what are you feeling right now? (24)

[ChristianGirl_96]

Tired. Endo can be hard

 

[Jeshu]

Sure is quiet in here, I can hear the crickets singing. Maybe that's not a bad thing and I hope everyone is living joyfully in the fullness of God's grace and experiencing his blessings!

I'm that too bad, though I struggle some days, but generally alright.

i've been feeling rather downish the last few weeks. A lot of sadness. Our son is going through a rather painful breakup, which has been painful to watch.

I think the extreme fatigue part has gone away. I think I'm noticing this by the beginning of July. If I'm tired it's probably because I can get less than 5 hours sleep on a given day. I remember how horribly tired the Prozac was making me for several weeks, and although I can still go to sleep after taking it (that is, I still think it makes me drowsy enough to fall asleep on it for bedtime sake), I'm not sure I can say that the fatigue is debilitating anymore. I'm also not sure anymore that the side effects are bad enough to warrant trying something else. The other day, I was driving at 9:30 at night during a thunderstorm and aside from my fears of hitting another car or pedestrian unawares, I wasn't even nervous, and I attributed it to the Prozac. I think it's a good idea to keep taking this. I've noticed that I'm gaining a little weight though and I hope to God it doesn't keep getting worse. I hate my weight already.

Good that the tiredness has abated somewhat, i was hoping this would happen, at times it will be back but at least that horrible depression can't hurt you so badly now. Good to hear that it is making you feel calmer.

Lets hope the weight gain will only be for a short period. Sometimes that happened to me, at first i would gain weight but then i would stabilise.

Glad it is keeping the depression and anxiety at bay.

 

[Paulus59]

Tired. Endo can be hard

May you be strengthened in God's love ChristianGirl to get you through your struggles.

 

[Paulus59]

i've been feeling rather downish the last few weeks. A lot of sadness. Our son is going through a rather painful breakup, which has been painful to watch.

Yes, that certainly would be hard to watch Jeshu and I hope both you and your son are comforted in God's love through this trying time and may this pain go away soon enough to again bring sunshine into your lives.

 

[Jeshu]

Yes, that certainly would be hard to watch Jeshu and I hope both you and your son are comforted in God's love through this trying time and may this pain go away soon enough to again bring sunshine into your lives.

Thanks brother Jesus the repairer of broken walls and this is what our son is at this moment in time, a broken wall. We have seen their marriage go down hill just a few years into it. They made it 8 years and got three kids together. It doesn't look good when it comes to coming back together again.

Still struggling with low key depression. Not motivated to do anything, like i run into a wall or something.

How is life treating you brother? Are things picking up for you or is it still hard going? i hope Jesus keeps you safe in His embrace whatever hard times you might be facing.

Peace.

 

[Paulus59]

Thanks brother Jesus the repairer of broken walls and this is what our son is at this moment in time, a broken wall. We have seen their marriage go down hill just a few years into it. They made it 8 years and got three kids together. It doesn't look good when it comes to coming back together again.

Still struggling with low key depression. Not motivated to do anything, like i run into a wall or something.

How is life treating you brother? Are things picking up for you or is it still hard going? i hope Jesus keeps you safe in His embrace whatever hard times you might be facing.

Peace.

Marriage/relationship breakdown is one of the hardest things to go through as there is a lot of pain involved and it's even worse when there is kids involved who are the innocent victims. Your son and his kids will need all the love, support and care to get through this most trying time and I hope that your son is able to turn to Jesus through this for healing and as a guiding light. Of course all of this would also affect you and your wife as well.

I'm not too bad Jeshu, though some days the depression comes and goes, but generally better than I have been. My sleep quality is up & down and I didn't sleep well last night so I'm feeling crappy today, I've never been a good sleeper. My quality of life has improved this year and despite my problems I'm blessed considering what many people go through.

May the Lord God be with you Jeshu and your family and may his love be like a sweet fragrance to you all to bring peace & healing in the blessed name of Christ Jesus.........Amen!

 

[Paulus59]

It's cold here and I'm freezing.

 

[Jeshu]

I've never been a good sleeper.

Nor have i but the doctor found an anti depressant, which when used in small dosage brings on sleepiness as a side effect. i take it at night a hour before i go to bed and sleep till morning on it. So for the first time in years i'm getting 8 hours of sleep a day. Because i only take it at night it doesn't effect me during the day.

This anti-depressant might work for you as well, Mirtazapine it is called, and it comes in 15 mg tablets, i take half at night.

Good to hear you are doing somewhat better. Depression is hard to deal with on a daily basis.

I hope that your son is able to turn to Jesus through this for healing and as a guiding light.

He has been very busy with The Lord, for the first time in years, and has repented from a lot of sins, also in relation to his marriage. We see 50-50 fault but the other party doesn't want to admit to any fault and blames it all on our son. This makes reconciliation hard. Not sure if our sons renewed focus on the Lord will last but i hope so. He did acknowledge his lack of serving the Lord as one of the contributing factors of bad behaviours in both him and his wife.

Having watched them from very close quarters, they lived their 8 years of marriage next to our house, on the same property. Often time we would hear them argue all the way in our house. So painful when you realise they are not happy. We hope and pray they sort this out and that the other party will also come to the table admitting fault.

Blessings and peace to you

 

[Jeshu]

It's cold here and I'm freezing.

yes it is only 14C where i am! A cold wintry day.

 

[Paulus59]

This anti-depressant might work for you as well, Mirtazapine it is called, and it comes in 15 mg tablets, i take half at night.

Hi Jeshu,

Thank you for that info on Mirtazapine, I hope this medication continues to give you a good night's sleep!

 

[.Mikha'el.]

I'm annoyed because I've got this annoying mole by my eye. I really want it off, but being unemployed, it's tough to justify spending the money to have my doc remove it.

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling a lot better this week. The depression seems to have lifted and i have even been able to program a little.

Hoping everyone else is fine as well.

 

[Lady Bug]

I'm feeling more depressed and more tired lately. The tiredness is probably because I'm not sleeping well at times, but when I was on my previous AD, Wellbutrin, I could get 4 hours sleep and still do my daily tasks without getting too tired. Now if I get 4 hours I'm deader than dead. But I'd rather be on my current AD because I feel more level. However I don't think it's helping my depression. My dose is probably too low. If I go up though, I'll probably get palpitations again. Somehow it needs to be done. There's a blurred line right now because circumstantial depression and biochemical.

 

[Jeshu]

I'm feeling more depressed and more tired lately. The tiredness is probably because I'm not sleeping well at times, but when I was on my previous AD, Wellbutrin, I could get 4 hours sleep and still do my daily tasks without getting too tired. Now if I get 4 hours I'm deader than dead. But I'd rather be on my current AD because I feel more level. However I don't think it's helping my depression. My dose is probably too low. If I go up though, I'll probably get palpitations again. Somehow it needs to be done. There's a blurred line right now because circumstantial depression and biochemical.

Yes lack of sleep is horrible and wears you down. Is there nothing you can take to have a good night sleep at least once in awhile? That is how i used manage my insomnia.

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling a little better. i've had some pretty deep depressive bouts the last week but today it seems to be a little better. At least i feel a lot lighter in my head, not those dark sombre thoughts depression always brings me.

i learned some valuable lessons this week, all had to do with surviving a loving person in a loveless world. More and more Jesus is showing me that only when i love actively can i hear His Voice speaking to me, that is why depression can be such a hard lesson to learn to love through, for love is barely audible.

If someone asks me to go a mile then it can be hard to go the two miles but it is the only way i can win people for Christ. Yet peace of heart and mind cannot be attained when i disobey His voice and listen to my big I again. Egocentricity means lawlessness wins. If there is anything i learned the past 21 years then it is that.

It can be so hard to die to self yet this is where depression gives a hand. It is not hard to let go of a depressed life. It is not hard to admit wrong when we are squashed by it. Neither is it hard to long for better and to be open to perceiving that and to let Jesus sow it in our hearts.

God comes and dwells in our hearts when we love true, how many people have learned to understand that? To love true is what Jesus commands us to do.

To love true can sure be a hard lesson to learn! i think only when Jesus comes and makes His Home in us does the meaning of true love become clear, for that is what He does best! Loving wrong away.

Faith in God's love brings Jesus close in Spirit. Faith in God's love is the only thing that can get me through my depressive bouts.

Honest depressed brothers and sisters faith in God's love can get you out of your pit as well.

Be of good courage.

 

[Paulus59]

Faith in God's love brings Jesus close in Spirit. Faith in God's love is the only thing that can get me through my depressive bouts.

Honest depressed brothers and sisters faith in God's love can get you out of your pit as well.

Be of good courage.

Amen to that Jeshu. God's love is a light shining in the darkness and I hope that God's love continues to grow in your heart till your cup overflows with his blessings.

 

[ChristianGirl_96]

happiness

 

[Lady Bug]

Yes lack of sleep is horrible and wears you down. Is there nothing you can take to have a good night sleep at least once in awhile? That is how i used manage my insomnia.

I do have trazadone but I think it made me hungry and have a horrible hangover. I have melatonin but haven't used it in awhile. I can fall asleep OK, but I can't necessarily stay asleep as well.

 

[Jeshu]

I do have trazadone but I think it made me hungry and have a horrible hangover. I have melatonin but haven't used it in awhile. I can fall asleep OK, but I can't necessarily stay asleep as well.

Yes it can be a real struggle to stay asleep. To medicate heavily once in awhile to get some well earned rest is the best way to deal with it i suppose. It is hard to be short on sleep. Suffered from that for years. Still have to discipline myself to stay in bed because i awake so often after 3am. It doesn't always work.

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling slightly sick. Caught a cold and fighting off a chest infection. Depression wise i'm doing a little better than before. Thanks for praying.