Thanks for sharing; I can't say I share your perspective, but I'm glad for you that your deity has revealed himself to you.
He is your Father, too. The answers I gave you came from years of intense questioning, battles, an a bunch of frivolous middle time that seemed meaningless in my crisis of faith and philosophy - just when I needed clarity the most. I am, at best,
good.
Looking back, I know for a fact I wouldn't have responded to Him unless He let all the things happen in my life to get to this point - good and bad. With my personality, and my own ego described before, I believe what I went through was the best way to actually get me to listen - for me
personally.
Don't get discouraged if you are truly seeking, and it seems like the answers get more nebulous while the Christians - "deluded or not" - seem to be very comfortable in their faith.
The strongest of us in faith are absurdly weak on our own. That "fire" from confident believers is strictly the Holy Spirit. I found this out the very hard way - but that was the best way for me.
Some people do not EVER go through trials, abuse, or what we may consider hardship, but that is because their personal relationship with God may require different methods of teaching than required for me, for example.
I can't reiterate this enough; the relationship you have with God is personal - even if you reject Him, it is personal. So, do not get distracted by other believers' story of faith, because likely you will not experience the same thing at all. It takes some people - actually, it takes most people an entire lifetime to get close to being "sanctified," where you are "faithful, strong in Christ, trusting of God, and '96.5887% sin free'."
His apparent lack of revelation of Himself may be His way of getting you back to Him - exploring who He is in a way that is comfortable for you, profitable for your relationship with Him. This thread of yours may be the beginning, middle, end, or a retry at that.
As long as you are alive, your search is genuine, and from the position of wanting to have a relationship with your Creator, you aren't abandoned, or without hope.
I say that from experience with Him, and from experience
with other "gods" who were NOT gentlepersons, and rather liked to FORCE their way into my life, and hook into my back if I tried to leave or reject.
Read Isaiah 1: pay special attention to verses 1-17, and then focus and remember verse 18. Then, try to ponder what type of God, in general, would respond to its creation as in 1:18 - especially considering the knowledge of mythos you have, and how even demigods were neglected, let alone mortals, by the "gods" - usually unless you provide a blood or sexual sacrifice.
Then, recall this deity also claims to have made the sacrifice for us - and literally just wants us (in the context of Isaiah, especially.) You don't have to do it now, but those verses helped me understand why I should even entertain a God like Him.