So, Idk where to start this. But I have a confession to make, I dread heaven, the new earth, whatever. Now before you attack me, let me explain.
I love Jesus. I love God. I am not an atheist trying to knock the faith. I have had experiences that I can only attribute to God, so I know hes real. However, I still dread heaven.
Ive been taught by multiple people that all we do in heaven is have one big old sing along around the throne. Bowing down for eternity. And I thought "nah theres no way thats right. That the INFINITE God is making heaven less diverse then present life". So I approached the scriptures, I studied, and studied, I looked at different meanings. And all I see is singing, singing and more singing.
I have no problem bowing down to God, in fact I look forward to it. But like all things, you want to do it only so much at a time. I, thanks to being made in Gods image, love to create. I write music, I like exploring, I like building. And I like seeing my creations being enjoyed, just like God does. Again, we are made in his image, so we have alot of the same characteristics. However, I always hoped to be able to do this on the new earth as well. Go exploring? Write music? Explore different cities that popped up around the earth? But from what I can see...its just singing...? Perpetual worship.
Just executing one command again and again and again!
Why? How is this supposed to excite me? All it does is make life purposeless. Why would I develop skills in this life if im not even going to be able to use them in the next? Whats the point of ANYTHING then?!!
I know this seems blasphemous. It probably is. But Ive kept it inside for way too long and I need to get it off my chest. Its not like God doesnt already know I feel this way...
I love Jesus. I love God. I am not an atheist trying to knock the faith. I have had experiences that I can only attribute to God, so I know hes real. However, I still dread heaven.
Ive been taught by multiple people that all we do in heaven is have one big old sing along around the throne. Bowing down for eternity. And I thought "nah theres no way thats right. That the INFINITE God is making heaven less diverse then present life". So I approached the scriptures, I studied, and studied, I looked at different meanings. And all I see is singing, singing and more singing.
I have no problem bowing down to God, in fact I look forward to it. But like all things, you want to do it only so much at a time. I, thanks to being made in Gods image, love to create. I write music, I like exploring, I like building. And I like seeing my creations being enjoyed, just like God does. Again, we are made in his image, so we have alot of the same characteristics. However, I always hoped to be able to do this on the new earth as well. Go exploring? Write music? Explore different cities that popped up around the earth? But from what I can see...its just singing...? Perpetual worship.
Just executing one command again and again and again!
Why? How is this supposed to excite me? All it does is make life purposeless. Why would I develop skills in this life if im not even going to be able to use them in the next? Whats the point of ANYTHING then?!!
I know this seems blasphemous. It probably is. But Ive kept it inside for way too long and I need to get it off my chest. Its not like God doesnt already know I feel this way...