Hey everybody... I'm just want to know if The Lord will save and deliver me if I keep making the same mistakes and sinning the same way everytime?(why are you sinning and what mistakes are you making?, what does sinning mean to you?) Lately I've been away and doing things that I know I should not be doing(why are you doing things you shouldnt be doing).. How do I know if I'm really saved and really his(you trust you believe you have faith)...I'm struggling hard... I haven't been honest with him nor talking to him(this is honesty) ... But I do pray here and there. I've been scared because I don't want to go to hell(nobody wants to go to hell mija) and I haven't been doing anything to change... I just keep doing it....
I keep saying what I want and need to do but don't do it(why not)...how do I fully trust The Lord and listen to his will and not my own(develop a plan to change in small increments over time)..? How do I fully submit my whole self to him....lately I been hearing al these bad thoughts And dreaming these dreams that really frighten me.. I don't want to belong to the dark and I don't want The Lord to turn me away on judgement day(the hardest thing you will ever have to experience) because I can't seem to escape my past(the first step is to acknowledge which you have already done, the second step is to locate the source of the problem, where it originated, the third step is to learn to work through that problem as long as it takes to break through, when you break through all those little pieces that you struggled to get through will be your new found strength, you can do it and I'm always here for you)... It seem like my sin is always before me and I can't catch up.... I can't live like this anymore but I'm not doing anything to make it different(why not)... I know it's in me and I feel he knows it's in me but idk how to release it.. I love him I really do but I don't act or treat him like I do(you will it just takes time devotion and dedication)... I feel so fake.. I feel like I'm just spitting in his face(pain, weakness will become your strength)... I'm getting tired of my self.. I ask for forgiveness and mercy so much and it's always for the same thing ....! What do I do... Will he save me.?(YES)
I feel like my spiritual eyes and ears are no longer open and my heart hurts.. How do I just give my all to him..
