- Dec 13, 2015
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So I'm manic yet again and my wife and I have been arguing like crazy. It's not been a good month at all. Yesterday was our sixth year anniversary and not only did we both forget but we both spent the whole day arguing. Im tired of arguing with her. I'm tired of being married and I think I would be much happier without her. I hate to say it but she is impossible to live with and doesn't love me at all. She claims she does but her vain attempts at showing it just don't show it at all. She's highly manipulative and controlling, she's physically and verbally abusive, and I highly suspect she is bipolar or schizophrenic as well. It would explain her lack of empathy. I want God to save our marriage because I do love her. I do want to help and spend time with her. But all she does is play video games all day when she has other things to do. Honestly? I hate to say it? But if she was working or volunteering and we weren't in the same house 24/7 I think we would live together a lot easier. I mean the entire six years we've been married and seven years we've been together? We spent maybe a week and a half apart. And one week of that I had to go away for a while because I had a major psychotic episode. I..... want a separation. Or for God to save our marriage. Neither of us believes in divorce but I guarantee if we keep living like this? One of us is going to Crack. And it's probably going to be me.