- Feb 20, 2018
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Listen in my childhood you can see my story basically I hated god for luck for 10 months atleast and I was basically a reprobate and everytime something bad would happen to me I'd blame god and I didnt think I could ever go TOO far because in the back of my head I knew I could be forgiven when I was about to die but now thats different am I doomed for doing those evil deeds expecting to be forgiven in the sight of god because all I did was sin I was a friend of the world had no enemies I once dabbled in christianity in the church only to learn a bit and I watched the movie son of god and I heard about hell it was scary I felt like I had a soul that it wasnt dead as it is now I JUST FEEL A BODY LITERALLY I feel nothing in my emotions I dont wanna be damned I trembled so much while reading the measurements of sin and the unpardonable sin and I keep thinking in my thoughts about committing it its in my tongue like I'm slightly tempted to but Im not going to ever not even until death how do I STOP THINKING ABOUT COMMITTING IT its on my tongue 24/7 is god just trying to kill me I know SO MUCH about the bible compared to then