Lately I have been struggling so much, hearing the echoes of condemnation from the past, and then hearing it more and more from others. Accusations without reason, presumptions without knowledge, and completely devoid of Truth.
There seems to be a game that people play. A game of hatred, and not of love. See how much damage you can do to someone, because they disagree with your opinion. I will never win at that game, because I will never try. I forfeit. I would never want anyone to feel the way I have been feeling. The Love of God is so much greater, so much deeper, so much MORE than anything, any feeling, any sensation, any emotion and any action. And I have felt it, deeply. And I want Lord to use me to bring it to everyone. It's a love that doesn't quit. It's a love that is always devoted to God and to His will and His Truth. It's a love that brings grace and mercy. It exhorts and edifies. It helps people grow in Christ, and it never condemns.
I had a wonderful day today. Last night, I was in a hotel room staying overnight for work, and I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned, I was excited because the Lord had made me bear some fruit, but the wolves had been attacking, sharp teeth all evening. My heart was hurting. Then it started raining outside. So I took my duvet, wrapped it around me, put my pillows on the floor, and slept by the window listening to the blessings coming from Heaven against the window. The Lord comforting me. I slept well.
Then He strengthened me all day, working out those deep issues in me, removing the fiery darts that had entered my heart. As I was leaving work, the wind started blowing, and I felt one strong wind wrapping around me like a big, wonderful hug from our Creator!
His Love is more than I can ever understand, but I feel it deeply.
Despite everything that has gone wrong, that does go wrong and that will go wrong, He is always with me.
There seems to be a game that people play. A game of hatred, and not of love. See how much damage you can do to someone, because they disagree with your opinion. I will never win at that game, because I will never try. I forfeit. I would never want anyone to feel the way I have been feeling. The Love of God is so much greater, so much deeper, so much MORE than anything, any feeling, any sensation, any emotion and any action. And I have felt it, deeply. And I want Lord to use me to bring it to everyone. It's a love that doesn't quit. It's a love that is always devoted to God and to His will and His Truth. It's a love that brings grace and mercy. It exhorts and edifies. It helps people grow in Christ, and it never condemns.
I had a wonderful day today. Last night, I was in a hotel room staying overnight for work, and I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned, I was excited because the Lord had made me bear some fruit, but the wolves had been attacking, sharp teeth all evening. My heart was hurting. Then it started raining outside. So I took my duvet, wrapped it around me, put my pillows on the floor, and slept by the window listening to the blessings coming from Heaven against the window. The Lord comforting me. I slept well.
Then He strengthened me all day, working out those deep issues in me, removing the fiery darts that had entered my heart. As I was leaving work, the wind started blowing, and I felt one strong wind wrapping around me like a big, wonderful hug from our Creator!
His Love is more than I can ever understand, but I feel it deeply.
Despite everything that has gone wrong, that does go wrong and that will go wrong, He is always with me.
