A week or so ago in my thread about icons I feel like I might have acted inappropriately, please forgive me if I hurt anyone's feelings.
My pull to Orthodoxy has come back and after visiting a Protestant church 2 times I remembered it might as well be an entirely different religion to me - it has no interest for me, it feels trite and overly emotional and such. The past few days I have been wanting to tell my priest I would like to become Orthodox but every once and a while for a short moment my agnostic side perks up and says "That's crazy! How can you deny your life for this!" and I've gotten pretty good at ignoring it, "I don't care if it makes perfect sense it is clearly the way of life and better [than atheism, liberalism, paganism, agnosticism, empiricism, any religion I know]!"
As for my question, I have also been kinda thinking about asking my priest if he could do something like an exorcism I guess... I have been feeling lately like I am being attacked all the time by demons: Anger, hatred, doubt, fear, lust, craving, but especially Fear. I feel like my soul is trapped in a castle inside, being besieged, with demons trying to stifle me, suffocate me, bind me in fetters, trick me into misdirecting my energies or fleeing instead of standing my ground. How should someone go about asking for this?
My pull to Orthodoxy has come back and after visiting a Protestant church 2 times I remembered it might as well be an entirely different religion to me - it has no interest for me, it feels trite and overly emotional and such. The past few days I have been wanting to tell my priest I would like to become Orthodox but every once and a while for a short moment my agnostic side perks up and says "That's crazy! How can you deny your life for this!" and I've gotten pretty good at ignoring it, "I don't care if it makes perfect sense it is clearly the way of life and better [than atheism, liberalism, paganism, agnosticism, empiricism, any religion I know]!"
As for my question, I have also been kinda thinking about asking my priest if he could do something like an exorcism I guess... I have been feeling lately like I am being attacked all the time by demons: Anger, hatred, doubt, fear, lust, craving, but especially Fear. I feel like my soul is trapped in a castle inside, being besieged, with demons trying to stifle me, suffocate me, bind me in fetters, trick me into misdirecting my energies or fleeing instead of standing my ground. How should someone go about asking for this?
