As I've been reading through some of the posts, I've realized that many of us are so mis-understood by society.
So many times I've gotten so frustrated, for I always seem to be backing into a shell around certain people. I've had to bite my tongue more times than not when people are judgemental and I'm not sure how many more times I'm going to be able to do that afore snapping!
I usually don't see a lot of people on my bad days and so they think that I'm just fine and dandy......so they're just like, "well you seem fine to me" or "you don't act bipolar" or better yet "mental illness is over-rated I think they just wanna label you and get money for treating you for something that don't exist"...............Number one, sure I may seem fine at the moment, for it's more than likely one of my good days or I'm putting a smile on my face just to hide what I'm really feeling on the inside, which is breaking down and crying for reasons I can't explain...........number two, how do they expect us bipolars to act? And if they don't know anything about it to begin with, then how do they know I don't act bipolar?......number three, just because they can handle stress better than me, or they do have a problem and are in denial, doesn't mean the illness doesn't exist.
I don't really expect anyone to understand me, for I don't understand myself most of the time. But I do however, expect for people to respect me as a person and stop judging me just because I'm not like them. If I was like them, then I wouldn't be unique.
I also get hammered on when my sister in law starts judging people who are being abused and things such as that. She sits and says she don't understand why people just stay there and take it instead of just up and leaving and getting out of the situation. Number one, she's never been in that situation, so the way I see it, she has no right to sit and talk about such people. Number two, meanings she knows SQUAT, she don't realize that some situations ain't as easy to get out of. And, she knows that I was in a VERY abusive relationship. It really tweeks my melon when she gives her opionion on things that's really none of her concern.
Hubby's ex won't even let my step son come over unless his daddy is here. She don't want him to be alone with me. I have given her no reason at all to think that I am not capable of taking care of a child. Just because I'm bipolar don't mean I'm a bad person and it don't mean I don't know what I'm doing. When she first found out I was bipolar, I still don't know who informed her, she asked hubby if he was ever afraid of me.
Although I don't have kids of my own, I have actually raised other people's kids just fine. Sure, she tweeks my melon by the crazy things she says and does to keep conflict goin and yeah, I've dared for her to come to my door at times, but when you try to throw hubby in jail for kidnapping after letting him take him through the holiday, yeah I'm gonna be upset! DUH BIG RED TRUCK!
Anywho, I figured since a lot of us go through this, this would be a good thread to vent such things.
's and es!!
So many times I've gotten so frustrated, for I always seem to be backing into a shell around certain people. I've had to bite my tongue more times than not when people are judgemental and I'm not sure how many more times I'm going to be able to do that afore snapping!
I usually don't see a lot of people on my bad days and so they think that I'm just fine and dandy......so they're just like, "well you seem fine to me" or "you don't act bipolar" or better yet "mental illness is over-rated I think they just wanna label you and get money for treating you for something that don't exist"...............Number one, sure I may seem fine at the moment, for it's more than likely one of my good days or I'm putting a smile on my face just to hide what I'm really feeling on the inside, which is breaking down and crying for reasons I can't explain...........number two, how do they expect us bipolars to act? And if they don't know anything about it to begin with, then how do they know I don't act bipolar?......number three, just because they can handle stress better than me, or they do have a problem and are in denial, doesn't mean the illness doesn't exist.
I don't really expect anyone to understand me, for I don't understand myself most of the time. But I do however, expect for people to respect me as a person and stop judging me just because I'm not like them. If I was like them, then I wouldn't be unique.
I also get hammered on when my sister in law starts judging people who are being abused and things such as that. She sits and says she don't understand why people just stay there and take it instead of just up and leaving and getting out of the situation. Number one, she's never been in that situation, so the way I see it, she has no right to sit and talk about such people. Number two, meanings she knows SQUAT, she don't realize that some situations ain't as easy to get out of. And, she knows that I was in a VERY abusive relationship. It really tweeks my melon when she gives her opionion on things that's really none of her concern.
Hubby's ex won't even let my step son come over unless his daddy is here. She don't want him to be alone with me. I have given her no reason at all to think that I am not capable of taking care of a child. Just because I'm bipolar don't mean I'm a bad person and it don't mean I don't know what I'm doing. When she first found out I was bipolar, I still don't know who informed her, she asked hubby if he was ever afraid of me.
Although I don't have kids of my own, I have actually raised other people's kids just fine. Sure, she tweeks my melon by the crazy things she says and does to keep conflict goin and yeah, I've dared for her to come to my door at times, but when you try to throw hubby in jail for kidnapping after letting him take him through the holiday, yeah I'm gonna be upset! DUH BIG RED TRUCK!
Anywho, I figured since a lot of us go through this, this would be a good thread to vent such things.
's and es!!