- Jun 25, 2018
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In may last year I met a nice girl, we had an instant connection and I wanted to share the gospel with her, at the time I met her I'd been in rebellion against God for a few years, God spoke to me 3 times in the space of 2 weeks after meeting her
the first thing he said was "I am the source of peace and joy"
secondly, he showed me an image of her walking in a beautiful garden, alone, looking intoxicated with the love of an invisible being
thirdly, he reminded me of the story of abraham and isaac, i hadnt read or thought about that story for years but I suddenly remembered it
I began fornicating with this woman and impregated her
shortly after becoming pregnant she came to church with me and was so moved by the presence of the spirit she burst into tears, and from then on said she was a believer, and she showed evidence of repentance
yet I continued fornicating and began to mistreat her, after 6 more months she left me, and cut off contact completely
its been 4 months since we spoke, and I feel that I potentially ruined Gods beautiful plan for me and her. it was like a beautiful marriage with her was Gods plan A for me, and now I have to settle for some kind of Plan D
how does one cope, when they have thrown away Gods greatest earthly blessing of a partner?
God doesn't run around telling anyone to knock up young women then dump them leaving your child a bastard. That's not God at all...
I'd rethink your faith altogether.
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