, if doing so leads us in a better direction. If God had revealed Himself to me so strongly in high school, I would've gone straight to a college that offered Theology, and I would've missed so much that I gained from being at the wrong school with the right people for 2 years.
Does this make sense? I don't think I'll be saying much else on this thread, but feel free to PM me if I seem like someone good to discuss this all in more detail. Or if you're in the Chicago area, we could meet up over a meal sometime!
In any case, I want you to know that your request for prayers is being honored, and if you wish, I can start a thread on the Prayer Wall on your behalf. Just quote this post to let me know.
Your heart's in the right place; if there truly is a God, I trust that He will reward you in some way.