Faith Guardian, you might want to take a look around you -- at some of the other posters here like Split Rock, Thaumaturgy, Nathan Poe, and California [something].
These guys, at one time, were where you are now -- i.e. Church-going believers who read their Bibles.
But at some point in their life, their allegiance to science led them to having questions that their undershepherds couldn't answer, and the cognitive dissonance was so great, they are now no longer believers -- (guys, please correct me, if I'm wrong).
I get the impression you're on that path as well, but [Ar Cosc take note of these next 4 words:] I could be wrong.
If you don't fall completely away, it's probably because you are a nanotech, and don't see nature as they do, from their respective fields.
In short, these guys love science and nature just as you do, but apparently you see something (or Something) in nature that they once saw, but no longer do; and I'm afraid for you, lest you too err from grace.