Dealing with hearing loss and tinnitus the only real hope that I can hold onto is hope for a treatment are cure coming in the next few years from medical research.
Most people would say give up and stop putting your hope in that and instead put your hope in God. Most people would say stop asking for such things from God as his answer must obviously be "no" and start just learning to endure patiently and accept your cross.
For some reason.... I just haven't been able to stop hoping that one day there will be a treatment or cure for my condition. But I also want to trust in God. I daily pray for these things not just for myself but for everyone like me who is going through such suffering year after year after year. I haven't been able to stop praying for it. Logic would dictate that I stop praying for this. But, I can't.
Is it wrong to continually ask God for this alongside asking for strength and the ability to endure. Is it wrong to wait so long for something that may never happen in my entire life?
But then I think, why would God bring information about research to my attention continually if there is no hope to be found in them?
Sometimes I think that in all my agony and daily tears that I am an absolute fool to keep hoping for this and keep praying for this.
I am waiting on God and I don't know why my fallable human mind won't let go of this idea that God has His hand in this and that my hope isn't in vain. But waiting is so hard to do.
I want to continue waiting on God but I desperately pray that my hope is not in vain. If it is I think I should die.
Most people would say give up and stop putting your hope in that and instead put your hope in God. Most people would say stop asking for such things from God as his answer must obviously be "no" and start just learning to endure patiently and accept your cross.
For some reason.... I just haven't been able to stop hoping that one day there will be a treatment or cure for my condition. But I also want to trust in God. I daily pray for these things not just for myself but for everyone like me who is going through such suffering year after year after year. I haven't been able to stop praying for it. Logic would dictate that I stop praying for this. But, I can't.
Is it wrong to continually ask God for this alongside asking for strength and the ability to endure. Is it wrong to wait so long for something that may never happen in my entire life?
But then I think, why would God bring information about research to my attention continually if there is no hope to be found in them?
Sometimes I think that in all my agony and daily tears that I am an absolute fool to keep hoping for this and keep praying for this.
I am waiting on God and I don't know why my fallable human mind won't let go of this idea that God has His hand in this and that my hope isn't in vain. But waiting is so hard to do.
I want to continue waiting on God but I desperately pray that my hope is not in vain. If it is I think I should die.
