re -It took God bringing me down to my knees, showing me, first, the total depravity of myself and others, even the depravity within the temple itself!, before I could learn the doctrines of grace.
this has nothing to do with your choice of denominational fellowship and everything to do with God at work in your life .. for from within the walls of the Spiritual gifts and the "things of the Spirit ; he has so dealt with my heart the same way .. he is after all the same God we seek and serve
the error we Pentecostals make all too often ,is in thinking experiential gifting give us some kind of
spiritual superiority ..but all that means is that we immediately forgot that they are "gifts " .. which means without God ..we would not have them nor would they be manifest in our lives ,nor can they ever be operative in us to full effect except channeled through
love and LOVE alone .
the anointing of God that rests upon us , by grace , does not mean he endorses everything we say or do . is it not also so with yourself ? it is so.
Thank you for this post! But acknowledging that faith also is a gift, as is our perseverance, are nevertheless enormously important. I was saved for many years in your church, but my early zeal was washed away by too much focus on flashy "spiritual gifts", and when I could not operate in all "gifts" that other people claimed to have, it led to continual feelings of unworthiness, of not doing enough for the LORD. And I remember, I was not alone in this. Plenty of people out there sitting around talking about "missing opportunities" the LORD supposedly offered them, sitting on their knees praying and praying, which really, even with all the language of "gifts" and "grace" just amounts to return to works-righteousness, even if not acknowledged.
When I say that God broke me down and instructed me, I mean that He showed me that my salvation was entirely in His hands. I mean that "all things work together for good for them who love God, who are the called according to His purpose." I mean that all my little terrors, all the hiccups in my life, all the tragedies, all the successes, were shown to not be the result of my walking in and out of God's will, but the result of God working all things for my benefit. This is a view of complete security-- not just for my salvation, but that my life is entirely in God's hands. That when "The lot is cast into the lap", its outcome is not something at random, "but the whole disposing thereof is of the LORD" (Pro 16:33). No matters at "chance," no "missed opportunities," just "all things working together for good," even the bad things in our life. And the reason why it is in God's hands is because God loves me-- even when I was dead in sins and an enemy to God, even when, by my own free will, I chose to reject Him.
This is not the view of the Arminian. It is not the view of the Pelagian. It is not the view of the Roman Catholic, or the Benny Hinn. Their views place you in a tenuous space where, ultimately, whether you live or die depends on your own choices, on your own "willing and running"-- but God saves us even from our bad choices, and gives us His grace so that we may walk in his righteousness and do His will, so that our salvation truly isn't "of him that willeth, or him that runneth, but God who sheweth mercy". This amounts to a reversal of what I understood the Gospel to be before. Once it was "what we have to do for Jesus," even if I didn't realize it, even when I thought Jesus was my "focus" in the sense that I was working hard to please him, or that He did "everything" for me! But now it is "what Christ has done for us," to the fullest extent of its meaning And this new focal point changes your entire world.