why

[PorcelainHeart]

why should I believe in GOD, because people tell me to? If GOD is real I wonder if he cares, I just don't get life! So much has always been wrong with my life!

1. I was born with tons of birth defects
2. I'm bi-polar
3. I have something alot like autism and it makes me locked out from people.
5. I never had a boyfriend
6. I'm being hated on my favorite forum
7. I'm not pretty
8. The weather is awful alot of times in the summer.
9. I been made fun of all my life
10. my family is awful
11. I'm even picked on by members of CF.

I JUST DON'T GET LIFE!!!Why has it always been so horrible for me?

is there even a GOD? i don't think so anymore. I'm sick of suffering, I seek GOD but he doesn't care.

 

[tapero]

Dear Kaiya,

I'm sorry you are hurting. I know life is unfair. It wasn't meant to be so hard. My hope lies in God and in the future with Him. Take each day as it comes and trust God with all your troubles if you can. You are a beautiful child of God's. Tapero

 

[whitestar]

Life sucks then you die...

Or there IS meaning in the things you are going through...for a higher purpose...to reach out to those that hurt like you do one day, when you are strong enough and able too...

There is a great need for people like you because there are SO many hurting like you are and just need to know they aren't alone, and someone out there understand.

No you don't have to believe in God because someone said you should....you can find Him for yourself. With Him you can raise yourself high above all of this.

In the bible God chose a teenager to be the next king of the Jews...his name was David. David did have great faith in God....but then the current king got jealous of David and tried to kill him. In fact he chased David all over the countryside for ten long years trying to kill him...

David also wondered why his life was so hard and rough. The Lord used those tough times to teach David to lean totally on Him for everything....what food and drink he found every day...where to sleep...how to stay safe from this crazy king. It made David stronger and he learned to rely more and more on God. Eventually the crazy king died and David was made the king and he was a great king too! If he had gone from just taking care of sheep straight to being a king, he would have horrible...and a complete failure. But because he went through some hard times, he became a strong leader of many people.

Now this doesn't mean David didn't mess up...that he didn't do things he shouldn't....sure he did...he wasn't perfect.

None of us are perfect and most of us have a hard life....or we will....

One thing about our Father in Heaven....He doesn't care how you look, what disablities you might have...or how imperfect you might think you are....He will still love you.

http://www.sunnytees.com/loveletter.html

I hope you go to that link...its called The Father's Love Letter. When it seems no one else cares....He always will.

God bless
WhiteStar

 

[PorcelainHeart]

thanks for your words, I wish I was more talkative but im so sad right now.

 

[whitestar]

Oh that's ok....sometimes we have no words to express how we feel...I know that feeling...

I will be praying for you.

 

[george]

why should I believe in GOD, because people tell me to? If GOD is real I wonder if he cares, I just don't get life! So much has always been wrong with my life!



Kaiya...God is close to your broken heart as I speak, and I kinda know what you're going through. I have had servail struggles also. but God is faithful. and he has saw me through it all, and I know he will do the same for you. yes it looks pretty gloomy right now, but if you would just tell God exactly how you feel, he will listen and understand. it has to be tough what you've been through. but you'er not alone.I pray that God will touch your broken heart. and show you just how much he loves you. take it as God bragging on his little girl. cause he never alows us to go through more than we can handle. may God bless your heart and show you just how special you are to him.

 

[Shannonkish]

kaiya,

Sweetie I am sorry that you are going through this hard time right now. I can't imagine all that you are going through.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[goldenviolet]

1. I was born with tons of birth defects
2. I'm bi-polar
3. I have something alot like autism and it makes me locked out from people.
5. I never had a boyfriend
6. I'm being hated on my favorite forum
7. I'm not pretty
8. The weather is awful alot of times in the summer.
9. I been made fun of all my life
10. my family is awful
11. I'm even picked on by members of CF.

1. i was born with several both visible and not.
2. i'm bipolar-schizophrenic.
3. i stutter/have a lisp, i can be awkward and shy.
4. i feel locked out and different.
5. i've been hurt mentally and physically by men.
6. i have people here that are hard to understand, so i pray and try really hard to let it/ them mold me.
7. i'm not pretty.
8. the weather effects my moods.
9. rejected. i feel alone alot.
10. my family is broken and dysfunctional at times.
11. sometimes i feel like i can't do anything right.

hi sweetheart. i read your posts and saw how much i mirror your feelings. at one time i felt swallowed by all these things. the older and more exsperiance i get; the deeper i walk with Jesus. i'm trying to show you that neither of us are alone. yes some days are difficult. but the scriptures coach us into healling aditudes. like
philippians "whatever things are praiseworthy and good.. dwell on these things".... "and how about there is a time for every season" .... in a nut shell. somedays are great, some are hard. somethings are confusing. somethings are clear. but we need to stay in one day at a time to give God daily our sarrows and our praises. we all carry struggles, but they can bless us too. sweet daughter, look for blessings and how much you can bless others with. you being you. sometimes you need, sometimes you give.

Philippians 4:4-9
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Meditate on These Things
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. 9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

thank you, I been mighty sad alot this month. My stomach hurts bad most of the time and I don't sleep at all. I have terrible terrible dreams. One was everyone on CF cussing me out for no reason, and one other dream was about my dog getting hurt. Doing my sad stages of bi-polar I threating to leave CF, because I dunno I get paranoid. Being paranoid has been very serious this week.

anyways, thank u all for your kind words.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

Sounds like you did an inventory of all the bad things in your life. When you do that, it's important to remember the good things too! Surely there is one, or two, family member that isn't awful? Someone might be picking on you, but does that mean that you never enjoyed the forums at all?

God knew that from time to time we would look at our lives in this manner. That's why he made his promises known to us. We know that there is more to life than just this. If this is all that there is, why bother with anything? We would be hopeless slaves, moving from one wordly pleasure to another, and just to turn to dust in the end.

God has promised His children eternal life. What an immeasurable gift! And not only that, He has also promised that everything works for the good of those who believe in Him!

He created you in your mother's womb, he knows every bone in your body. Would he not love you? Would he create you so he could discard you? You need to trust in Him. While we do not see things clearly, nor do we know the purpose of everything, God has a plan. You need to trust in God, and that he will take care of you. That may very well be the purpose of this "dry spell" of yours, to teach you how to trust Him.

I will be praying for you. May God bless you.

 

[goldenviolet]

thank you, I been mighty sad alot this month. My stomach hurts bad most of the time and I don't sleep at all. I have terrible terrible dreams. One was everyone on CF cussing me out for no reason, and one other dream was about my dog getting hurt. Doing my sad stages of bi-polar I threating to leave CF, because I dunno I get paranoid. Being paranoid has been very serious this week.

anyways, thank u all for your kind words.

feeling paranoid is hard on my nerves. real things blend with unreal. that's when i see doctor. put a 'do not disturb' sign on my door, then take a break from everything. i have a list of things i do to help myself cope. here is the link to us bipolars sharing. i hope you add to it.
http://www.christianforums.com/t2495622-us-bipolar-exsperts-on-managing-skills.html

 

[artjack]

enjoy being you, even if you are feeling that you have disabilities in some ways we all do & remember you are not disabeled when it comes to love because you can love just as much as anyone else, so love yourself & thank God he has not disabled anyone from loveing.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

thank you all. I feel much better.

 

[Rosebaronet]

You should not believe in God because you were told to, you should belive in God because you have found Him and felt His love for yourself, I am cerebral palsy, with speech handicap, 31 years old and still have not had the chance to fornicate, but I love Jesus, because I found He is real, and if you honestly knock on His door, He will open the door to you. It took me 9 years to submit to him, but His love is absolute, His love does not weaver for physical imperfection, trust me, leave your anger, find him calmly, and you will find him like I did.

 

[WoundedImmortal]

You sound a lot like me

1. I was born with deformed feet
3. I am bi-polar and have borderline personality disorder
2. I have aspergers syndrome
4. I didn't even have a boyfriend until I was 20
5. I am now in an "exile" of sorts on a forum I was once a moderator on, because their new (and incompetent) admin hates me.
6. Until I was an adult, I could never see my own beauty.
7. Bleh...I hate summer.
8. Teased my whole life too
9....mostly by my own family...
I'm also epileptic and can't drive...But I have lots of faith things get better in your life...and sometimes they seem worse...but what may be helpful to you (I do this) is to make a list each day of everything that happened that you are thankful for. I include this list in my prayers...and thank God for these things It's nice to take time and look at all the blessings in your life, when all the bad things seem so blatantly obvious.

~Kat

 

[Rosebaronet]

See? No one is perfect, but I believe there are greater reasons why we are made this way, we might not see it yet, but we will be in awe when things gradually reveal to us. God bless.

 

[mom_one]

praying for you but remember God loves you

 

[inHisgripkim]

1. i was born with several both visible and not.
2. i'm bipolar-schizophrenic.
3. i stutter/have a lisp, i can be awkward and shy.
4. i feel locked out and different.
5. i've been hurt mentally and physically by men.
6. i have people here that are hard to understand, so i pray and try really hard to let it/ them mold me.
7. i'm not pretty.
8. the weather effects my moods.
9. rejected. i feel alone alot.
10. my family is broken and dysfunctional at times.
11. sometimes i feel like i can't do anything right.

hi sweetheart. i read your posts and saw how much i mirror your feelings. at one time i felt swallowed by all these things. the older and more exsperiance i get; the deeper i walk with Jesus. i'm trying to show you that neither of us are alone. yes some days are difficult. but the scriptures coach us into healling aditudes. like
philippians "whatever things are praiseworthy and good.. dwell on these things".... "and how about there is a time for every season" .... in a nut shell. somedays are great, some are hard. somethings are confusing. somethings are clear. but we need to stay in one day at a time to give God daily our sarrows and our praises. we all carry struggles, but they can bless us too. sweet daughter, look for blessings and how much you can bless others with. you being you. sometimes you need, sometimes you give.

Philippians 4:4-9
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Meditate on These Things
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. 9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

Thank you for that one Goldenviolet. I needed to see that particular scripture. Beautiful post from a beautiful soul. lol kim

 

[inHisgripkim]

why should I believe in GOD, because people tell me to? If GOD is real I wonder if he cares, I just don't get life! So much has always been wrong with my life!

1. I was born with tons of birth defects
2. I'm bi-polar
3. I have something alot like autism and it makes me locked out from people.
5. I never had a boyfriend
6. I'm being hated on my favorite forum
7. I'm not pretty
8. The weather is awful alot of times in the summer.
9. I been made fun of all my life
10. my family is awful
11. I'm even picked on by members of CF.

I JUST DON'T GET LIFE!!!Why has it always been so horrible for me?

is there even a GOD? i don't think so anymore. I'm sick of suffering, I seek GOD but he doesn't care.

Hello to you Earth Angel:

I've been through so much pain and suffering throughout my life both physically and mentally. Having survived three sexual assaults which ocurred at various stages of my life, I've managed to get back up and press on. Even with a mental health condition born out of past abuse, I have managed to stay functional. The glory belongs to God, for it is He who lifts me up when I'm down, carries me when I cannot walk, and steadies me when I'm off balance. He dances and sings with me when I rejoice.

When I first accepted Jesus as my Christ and Savior, I had an unquenchable thirst to learn about Him. In an attempt to overcome a mental health condition ("a thorn in my side"), I looked for the Lord in everything. I spent alot of time reading the bible, ancient history and devotionals. One of the first devotionals I read that made a positive impact upon me was about twelve pearls found in a book called Streams In The Desert.

"Every gate a pearl! Every entrance into the heavenly life is through a pearl!" A quote found in a text written by Dr. Edward T. Sullivan.

What is a pearl? Read carefully because this is so applicable to all of us in one way or another.

"A wound is made in a shell. a grain of sand, perhaps, gets imbedded in the wound. Allthe resources of repair are rushed to the place where the breach has been made. When the breach has been closed, and the process of repair is complete, a pearl is found closing the wound. The break calls forth unsuspected resources of the shell and a beauty appears that is not otherwise brought out. A pearl is a healed wound? "No wound, no pearl!"

Sullivan went on to explain how, in our lives, misfortune can be transformed into blessing, hurts changed into pearls of precious value. Even a burdensome handicap may become a lifesaving force. He tells a story of Nydia, the blind flower girl in the Last Days of Pompeii. She had not become bitter about her blindness; nor had she sulked or sat at home. She had gone about the business of living and had earned her livelihood as best she could. Then came the awful day of the eruption of Vesuvius, with "the doomed city ashes; the terror-stricken inhabitants rush blindly to and fro, and lose themselves in the awful blackness." But Nydia does not get lost because of her cross of blindness, she had learned to find her way by touch and hearing, and now she could go straight to rescue the life of the one she loved best. Bylearning to walk swiftly and surely in the darkness of her blindness, she had made of her handicap a treasure and a God-send in the dark hour.

"Every gate a pearl!" Every misfortune, every failure, every loss, may be transformed. God has the power to transform all "misfortunes" into God-sends. Sweet Jesus was our God-send. So Jesus transformed the cross from a criminal's badge of shame into the sign of the love of God. Often it takes a wound to transform a denying Peter into a fearless rock of a man. "No wound, no pearl!"

You are a beautiful Pearl Kaiya!
hugs, Kim

 

[Im-revived]

Your first question, WHY SHOULD I BELIEVE IN GOD?
ANSWER:- BECAUSE GOD BELIEVES IN YOU, CREATED YOU AND LOVES YOU HOWEVER YOU FEEL, THINK OR LOOK LIKE.

Youve remarked on a lot of things about yourself, about others and actually about God too.
Your struggling to believe in God, because you are blaming him for everything, many have these problems and many won't accept God because of anger.

Life is hard, really rubbish at times, and i speak from my own experiences and im sure from many others. Its called accepting yourself and accepting God. Once youve done that all these issues may not go away, but you will know your life is with Jesus. Who cares what others think, when your with Jesus he is the power. And he doesn't look down at you hurt you, he comforts and guides you. Think about it Love.

Im-revived

why should I believe in GOD, because people tell me to? If GOD is real I wonder if he cares, I just don't get life! So much has always been wrong with my life!

1. I was born with tons of birth defects
2. I'm bi-polar
3. I have something alot like autism and it makes me locked out from people.
5. I never had a boyfriend
6. I'm being hated on my favorite forum
7. I'm not pretty
8. The weather is awful alot of times in the summer.
9. I been made fun of all my life
10. my family is awful
11. I'm even picked on by members of CF.

I JUST DON'T GET LIFE!!!Why has it always been so horrible for me?

is there even a GOD? i don't think so anymore. I'm sick of suffering, I seek GOD but he doesn't care.