I think you are dancing around my point. My point being that atheist want to be their own personal god. What is your moral standard? The ten commandments you make yourself. What makes your personal ten commandments better than that of another? Because you are God of your universe.
It's the oddest way to put it. But yes, I am responsible for the decisions I make. My commandments aren't necessarily better than anyone else's - but they are mine.
Remember the flywheel? It applies to moral truths as well as beliefs per se. When we are young, we accept what we are told, generally by our parents. Do this, don't do that. If the parents are religious, as mine were and as I assume that yours were as well, we are told that Christianity is the path we should be taking, that God looks over us and you knelt at the bedside each night with your palms pressed together and your eyes closed and said 'God bless Mummy and Daddy. God bless Nana and Grandpa...' And as my parents were very conservative, those were the values I grew up with. Because they were the values that I was taught. So other people were turning that wheel for me. I had no input.
Then, at some point, you reach an age where it is explained to you that there will be occasions when
you have to decide what you do. You are literally told that
you will responsible for the decisions that you make. So they say that I have to decide, myself, whether something is right or wrong.
Now when most people say that they actually mean 'What we have already told you is correct - this only applies to matters which haven't been covered yet'. But you don't have to be a Rhodes Scholar to realise that if it's my decision to determine what is right and wrong, then that will apply to
everything. Including the way I had been brought up. So the logical, and very obvious course of action, was to do that. To question it all. So I did.
Now this isn't meant as a point scoring exercise to imply that hey - look what I did! A free spirit! This is the way to go through life! No, I'm saying that this is the way we
all go through life. Unless you blindly and automatically follow any direction or command (and maybe you've served in the forces so I'll grant that in that circumstance you are expected to do just that), then you have an internal debate about what the correct course of action should be. About whether something is right or wrong. As far as you are concerned.
You and I would probably agree on almost all moral matters. But the ones on which we disagree are ones where there has been some input for both of us that points us to a certain position and
we have personally decided that the input is correct. And that includes matters such as the ten commandments for example. You either blindly accept them as they are, with no thought or you read each of them and think 'Yeah, that makes sense. Because...' and I'm certain that you'd be able to give me an argument for
why you personally think it's a command that should be followed. In some cases I will have personally decided that you are right. And in some cases I will personally decide that you aren't. But we are the ones making the decision.
Now, back to the flywheel. When I was young, I used to have a lot of honestly held beliefs that changed over the years. Politically, socially, sexually...we experience different things as we grow. Different people. Different cultures. Different ways of thinking. We absorb it all and so that flywheel is all over the place. It's spinning hard in one direction and then gradually slows and reverses direction. Sometimes it speeds up in the same direction. Sometimes it just sits there waiting for the input. But...the longer you are exposed to all these things, the more you read, the more that you experience, the older you get in fact, the steadier that flywheel turns.
They say males mature in their early twenties. And I've been around the block a few times since then. Half a century and counting. So I've experienced quite a lot of 'input'. There have been very many internal debates over the decades. When
I have personally decided what I consider to be right or wrong. My moral position is not fixed. I'm always open to arguments.
I could personally decide that a previous held position is actually wrong. But gee, that flywheel is just a blur on many matters.
So if you want to say that 'you are God of your universe', then to the extent that I personally decide what moral path is the right one, then...yeah.