My strange salvation

Skyflowers · Apr 26, 2019

I never looked for counsel on this. I got saved and gloriously delivered from drugs as I wrote a male prisoner. He's a Christian man w a horrific crime under his belt. He shared the Gospel and God came to my very room and saved me. We're both single and I have strong feelings for him I try to deny. It's an impossible situation. He's 5 states away and in for life. In a way I wonder if Satan is having a time w me. But I'm now a blood bought delivered growing daughter in Jesus now . Why would God bring two ppl together in such a way. I do not think this is a marriage partner at all, but it's very odd. Any thoughts y'all? Makes no sense.

You can't make thus up

friend of · Apr 26, 2019

I'm glad to hear you've been delivered from drugs. I was as well. My advice would be to focus more on God at this time in your walk with Him. Make sure you're reading scripture daily. Join a church and enter fellowship with other Christians. Earthly relationships can take our focus off of what God wants for us if we are overcome by the passion of them.

timewerx · Apr 26, 2019

Boy, the odds are clearly not in your favor.

You can still be friends though, write each other letters, pay him a visit every now and then but that's it.

Unless tomorrow is end of the world, you can bust him out of jail without consequences and pursue relationship with him.

Mark Quayle · Apr 26, 2019

Skyflowers said:
I never looked for counsel on this. I got saved and gloriously delivered from drugs as I wrote a male prisoner. He's a Christian man w a horrific crime under his belt. He shared the Gospel and God came to my very room and saved me. We're both single and I have strong feelings for him I try to deny. It's an impossible situation. He's 5 states away and in for life. In a way I wonder if Satan is having a time w me. But I'm now a blood bought delivered growing daughter in Jesus now . Why would God bring two ppl together in such a way. I do not think this is a marriage partner at all, but it's very odd. Any thoughts y'all? Makes no sense.

You can't make thus up

For whatever it might be worth to you, God doesn't usually do things the way we expect. Try, if you can, to think of this from the viewpoint of maybe 50 years from now. Even if you love and desire this man, remember that is not the whole of life. I have loved (not engaged in sex) many women, one in particular who comes to mind with sudden sobs of I don't even know what, yet perspective reminds me that I don't know her if I haven't married her.

What you see now is not the same as what you will see later. Your emotions may be a little slow to catch up, but still, there is more to be found in God than in even the dearest friend. While I have been betrayed, even ruined, in a sense, by people, I still love them because I love God, not because of any integrity on my part nor on their part.

Meanwhile, keep in mind that this life is not even for this life. This is not about you nor anyone else, but about God.

My inclination is to stay friends, but not to feed indulgence, if you can avoid it.

AvgJoe · Apr 26, 2019

Skyflowers said:
I never looked for counsel on this. I got saved and gloriously delivered from drugs as I wrote a male prisoner. He's a Christian man w a horrific crime under his belt. He shared the Gospel and God came to my very room and saved me. We're both single and I have strong feelings for him I try to deny. It's an impossible situation. He's 5 states away and in for life. In a way I wonder if Satan is having a time w me. But I'm now a blood bought delivered growing daughter in Jesus now . Why would God bring two ppl together in such a way. I do not think this is a marriage partner at all, but it's very odd. Any thoughts y'all? Makes no sense.

You can't make thus up

"Why would God bring two ppl together in such a way."

You've answered your own question. This man shared the gospel with you, you responded and was saved. There's not a better reason to bring two people together. Possibly, if this man hadn't witnessed to you, you may have never come to the faith.

St_Worm2 · Apr 26, 2019

Hello @Skyflowers, I believe @AvgJoe may be onto something, because it also seemed to me that you may have answered your own question in the OP.

And as @Mark Quayle indicated above, the Lord often works in mysterious ways (cf Isaiah 55:8-9) to accomplish the many wondrous things that He does in our lives.

So PTL for your inmate friend with the "beautiful feet" .. Romans 10:13-15

(and, of course, for the other mighty works that God did, and is continuing to do, in your life .. Ezekiel 36:26-27; John 3:3; 2 Corinthians 5:17; Philippians 1:6, 2:13).

--David

-Sasha- · Apr 26, 2019

Many of the things Christ instructs us to do sound very burdensome. Love our enemies, don't return anger for anger, bless those who curse you, feed the poor...visit those in prison... But perhaps we will find that once we do them, truly His burden is light. There is an unexpected sweetness.

For many people, the idea of visiting or corresponding in a positive way with those imprisoned for terrible crimes is unappealing to say the least. But Christ tells us that whatever we do to these people, we do to Him. We think of this in a very mysterious way, but you have blatantly encountered God through acting on His instruction, even though you were likely ignorant of the instruction when you set out to do so! I pray you'll see this as a blessing, and as encouragement in the future when one of Christ's other commands sounds like too much a burden.

Though you haven't gained a husband through this experience, you have been shown the way to the Kingdom of Heaven, and Christ instructs that we should seek first the Kingdom, and everything else will be added to us.

turkle · Apr 26, 2019

It's wonderful that this man led you to Christ and that you gave up drugs. That is certainly something to celebrate.

I am concerned, however, that you may be falling into a trap. We've all heard of women falling in love with men in prison. Usually it's because they love the feeling of being needed and wanted, or of helping the prisoner through his sentence as a form of rescue.

I'm curious, how did this communication begin?

I work in prison ministry with the highest level offenders. One thing I have learned is that many people in prison will do anything to make a connection with someone on the outside for their own purposes. They will flatter and behave in a loving manner, when it's actually total manipulation. The man you are communicating with might not be like that, but he also might be. There is no way to know through letters or phone calls. I have seen how convincing people can be to get what they want. There is every possibility that the women I am serving now are slowly working on me, too. Fortunately, I am very aware of the danger of becoming involved on a personal level, and only serve them as a teacher and leader.

So please proceed with caution. A high level of caution. The fact that you are now emotionally involved is leading you down a road you will likely regret deeply. If you can't keep this correspondence platonic, I urge you to stop. After all, what future is there with someone serving a life sentence? Setting yourself up for a lifetime of heart ache is something I strongly advise against.

Please prayerfully consider what God would have you do, and seek His wisdom on this. And please be very, very careful of what you reveal to this man.

Skyflowers · Apr 26, 2019

Wow thanks for all the comments. This occurred a long time ago. I was miraculously delivered at salvation of a life threatening addiction. I'd be 6 feet under and in hell if Jesus didn't save me. I've struggled in my walk but realize the long suffering and kindness if your God. This story is so interesting that many people said write a book. Regardless, this man is in for a Savage crime w no parole. We've been friends for obvious reasons. He was a mentor with no romantic intentions, yet over time, I've felt a love for him. It's really a mess.
I had a failed engagement with another man and I kinda realized I always loved this man God sent to minister to me. It's very painful. I'm tearing up...

However, I'm logical. I just can never understand this means of God saving me. I even feel resentment at God or my fate. At least in the sense of this relationship. Just being real.

This mentorship has been all positive. My friend is not a con. He has a strong ministry. But only I got gloriously saved through correspondence. This is one of those " truth is strsnger than fiction" stories.

Sadly, as I prayed and asked God about all this, I felt our long correspondence needs to end, because my stupid feelings get in the way. I'm embarrassed.

Someone asked how this started. I saw his testimony online and was fascinated w such change and gods forgiveness. I didn't know God could forgive a killer. Also, I didn't want God at all. Right in the midst of this correspondence God supernaturally made himself known to me. I was instantly delivered, healed, set free saved send filled with God's tremendous love. Now my minstry is online addiction counsel and a street minstry.

Obviously folks I wonder why God used him. Truthfully, it boggles my mind. I thought he was my mate, but that's not correct. So due to my human self, to protect my heart, I've decided to end our very long correspondence.

Don't you folks think that's best? God has never answered my why? And that's ok.

Ty so much

Skyflowers · Apr 26, 2019

Also at the time of my salvation through correspondence my neighbors were Christian. I'm just baffled. So I thought to that maybe God wanted me involved in this guy's minstry, but that's not correct either. I guess it has no answer. The inmate is happy for me. He's no insight either. So odd

St_Worm2 · Apr 26, 2019

Skyflowers said:
Also at the time of my salvation through correspondence my neighbors were Christian. I'm just baffled. So I thought to that maybe God wanted me involved in this guy's minstry, but that's not correct either. I guess it has no answer. The inmate is happy for me. He's no insight either. So odd

Hi again Sister, God made your friend, "His workmanship" (His "masterpiece" actually

), when He saved him and created him in Christ Jesus for a very wonderful purpose, and He did the same for you, yes :amen:

.. Ephesians 2:10. So continue to seek Him and His will for your life .. cf Romans 12:2, because it seems to me that you are someone who God is going to use to help/minister to others (both with their problems, but far more importantly, with coming to know Him in the midst of their problems .. cf Romans 10:17).

God bless you!

--David
p.s. - right before I became a Christian (nearly 33 years ago now) I began to be surrounded by Christians, both at work, and in my personal life too. And after I was saved it became pretty obvious to me that God had a lot to do with that

St_Worm2 · Apr 26, 2019

Skyflowers said:
I was miraculously delivered at salvation of a life threatening addiction. I'd be 6 feet under and in hell if Jesus didn't save me. I've struggled in my walk but realize the long suffering and kindness if your God. This story is so interesting that many people said write a book.

If you feel that the Lord is leading you to do so, I'd go for it (because yours is a very interesting story and, of course, because you know and have personally experienced the agape/love of God in your life

). One of my friends wrote a book about his ongoing struggle with cancer as a means of giving hope to others who are trying to live with/battle that disease, and Amazon made publishing and distributing it (in hardback, paperback and on Kindle too) a breeze.

Skyflowers said:
Regardless, this man is in for a Savage crime w no parole. We've been friends for obvious reasons. He was a mentor with no romantic intentions, yet over time, I've felt a love for him. It's really a mess. I had a failed engagement with another man and I kinda realized I always loved this man God sent to minister to me. It's very painful. I'm tearing up...However, I'm logical. I just can never understand this means of God saving me. I even feel resentment at God or my fate. At least in the sense of this relationship. Just being real.

Here's a quote (or two) from missionary/author Elisabeth Elliot that I'm hoping may prove to be useful to you in this.

"God never withholds from His child that which His love and wisdom call good. He never denies our heart's desire except to give us something better."

"Sometimes we want things we were not meant to have. Because he loves us, the Father says no. Faith trusts that no. Faith is willing not to have what God is not willing to give. Furthermore, faith does not insist upon an explanation. It is enough to know His promises to give what is good-he knows so much more about us than we do."

Skyflowers said:
Sadly, as I prayed and asked God about all this, I felt our long correspondence needs to end, because my stupid feelings get in the way. I'm embarrassed.

Your feelings are your feelings (though I know that they can get in the way sometimes

). There's no reason for you to feel any embarrassment for them because they are important, and an important part of who you are.

Skyflowers said:
Someone asked how this started. I saw his testimony online and was fascinated w such change and gods forgiveness. I didn't know God could forgive a killer. Also, I didn't want God at all. Right in the midst of this correspondence God supernaturally made himself known to me. I was instantly delivered, healed, set free saved send filled with God's tremendous love. Now my ministry is online addiction counsel and a street ministry.

WOW, you do have quite a testimony about God (and how He has worked/is working in your life) to share with others :oldthumbsup:

Skyflowers said:
Obviously folks I wonder why God used him. Truthfully, it boggles my mind. I thought he was my mate, but that's not correct. So due to my human self, to protect my heart, I've decided to end our very long correspondence. Don't you folks think that's best? God has never answered my why? And that's ok.

I can't speak for God, obviously, but it seems like He may be telling you to move on. If He is, it's because He knows you and He loves you, and because He knows what's best for you! Perhaps He has someone special for you waiting in the wings (so to speak), if that's your heart's desire, so follow Him and delight yourself in Him, and trust Him with the rest .. e.g. Psalm 37:4.

--David
p.s. - just FYI, Psalm 37:4 is a command with a promise. So if we do our part properly (the command half, that is), He will fulfill His part (the promise half of that verse

). Just be careful that you understand what the command to us actually says, because if you don't, you could end up trying to turn God into something that He simply is not, a cosmic Sugar-Daddy

(The command is NOT, "delight the Lord", but to "delight yourself .. in the Lord" (the secret to which is found in our chasing after Him, never in chasing after what we think we want from Him

).

Psalms 37
4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

.

Skyflowers · Apr 26, 2019

Thank you all. David I appreciate your insight and kindness. God is not my cosmic sugar daddy, but I get it as we can especially at our spiritual beginning assume that. My hope is to be a life line to the lost, but God's will, not mine. The book would really reach the broken because that's what I was/ am. However recounting my tough childhood and my stumbled walk is painful. I fell from god for a decade. The slide was embarrassing and hard to remember. My inmate pal knows about the slide. I'm assume he felt discouraged. I understand my fall too. There's reasons. I just finished a good bye note. I'm at peace! He will understand. I thank God for my Christian family. Blessings

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