God hates me.

[Evian]

I won't write out all the things God haven't done, that would take too much time and wasted energy. Seriously God hates me, He is mean to me, He gives me crumbs, and He blesses those who hate Him. Why is He so unfair? Why is it He will never ever in my life give me anything I want? And barely what I need just to survive? I can never get a job, car, husband, home, nice clothes and decent food. I'm in my 40's and live right and praise Him and defend Him, but He continues to forsake me. I am tired of suffering financially all of my natural life, why bless me with intelligence and beauty? It's a cruel joke on His end. I feel trapped and afraid if I stop thanking Him for my very old clothes, bus fare/feet, bread and water, living with family and shelters He will kill me, I feel He is a sadist towards me. I do no wrong to people and love and help others genuinely ALL of the time showing them sincere love. I'm tired of this and ready to rebel so I can live good material filled life and live a life of crime and turn my back on God for good, because of the rate I've been going my whole life since I was a child He allows bad things to happen to me and I'm disappointed at every turn, so there is NO guarantee He will allow me into Heaven. I'm VERY angry with God and told Him so many times, He doesn't care then tells people in church to tell me He loves me. I'm so sensitive and want Him to show me like he does when He financially bless the heathens and unintelligent people. I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with God. He's the abuser and I'm His victim. I Bow to Him daily begging Him to no avail. It's all a mystery to me.

 

[If Not For Grace]

God is not a magic genie there to grant our wishes. If you are of sound mind He has given you a skillset and expects you to use it. God does His part but we also must do our parts to participate in life and show our love and we are to be thankful.

Do not give up (or in to self-ptiy). There is always something to be thankful for. Have you your sight, all your limbs, loved ones, family? There are those who do not. Do you think God hates alll those people too?...God is Love..that is the first lesson to be learned.

 

[Evian]

God is not a magic genie there to grant our wishes. If you are of sound mind He has given you a skillset and expects you to use it. God does His part but we also must do our parts to participate in life and show our love and we are to be thankful.

Do not give up (or in to self-ptiy). There is always something to be thankful for. Have you your sight, all your limbs, loved ones, family? There are those who do not. Do you think God hates alll those people too?...God is Love..that is the first lesson to be learned.

You've made me feel worse, thx a lot. I knew it was a mistake to search for some sound well thought out advice. you didn't take the time to read my post and utilize the gift of discernment, you came with your emotions. I could've got a better response from non-believers.

 

[Hawisher]

I apologize. I stand by what I said about blasphemy, but this was out of line.

 

[usmilret]

You are not leaning on his promises that he has for you. Faith is by hearing, hearing his word for you.
The more you read his word the better off you will be.
The thing is this. You are responsible for what goes through your mind. In spiritual warfare you must discern what is of God and what is not. If it is not of God then it is from the devil who hates God.
You have all the power and authority vested in you from Christ to live a victorious life.
I challenge you to pick up a bible and find any passage where God hates you. He doesn't. However the devil has put in your head that he hates you and you believed it. The devil comes to steal kill and destroy and he is doing just that to you.
Jesus has come to give life and to give life more abundantly. If you are a Christian than you are much more than a conquerer. You should be relying on the power of God. For the Gospel is power. Power for you.
I will tell you this even if I repeated it. The more you read the bible, the more it will transform you and the more that it transform you the more power for living you will have. God works though his word, the word that he has given you.

 

[Coire]

Evian... hi im coire press on. don''t give up. u can keep faith. reach out and grab the treasure that God is holding out to you. reach out to Christ. cling to Him. HE won't let you go and He does love you. believe that. here at the very end of your rope...dare to let go cos where you end, God is only just beginning. He has a plan for ur life. i know u can't see it now and its ok to question God...Job did. but be ready for His answer because its not always wat u want but its just right for you. Know that He is God, and seek to use these pains and hardships for His glory. trust me, u aren't the only one who feels like giving up because u've been dealt a hand u don't like. u just need to press on! winners are those who, no matter how hard u are hit, press forward...they are also the ones with the greatest faith of all. keep going

 

[Kathy44]

Hi Evian, I felt so saddened by your post - and am concerned about your well-being. If its ok with you, I would like to committ to praying regularly for your protection, peace and wholeness in Jesus Christ. His death and resurrection conquered the works of the devil and I like you struggled to recieve this into my heart and allowed satan to work through me more than the Holy Spirit- hense a very unfulfilled and confused existence.

I have since made a conscious decision to believe all the wonderful things God thinks of me and recieve all he has for me....I have never felt peace like it. From a worldly view - it looks like my life is in a pretty insecure position....but I have never felt so secure.

Bless you Evian

 

[Hoshiyya]

I won't write out all the things God haven't done, that would take too much time and wasted energy. Seriously God hates me, He is mean to me, He gives me crumbs, and He blesses those who hate Him. Why is He so unfair? Why is it He will never ever in my life give me anything I want? And barely what I need just to survive? I can never get a job, car, husband, home, nice clothes and decent food. I'm in my 40's and live right and praise Him and defend Him, but He continues to forsake me. I am tired of suffering financially all of my natural life, why bless me with intelligence and beauty? It's a cruel joke on His end. I feel trapped and afraid if I stop thanking Him for my very old clothes, bus fare/feet, bread and water, living with family and shelters He will kill me, I feel He is a sadist towards me. I do no wrong to people and love and help others genuinely ALL of the time showing them sincere love. I'm tired of this and ready to rebel so I can live good material filled life and live a life of crime and turn my back on God for good, because of the rate I've been going my whole life since I was a child He allows bad things to happen to me and I'm disappointed at every turn, so there is NO guarantee He will allow me into Heaven. I'm VERY angry with God and told Him so many times, He doesn't care then tells people in church to tell me He loves me. I'm so sensitive and want Him to show me like he does when He financially bless the heathens and unintelligent people. I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with God. He's the abuser and I'm His victim. I Bow to Him daily begging Him to no avail. It's all a mystery to me.

Sister, I've felt similarly, more often that I'd like to admit.

I find one of the few things that helps is to abstain from saying these things vocally, and instead saying them mentally - another thing you can do is look for sympathetic verses in the Scriptures, and there's many. There's an entire book called Lamentations. Ecclesiastes and the Psalms are full of such sentiments as well, not to mention that Christ suffered IMMENSELY.

The prophet Jeremiah, utilizing a very telling phraseology, said:

"You are always righteous, LORD, when I bring a case before you. Yet I would speak with you about your justice: Why does the way of the wicked prosper? Why do all the faithless live at ease?" (ch. 12:1)

James, the no-nonsense Apostle, says:

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. "
(ch. 1:2-4)

 

[Hawisher]

Sister, you have it rough. There's no denying that. You certainly have it harder than a man who was brutally beaten, made to carry a crushing load, and nailed to a tree.

No, wait. You don't. My mistake.

 

[Hoshiyya]

Sister, you have it rough. There's no denying that. You certainly have it harder than a man who was brutally beaten, made to carry a crushing load, and nailed to a tree.

No, wait. You don't. My mistake.

Just becase he suffered more, doesn't mean he was the only to suffer. The scriptures acknowledge that we all suffer, and should sympathize with each other.

 

[Hoshiyya]

Maybe this verse is worth contemplating as well:

For it is better, if it is God's will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.
(1 Peter 3:17)

 

[Catherineanne]

I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with God. He's the abuser and I'm His victim. I Bow to Him daily begging Him to no avail. It's all a mystery to me.

Hi Evian, nice to meet you.

I understand what you are saying; it is indeed the case that some of us accept God's will for our lives, and end up suffering hardships as a result. You have yours, other people will have theirs. None of us is promised affluence and happiness in this world, for the simple reason that satan is the prince of this world; he is the one who offers those kinds of things.

The Lord offers instead the narrow path which leads to the cross. This is a path that he himself followed, and it is a path that some of us also have to follow. Those of us who do follow this path are not hated by God, but the exact opposite. It is a sign of his blessing; we are closest to his heart. It may not feel that way, but it is true.

Your choice is simple; accept his will for your life, and accept whatever he brings to you as a result. If you do this, you will grow in grace, and you will accumulate great treasure in heaven, but may never be rich on earth.

Alternatively, you can give up on God. But if you do this, who do you have to turn to instead?

I would encourage you to continue with your prayers, but ask God to have mercy on you, and not expect too much. Bear in mind, however, that the Lord himself said this in Gethsemane, and the next day he died. God did not hate him, and he does not hate us.

God be with you.

 

[JoyT86]

I would recommend reading the book of Job. It's not a very long book, but it always helps me when I have feelings or thoughts that God has just turned his back on me. I pray the Lord heals you, friend. God bless you, and if you ever need someone to talk to you can PM me!

Joy

 

[REPHAIAHPEDAHEL]

I could not help not notice all the 'I's in your post! You have taken self consciousness to a whole new level. GOD loves you so much but what you must understand is that you cannot do anything to deserve God's blessings, Jesus did it all for you at the cross. Who said that you are supposed to beg from God? Rest in His finished work and just receive!

Mat 6:31-34 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

What is the kingdom of God?

Rom 14:17 For the kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.

What is God's righteousness?

Rom 10:1-4 Brethren, my heart's desire and my prayer to God for them is for their salvation. For I testify about them that they have a zeal for God, but not in accordance with knowledge. For not knowing about God's righteousness and seeking to establish their own, they did not subject themselves to the righteousness of God. For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes.

We are under the new covenant of grace today and righteousness or Being right with God is a gift by faith in Christ. Many people still think that you have to do right and then you will become right in God's eyes and when you are right enough, God is going to move but that is not true. We receive God's righteousness as a gift and that will cause us to do right, not the other way round.

All those things God knows you need them but you are so focused on your self and your negative circumstances. I suggest you focus on the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all those things will be added to you!

Rom 1:16-17 For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes ... For in it (the gospel) the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, "BUT THE RIGHTEOUS man SHALL LIVE BY FAITH."

What is the gospel? In Paul's own words (He is the one who wrote romans)

Act 20:24 "But I do not consider my life of any account as dear to myself, so that I may finish my course and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify solemnly of the gospel of the grace of God.

What is the meaning of God's grace? It means unmerited, undeserved, unearned favour of God!

Rom 11:6 But if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works, otherwise grace is no longer grace.

That word salvation in the greek is soteria which is derived from sozo (saved) and it means much more than not going to hell. It means health, wholeness, prosperity, deliverence etc.

So the gospel of God's grace (His unmerited favor) is His power to prosper you in every area of your life. God reveals His righteousness as a gift to be received by faith and it continues through faith.

Start believing correctly, stop believing all your weird ideas about God hating you! How is that going to make things better for you!

Knowing you are righteous by faith, go in to the old testament, there are loads of promises for the righteous and focus on them and when you finally get all those blessings Jesus died to freely give you remember to come back here and give us your testimony!

 

[Sketcher]

How exactly has God been abusing you?

 

[ChristOurCaptain]

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Yeah, that ain't helping!
Anyone who claims that they never feel as the OP stated are lying to themselves, and those they tell that lie to.
"Think of the people in Africa" was bovine manure when your moms used it as a coercion to get you to finish everything on the plate, and it's equal bovine manure now.

Are there people a lot worse off than any of us in the West?
Yes.
But unless none of you ever want for anything, or have disappointments, or feel treated unjustly, you're a bunch of hypocrites who are so caught up in protecting the masquerade of "Yeah, everyything's fine and dandy, and it's always awesome to be a Christian, because God is so totally good always!" that is so common to Christians, that you can't see the pain and the anguish of your brothers and sisters in front of you.

And unless you yourselves do a whole lot to alleviate the situation in Africa (which I'm guessing you don't, because those who do are often the last ones to make those kinds of comparisons), you've got no right to use that card.

A sister in Christ is heartbroken and despairing, and you mock her? And you Pharisees have the audacity to call yourselves Christians?

OP:
I know your pain.
God often seems like a jerk.
But when I get that feeling, I do look to the few blessings God has allowed me: Relative health, a few good friends, and family.
As well as look to Jesus, who we can count on being a true representation of God. As Jesus is, so is God. So when God feels far away, and feels like the kid with the magnifying glass and us as the ants, go look at what He himself has said to us: There will be trials. There will be hardships. There will be times when we cannot see the point. No one knows this better than those who belong to God - take the example of the Apostles, for instance. They suffered more than anyone, and yet didn't lose sight of Him they belonged to. I'm pretty sure Paul must have thought to himself that God was an SOB once or twice, with what he was put through, but he still did not succumb to despair; but focused on making the best with what he had, and proclaiming the Kingdom until God saw it fit to call him home.

In short: Do your best to improve your situation as best you can, and keep focused on Christ, and his promises to us.
Be blessed - and ignore the snake's words...in whatever shape they take.

to Herodthegreat.
You were never a Christian, you never made a personal choice to accept Jesus Christ as your Savior and you never gave Him a chance to transform your life.

Ah yes...prosperity gospel. The heresy most likely to lead you to despair, or to develop a massive cognitive dissonance.

 

[Prosper4Him]

Well, I understand fully how she feels actually. Ya'll can hate on me too if you want lol!

I lost everything that had meaning in my life. My family, two beautiful children, my job, my vehicle and so much more. (There's a price to pay, that's for sure) but I still love God.

I didn't deserve to lose my children. Their mother beat the hell out of them and the police did nothing about it. (Today, DFCS has an open case against the children's mother.) Two and a half years too LATE!

I lost my family based off the filthy and hateful lies my father told to everyone.

I was forced into marriage by my family that later costed me 5 years of grief and hardship.

Am I angry? Not anymore. I don't understand why God allowed that to happen to me but it's made me stronger and much wiser today. I'm very protective over my life because of what happened and mentally, I'm a little pushed away when it comes to emotion and expression of it. IDK if you would call it "humble" but whatever snapped on the inside of me works in my favor today.

I don't put up bs like I used to and I'm at times brutally honest and especially towards those who are trying to hurt me. I'm very direct and to the point.

I "hate" a liar and a thief and I honestly will admit that I'd kill a thief given the opportunity.

You guys can hate me too. You'll never know what it's like until it happens to you which I pray it doesn't.

 

[Kurama]

I'm sorry but I don't think I read the title of the thread properly... God ha....God hat....no I'm sorry, I just can't say it. God hates nothing other than the sins we commit, because sins make us move further apart from Him. It is because of His great love for us that He hates it when we sin, but He doesn't and could never ever hate us, for He gave us life.

With that being said, I still have sympathy for you of course. However please do not believe that God is persecuting you! Why would God persecute the only group of people [Christians] who acknowledge that we humans are sinful, and accepts the forgiveness that Christ gave to us by dying on the cross? Wouldn't that simply lead to the whole of humanity going to hell?

Please do not feel alone or unhappy, for God really does not want you to feel this way. Please ask a Chaplain if you really need help.

God bless

Well, I understand fully how she feels actually. Ya'll can hate on me too if you want lol!

I lost everything that had meaning in my life. My family, two beautiful children, my job, my vehicle and so much more. (There's a price to pay, that's for sure) but I still love God.

I didn't deserve to lose my children. Their mother beat the hell out of them and the police did nothing about it. (Today, DFCS has an open case against the children's mother.) Two and a half years too LATE!

I lost my family based off the filthy and hateful lies my father told to everyone.

I was forced into marriage by my family that later costed me 5 years of grief and hardship.

Am I angry? Not anymore. I don't understand why God allowed that to happen to me but it's made me stronger and much wiser today. I'm very protective over my life because of what happened and mentally, I'm a little pushed away when it comes to emotion and expression of it. IDK if you would call it "humble" but whatever snapped on the inside of me works in my favor today.

I don't put up bs like I used to and I'm at times brutally honest and especially towards those who are trying to hurt me. I'm very direct and to the point.

I "hate" a liar and a thief and I honestly will admit that I'd kill a thief given the opportunity.

You guys can hate me too. You'll never know what it's like until it happens to you which I pray it doesn't.

My goodness, what a brave man you are, and I simply cannot read what you've written without giving you a suitable reply! The hardships that you have faced...all those emotions and yet...you still have love towards God. Well of course there are many Christians who would always maintain love to our Lord, but clearly it takes a massive amount of courage, will and dignity to do so. Although I consider myself a Christian and pray to our Lord everyday, I have to honestly admit by my heart that I wouldn't know how to cope if I were in your situation.

Indeed I am still young, but that only means that bad things could happen to me too. Your words have quite a large impact on me, and I really don't know what to think after reading your words, apart from how spoilt and unworthy I am... The things I complain about...the things I do to make fun of others...oh Lord forgive my sins! I feel pretty bad though reflecting back on my life...but I feel happy at the same time because I can change.

I truly admire and respect your spirit, and hope others can learn from you. God bless!

 

[amandatea]

I won't write out all the things God haven't done, that would take too much time and wasted energy. Seriously God hates me, He is mean to me, He gives me crumbs, and He blesses those who hate Him. Why is He so unfair? Why is it He will never ever in my life give me anything I want? And barely what I need just to survive? I can never get a job, car, husband, home, nice clothes and decent food. I'm in my 40's and live right and praise Him and defend Him, but He continues to forsake me. I am tired of suffering financially all of my natural life, why bless me with intelligence and beauty? It's a cruel joke on His end. I feel trapped and afraid if I stop thanking Him for my very old clothes, bus fare/feet, bread and water, living with family and shelters He will kill me, I feel He is a sadist towards me. I do no wrong to people and love and help others genuinely ALL of the time showing them sincere love. I'm tired of this and ready to rebel so I can live good material filled life and live a life of crime and turn my back on God for good, because of the rate I've been going my whole life since I was a child He allows bad things to happen to me and I'm disappointed at every turn, so there is NO guarantee He will allow me into Heaven. I'm VERY angry with God and told Him so many times, He doesn't care then tells people in church to tell me He loves me. I'm so sensitive and want Him to show me like he does when He financially bless the heathens and unintelligent people. I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with God. He's the abuser and I'm His victim. I Bow to Him daily begging Him to no avail. It's all a mystery to me.

You should read the book of Job. He lost everything and still worshipped God loyally.

 

[Hawisher]

etc....

Yeah, that ain't helping!
Anyone who claims that they never feel as the OP stated are lying to themselves, and those they tell that lie to.
"Think of the people in Africa" was bovine manure when your moms used it as a coercion to get you to finish everything on the plate, and it's equal bovine manure now.

Are there people a lot worse off than any of us in the West?
Yes.
But unless none of you ever want for anything, or have disappointments, or feel treated unjustly, you're a bunch of hypocrites who are so caught up in protecting the masquerade of "Yeah, everyything's fine and dandy, and it's always awesome to be a Christian, because God is so totally good always!" that is so common to Christians, that you can't see the pain and the anguish of your brothers and sisters in front of you.

And unless you yourselves do a whole lot to alleviate the situation in Africa (which I'm guessing you don't, because those who do are often the last ones to make those kinds of comparisons), you've got no right to use that card.

A sister in Christ is heartbroken and despairing, and you mock her? And you Pharisees have the audacity to call yourselves Christians?

OP:
I know your pain.
God often seems like a jerk.
But when I get that feeling, I do look to the few blessings God has allowed me: Relative health, a few good friends, and family.
As well as look to Jesus, who we can count on being a true representation of God. As Jesus is, so is God. So when God feels far away, and feels like the kid with the magnifying glass and us as the ants, go look at what He himself has said to us: There will be trials. There will be hardships. There will be times when we cannot see the point. No one knows this better than those who belong to God - take the example of the Apostles, for instance. They suffered more than anyone, and yet didn't lose sight of Him they belonged to. I'm pretty sure Paul must have thought to himself that God was an SOB once or twice, with what he was put through, but he still did not succumb to despair; but focused on making the best with what he had, and proclaiming the Kingdom until God saw it fit to call him home.

In short: Do your best to improve your situation as best you can, and keep focused on Christ, and his promises to us.
Be blessed - and ignore the snake's words...in whatever shape they take.



Ah yes...prosperity gospel. The heresy most likely to lead you to despair, or to develop a massive cognitive dissonance.

You know, I usually manage to devolve into hatred of my life WITHOUT blaspheming against God. Maybe that's just me, though.