hey

what's wrong?

Jenniferdiana said:

i dont know, nothing interest me anymore, i try to listen to music to make me feel better but theres no song to match the way i feel right now...everything seems dead to me...its like nothing matters anymore. i am just there, i cant move, i feel like i cant real feel or hear anything anymore...

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Ask Jesus to help you and for Him to take control of your life. Pray to the Lord Jesus Christ to change your heart, mind, and soul. Ask the Lord to forgive you of your sins or self centeredness. Seek the Lord with everything you got in prayer. Seek and you will find. Knock and it will be opened unto you. Ask the Lord to return to you your joy in Him.

For Jesus loves you and He wants you to share in His love.

Praying for you and continue praying too. I hope you'll find purpose and meaning in your life right now. And you matter. God bless you.

Jenniferdiana said:

i dont know, nothing interest me anymore, i try to listen to music to make me feel better but theres no song to match the way i feel right now...everything seems dead to me...its like nothing matters anymore. i am just there, i cant move, i feel like i cant real feel or hear anything anymore...

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I think I can relate to this but for reasons that caused the depression but I literally had a paralyzing level of depression....all I could do was sit in my chair all day and do nothing.....for 3 months.....the only thing that got me out of it was to go outside and start looking for any of my neighbors that needed help with anything....and well, my heart was just broke over the struggles that I learned a couple of them were going through. So I spent a lot of time just listening and letting them express what was weighing on them so much and offered prayer for them....another was suffering a severe abscess and was in pain but she didn't know which pills to take...I went through her medicine cabinet and she had pills dated back to 2012....and 2009....I went back to my house and got some Ibuprofen for her and taught her how to do warm salt water rinses. The next day she was abscess free and just so joyful that someone cared enough to help her....she even cried. So I continue to try to be attentive to others and it really helps find a purpose.....and it is a ministry! So reaching out and helping others took the focus off of me and I was really blessed to have been a help for someone in need.

God blesses us when we are a blessing to others....
Praise is a wonderful way to get rid of a spirit of heaviness.....Isaiah 61:3 - To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

Professional help can be good. Therapy was good for me, for most of the time. I had those "am I real, is anything real" phases too when I was depressed, almost like depersonalization of some kind.

Jenniferdiana said:

i dont know, nothing interest me anymore, i try to listen to music to make me feel better but theres no song to match the way i feel right now...everything seems dead to me...its like nothing matters anymore. i am just there, i cant move, i feel like i cant real feel or hear anything anymore...

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Are u married?

Jenniferdiana said:

i just dont care anymore. and no i am not married.

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I think having a family will give meaning to the life. Being alone can make u feel empty.

Jenniferdiana said:

well i dont think that is in the cards for me...

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You see best blessing u can have is pious & loving husband & half a dozen kids

Jenniferdiana said:

ah...i understand but i like i said it isnt in the cards for me..so i am not worried about it

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Why isnt in the cards for u?

Jenniferdiana said:

because i am ill and the person i want to be with said he hate me...

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How old are u & how bad is the illness?

Do the kidneys have a major illness?

Jenniferdiana said:

i dont know...i dont want to talk about that right now...its enough i try to ignore and forget about it everyday

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I'm sorry to ask u so many questions. I'm sure its not too late. You are not old and I hope the illness is not so bad. As soon as you recover you should move on & marry some other person. Why love the one who does not love u. Love is 2 way relationship not one way.