I found five years I am so much happier...Like I am free from worries so I found something to worry over..R is my good friend.... Now my worry is more real and valid... Job insecurity.. I have lots of fear... Though I have listened to messages and also heard the Holy Spirit spoke to me through...
i hope this time i am more strong and more determined to break free from r cluctches...
i have not written since oct coz all the while she had relationship problems with her boy as well as friends... when she is down she would look for me then our friendship would improve...but when everything...
Life is so meaningless! How good if I have a stone heart and I
Can handle setbacks! I tried to do go things but nobody is supportive even my sister is so so
Selfish
Don't know what I am waiting for? Keep on looking at phone to see if I got messages? Do I expect that selfish r will text me? She is self-centered just like most of her friends. But I don't know why I got such a soft spot for r. Times after times I hv been insulted on
My worthlessness and...
I am sad to let go but i know i have to...
I am so so depressed...how come r is a fair weathered friends, she juz forgotten how her friends deserted when she needed support... now she is in a happy mood, reconciled with her friends, she juz kicked me out... Its okay, juz take it that i m doing a...
again r did the cold treatment to me... told me not to wait, cited working late etc... all nonsense... But i dont have friends to sympathise with me anymore... coz they are already told me to walk out... i ask for it coz of loneliness, i need company, so people and r can tell that i desired for...
Its good that I have not been visiting this site for several months...the last time i visted this site was 14 March, wow almost 4 months... So these four months i m not lonely.. Yes coz r is lonely and need my presence.. so i m not lonely... if everything goes right with r, friendship...
I read an article that to learn to be independent and finally when you achieved you no longer need company to do things... but then its gets lonelier....
I know that I should dependent on God but God also created friends... I pray for balance...maybe like running errands when you dont need to...
I think I have serious self-esteem problem...since young maybe, during my childhood days and in school days as well. Now its the repercussion... Its no wonder, i am often upset at my friends if they miss me for anything... sigh...actually, if good friends does that, it really hurts... though...
Nowadays I hate to text messages not because i dont enjoy but i dont enjoy not having a response... like friends just treat u as transparent...they only response when they need u to pray for them.
recently, i text to my good friend on my grouses in my workplace... she didnt response... sigh...
Again r make me angry... invited me this sat for an activity... then when i asked her to check and revert by today... she said i better go for my appointment... you can see that she is not sincere and dont care attitude... i m very disgusted how come i invested so much time and time again... why...
:kiss:Though I am upset with T that she didnt response to my msg but i am full of admiration for her carefree personality. Its like she doesnt need much of attention and company, and is very independent. If only i can be like her more, than i will be less hurt.
R, i know she is like very...
Life is indeed a lonely journey... Even with God around, there will always be challenges... Firstly, its my job, then my relationship with friends, and colleagues and now my health... It always never ending... Its even more exciting than roller coaster... For roller coaster, there is a time...
Life is indeed a lonely journey... Even with God around, there will always be challenges... Firstly, its my job, then my relationship with friends, and colleagues and now my health... It always never ending... Its even more exciting than roller coaster... For roller coaster, there is a time...
Life is indeed a lonely journey... Even with God around, there will always be challenges... Firstly, its my job, then my relationship with friends, and colleagues and now my health... It always never ending... Its even more exciting than roller coaster... For roller coaster, there is a time...
I also hope my loneliness will pass if i continue to endure...but apparently, its not... i have tried all ways to overcome, tried to be friendly, only to be hurt by friends, tried to do things independently but only to feel more alone.. tried to join social group, but felt so left out... I dont...
I am so so lonely...will loneliness make one bitter or coz I am bitter that's why I am lonely. That's why its better to forgive.... I just dont understand myself, why am I filled with so much bitterness, especially with my encounter during my last 2 years.... Wheneve my thoughts is filled with...
I am feeling very very lonely. Should a christain be feeling like that?
I begining to think it has nothing to do with r.... maybe i dont know how to relate to others, dont know how to keep friends, and i am very emotional....
I am a listener, but an emotional one... so so..
I am praying...