I have been struggling very much today. Feelings of condemnation and accusations, voices from what people have spoken that still haunt me. What if, what if, what if? What if they are right? I'm feeling like God is far away, not loving me, even though I can feel Him being right there with me.
I know I shouldn't listen, I know it's of the flesh and from the enemy. But my heart is so fragile, and I am so sensitive.
But as long as what they say isn't according to Scripture, it's always, always wrong.
So God keeps telling me not to listen. It's not coming from Him, and it never has, but from their own minds, or from the enemy, and their words are sin for them. So I should only forgive and then let go. Wear my Armor! He has given me everything I need already to stand strong, and be steadfast in faith. So why am I giving in? Why do the lies still get stuck in my mind?
One negative word, and I fall apart. God would never tell anyone to speak those words. Don't listen! Because God is for me, and not against me.
I'm not as eloquent as some people, but neither was Paul, so no worries, I don't have to be. God knows what's in my heart. I'm just trying my hardest to live for Him, every day. No one can judge me for where I am in my walk right now. God knows me, He loves me, and He is fighting for me. And I am His. I belong to Jesus.
I'm gonna need to ask God for a bigger shield. My faith is so strong, but when the fiery darts come, I lower it. I don't know why. But it's hurting me.
My Sword is raised, and I wield it well, and I have the rest of my Armor on, but as long as I get struck by those darts, I'm still gonna get hurt.
There is so much pain in my heart still too. I'm just gonna have to keep giving all of it to God. And I have to keep being obedient even when it feels like I'm getting crushed by everything around me. I don't mind suffering for Christ though, it's worth it for whatever purpose God has for it. And He does have a purpose, He keeps telling me. And I keep seeing the results of it. Compassion and love, wisdom, understanding, closeness to Jesus, deeper faith, courage, and lots of patience and perseverance. God is going to use all of my suffering for His Glory, and I long to see it.
Just sharing what's in my heart.
Father, I love You, and I love Your Son! I am all Yours. My life is Yours to use, so keep leading me, keep teaching me, and keep healing me, keep bringing me closer to You. Convict me and cleanse me of all of my sins, and remove everything in my life that is standing between us. Help me forgive those who have hurt me, and soften my heart so I can love them. Your will be done! In Jesus' name, Amen!
I know I shouldn't listen, I know it's of the flesh and from the enemy. But my heart is so fragile, and I am so sensitive.
But as long as what they say isn't according to Scripture, it's always, always wrong.
So God keeps telling me not to listen. It's not coming from Him, and it never has, but from their own minds, or from the enemy, and their words are sin for them. So I should only forgive and then let go. Wear my Armor! He has given me everything I need already to stand strong, and be steadfast in faith. So why am I giving in? Why do the lies still get stuck in my mind?
One negative word, and I fall apart. God would never tell anyone to speak those words. Don't listen! Because God is for me, and not against me.
I'm not as eloquent as some people, but neither was Paul, so no worries, I don't have to be. God knows what's in my heart. I'm just trying my hardest to live for Him, every day. No one can judge me for where I am in my walk right now. God knows me, He loves me, and He is fighting for me. And I am His. I belong to Jesus.
I'm gonna need to ask God for a bigger shield. My faith is so strong, but when the fiery darts come, I lower it. I don't know why. But it's hurting me.
My Sword is raised, and I wield it well, and I have the rest of my Armor on, but as long as I get struck by those darts, I'm still gonna get hurt.
There is so much pain in my heart still too. I'm just gonna have to keep giving all of it to God. And I have to keep being obedient even when it feels like I'm getting crushed by everything around me. I don't mind suffering for Christ though, it's worth it for whatever purpose God has for it. And He does have a purpose, He keeps telling me. And I keep seeing the results of it. Compassion and love, wisdom, understanding, closeness to Jesus, deeper faith, courage, and lots of patience and perseverance. God is going to use all of my suffering for His Glory, and I long to see it.
Just sharing what's in my heart.
Father, I love You, and I love Your Son! I am all Yours. My life is Yours to use, so keep leading me, keep teaching me, and keep healing me, keep bringing me closer to You. Convict me and cleanse me of all of my sins, and remove everything in my life that is standing between us. Help me forgive those who have hurt me, and soften my heart so I can love them. Your will be done! In Jesus' name, Amen!
