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If I had a dollar for every time I've heard this tale of woe, I'd be rich. I wish I knew more before I got married. People seem capable of maintaining a persona until they get what they want. Then the real character emerges. My marriage lasted 9 years. The warning signs were there in the first few weeks.I really apologize for how long this is. My husband and I have been married about a year and a half. He was always really sweet when we were dating and engaged. When we got married I noticed he was depressed and anxious and wasn't being treated which was hard on us, so I suggested he get treatment and he eventually did and it helped.
Whenever we'd argue about things before it would usually be about larger issues, and it's become much more common that just me talking about something that made me sad or freaked me out or just something in general can become a huge issue. The first time I got concerned about his action he was VERY worked up quickly and was screaming at me because I told him that him making fun of me made me sad. I was really freaked out because I wasn't even that upset during that conversation and he was screaming and swearing to scare me or so it seemed. I said that wasn't ok to try and scare me and he said he was sorry, that he shouldn't have gotten so upset.
The last thing that happened was the most confusing and concerning. I'd asked him to take my car in and get checked because he prefers to do those things to get the best deal, which is fine. But my tire on the right side was shaking, he put air in my tires one night and it was still shaking, so after three times asking him and him not doing it, I took it in. The guy at the repair shop wouldn't even let me leave. He gave me two discounts and gave me one tire free - something I'm pretty sure he wasn't supposed to do, just so I wouldn't leave without new tires. I called my husband to tell him and he said, "we only have x amount of money in our checking." I said that I understood but I didn't have a choice and that I'd get a credit card because this was a safety issue, I couldn't make it home. My husband then said the price was expensive and we could get a better deal somewhere else. I said I literally couldn't go anywhere else. I was also at a discount tire place. lol. I said the price included the install and he admitted it was a better price if the install was included. I said I literally had no choice and he said ok, to do what we had to do and he'd see me soon. My mom and dad ended up paying for half, my mom heard me talking to him and didn't want me to feel bad spending money so decided to pay for half.
This is technically my parents' car I drive and we pay no insurance on it and it doesn't even have payments if we wanted to pay them, so I think paying for tires shouldn't be a big deal. I got home and I told my husband that I understood he didn't want to spend money and neither did I, but it was a safety issue and he made me feel really bad for spending money on something I had to get. I pointed out that I am always ok with him fixing things on his car (even if it's not worth it because of how old it is) and I really just want to feel comfortable getting basic needs met for safety. He said he was just upset about spending money and that he should have led with how important my daughter's (who is 5) safety is first. I said ok, I just felt really bad. He got really upset and asked if I was just mad he didn't get me a new car. I've never asked for a new car, always said I would drive this one until it isn't worth it to fix it. He said that I "think of cars as disposable and all I wanted to do was sh*t on him by bringing this up", which really no place in our conversation because I don't. He brought up our conversation about fixing his car the last time he needed a repair (we didn't disagree during that conversation he was talking about) and I said it wasn't about that conversation months ago, but that I just wanted to be treated the same way I do for him when it comes to his car and safety. And he said no, I had definitely been talking about that particular conversation from months ago, and he pulled out his phone and obviously started recording because when he picked up his phone he stopped yelling at me. Then I said that there's no reason to record our conversations and that it was odd and he said "no, I'm going to record you if you're gonna be like this." I felt really violated, especially over something like this. I realized then that I felt very uncomfortable so I left and went to my parents' house. I tried not to talk to him as I left because of how angry he was. He only said he was sorry for getting so angry, that he couldn't help it as I left and didn't even try to get off the couch. He didn't contact me until the next night later in the evening. He said that I "make him so angry and he loves me so much," and I said it's fine to be angry but that he couldn't scream and me and violate me by recording me, that those are boundaries that can't be crossed. He said I was right and then said that he doesn't know if he can make me happy or if I can make him feel loved because I'm distant sometimes. I told him that I was distant sometimes because I've been living in fear of his anger lately. He said he's "never had anger issues before me" so he doesn't think talking to someone will help, basically refusing counseling or a psychologist.I told him I'm afraid of him hitting me when I feel like this. He said he'd never hit me, etc.
I really don't know how I feel and I just feel so confused. I have a daughter and I can't have her seeing things like this. Any words of advice or wisdom would help. I'm really just so fragile right now.
He said he's "never had anger issues before me" so he doesn't think talking to someone will help, basically refusing counseling or a psychologist.I told him I'm afraid of him hitting me when I feel like this. He said he'd never hit me, etc.
The first time I got concerned about his action he was VERY worked up quickly and was screaming at me because I told him that him making fun of me made me sad. I was really freaked out because I wasn't even that upset during that conversation and he was screaming and swearing to scare me or so it seemed. I said that wasn't ok to try and scare me and he said he was sorry, that he shouldn't have gotten so upset.
Also, husbands love your wives and wives Respect your husbands (Eph 5:33). How would your husband define you giving him respect?
Forgive - if needed everyday
Asking God what changes you need to make.
Includes "What a man really needs"
All teachings are Biblically based.