- Feb 25, 2006
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as many of you already know, these last few days have been very very trying on my family.
my grandma is dying and it's just HARD. I feel "at peace" tonight bc i got to see her again -- i got to sit by her bed for a little over an hour, hold her hand, talk to her, gave her several kisses on her forehead and tell her i love her -- best feeling in the world -- only thing that would've made it better would've been if she was awake. But, she's on the morphine drip and now, it's just a waiting game. I hope she's still alive in the morning so i can hold her hand again.
Anyway, i'm asking prayer for spiritual renewal bc i kno for myself anyway, i feel like satan is attacking my thoughts/feelings and for some strange reason, i'm just struggling w/ faithfulness right now -- i don't kno if there's doubt in my mind or what, but, i'm really struggling spiritually at the moment.
Plz pray for the rest of my family as well esp my mom -- she's really taking this hard bc she n my grandma were the best of friends. My grandma was super special -- there is nobody like her and i just wish she didn't have to die.
I feel like crying yet, i'm angry yet i'm thankful that God answered 1 of my prayers to let me see her again -- that i'm super thankful for but, i was praying for a miracle, that he'd heal her body of Everything and she'd be in perfect health again. I guess jesus has other plans.
sorry, i love her n will miss her so much -- too much too fast -- i just need to talk and let this out.
my grandma is dying and it's just HARD. I feel "at peace" tonight bc i got to see her again -- i got to sit by her bed for a little over an hour, hold her hand, talk to her, gave her several kisses on her forehead and tell her i love her -- best feeling in the world -- only thing that would've made it better would've been if she was awake. But, she's on the morphine drip and now, it's just a waiting game. I hope she's still alive in the morning so i can hold her hand again.
Anyway, i'm asking prayer for spiritual renewal bc i kno for myself anyway, i feel like satan is attacking my thoughts/feelings and for some strange reason, i'm just struggling w/ faithfulness right now -- i don't kno if there's doubt in my mind or what, but, i'm really struggling spiritually at the moment.
Plz pray for the rest of my family as well esp my mom -- she's really taking this hard bc she n my grandma were the best of friends. My grandma was super special -- there is nobody like her and i just wish she didn't have to die.
I feel like crying yet, i'm angry yet i'm thankful that God answered 1 of my prayers to let me see her again -- that i'm super thankful for but, i was praying for a miracle, that he'd heal her body of Everything and she'd be in perfect health again. I guess jesus has other plans.
sorry, i love her n will miss her so much -- too much too fast -- i just need to talk and let this out.
And Cover Them with Your Loving Blanket of Peace 
