Has anyone here been convinced and scared they committed the unpardonable sin? And have you been convinced so much so that you feel absolutely numb as a result of it? Then you start to feel scared that you are numb and not feeling guilty or anxious? I have called on the Lord for salvation and believe His Word. I'm just scared numb right now. Please help. I'm feeling hopeless. My wife loves me and supports me I know but I also know that this is taking its toll on her. I know my daughter suffers as well. I have thought of taking my life due to the depression. But I know this would hurt them worse. I'm so exhausted and tired of fighting. I hate myself for this. I don't think Jesus can love me anymore. I feel as if I'm pure evil and hardened beyond repentance. My wife told her Mom that she is so glad to be married to such a sweet and loving and godly husband but I don't see it. All I see is a shell of a man when I look at myself. I don't know what to do. I'm going to buy a video series that was reccomended to me by someone on this site. I just hope that there is hope for me.