With God All Things are Possible

[Tara]

I have let God down so many times and not once has He forsaken me. God makes me feel so humble and I am truly sorry for all the hurt I have caused Him. He has answered so many prayers in such startling ways that I would not know where to begin. So I have decided to tell you about them one at a time every couple of days until I run out.

This happened to me about two and a half years ago. I was on my way home from work and was stood waiting for the bus. The place was crowded and there was a man raving and ranting at everyone. He walked to a young girl and was shouting in her face, I thought that he was going to hit her and I felt I should be defending her, but I just stood there helpless. I knew that he was going to come to me and he was very threatening. I was really scared, I have to tell you here that I am a very bad coward. I closed my eyes and asked Jesus to help me deal with it in the right way. How I love Jesus. Indeed this raving man did storm up to me and began shouting in my face. I looked into his eyes and all of a sudden he stopped and stepped back pointing into my face. He said "You, You". I did not know him, never seen him before. He said "You are from ...." didn't hear the last word and I guessed he said Salford. I was going to tell him that I didn't come from there but my grandmother's family did. He said "You are from .... aren't you, I know you are" I opened tried to open my mouth to speak but I couldn't, I felt so calm and peaceful. He then said "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I was angry and my mother is so ill and I missed my bus and I was just so angry." He became as gentle as a lamb and my tongue was loosened and I said that I knew he was angry and I told him to go home and look after his mother and to look after himself. He said that he would and he hurried away. God can do anything He wishes and I absolutely adore Him. Thank you so much Jesus for answering my prayer.

 

[jenluvsjesus]

wow that is so cool. God totally works in the most amazing ways doesn't he? What a blessing!

 

[but'n'ben]

Today was very strange for me. I very recently had a break up with someone I love with everything I have inside. No matters how hard I prayed or what I did, Things seemed to get from bad to worse. I have to work with my ex so I expected today to be very tough. I prayed to God last night to help me get through it ok. Work was much better today, after we had split up, than it was when we were together. After discussion, he's still not ready to get back together. I was very hurt and when i got home, cried my heart out. Mostly through disappointent because it was such a good day.

I'm not a Catholic, but my mums family all are. My gran had a crucifix for the wall which I found recently trapped in a cupboard. I thought it was terrible to have put it into a cupboard, so I cleaned it up and put it on my wall. When i got home I prayed to Jesus on the cross to help me. I asked Him if he could sort out the situation with me and my ex out. I also told him that if He chose not to, could he take me. I was very depressed and wanted out of life. I aksed Him to guide me to follow the path He felt was right for me and would help me sort out this very rough time.

While I was praying, I had an overwhelming urge to pick up my Gideons bible which I got in school many years ago. I did, and I asked God to help me pick out passages which would show me what to do. I closed my eyes and let my finger drop on the subjects listed at the beginning of the Book. My finger landed on "Faith is Weak" and "Patience" God gave me the message that all I need is believe and patience and I will be fine. I read the tale of the centurion whose servant was sick, and through his unquestioned faith in Jesus, he got his wish.

The thing is, I want to believe, but al the same time, I don't. The Bible pasages can be interpreted many ways. What if I get my hopes up, and believe with all my heart, but what I really need is not what God has in mind? What if I am interpreting things wrongly? I'm so confused and tired. But at the same time, I have a ball of hope inside that will not go out. I know that whatever I feel inside, God made me feel. What does everyone else think? Is it worht keeping an open mind, or should I believe 100% that God will answer my prayers and save my heart from breaking further?

 

[Tara]

It is so painful when you split up, but when you work at the same place it is a thousand times worse, because you cannot get away from the hurt at all. I went through this same thing when I was younger. You end up feeling that you are going insane. When things got very bad at work I decided to write some bible verses out on little slips of papers. I would put one in my pocket and everytime things got unbearable I would take it out and read it. It was such a comfort. Our problem was that I was a christian and he wasn't and I knew I hadn't to go out with him, but I cared for him so much, but I knew it wouldn't work. He put me through torture because he knew I really cared, like he did. I used to pray that God would put things right that some how he would be converted and we could be together, and sometimes I fell asleep crying. I asked God that if it wasn't to happen, would He help me to be able to bear it and take these feelings away from me. And it wasn't meant to be and it took a very long time for me to accept that God was answering my prayer.In the end I realised that I just had to ask God what was His will and then leave it in the hands of God, and that He would deal with it.

No-one can tell you what will happen in your case, but don't give up on life. Be patient, wait on God, listen to Him in a quiet hour. He is looking after you and will only give you what is best for you, although we sometimes get mixed up with what we want and what is best. He knows what you want, He knows what you need. Just wait a while, see what happens and remember God loves you. You sound a lovely girl. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. I was only a child when I realised that nothing on this earth was worth that. Try the slip of paper with a bible verse on it. Pick one that you feel will help you get through all this. It may be that you will get together but if not, it is going to take a while for you to get through this. Be patient with yourself. If you want to pm me at any time please do so. God Bless, and christian love from Tara.