I compare what is requested of you in paganism (which seems largely arbitrary and self-determined) with what is requested of a Christian (rather stringent and hard, and it takes a lifetime of reformation) and I see how much harder the path is, how much harder it is to make up your own rules and I draw the conclusion that Christianity is far harder than paganism to believe and follow.
A religion's value isn't determined by the difficulty people have in following it.
Secondly, the pagans I have met generally have a grudge against institutionalised religion, and do not seem terribly interested in helping other beyond what is convenient. I ask them what laws they are bound to and no one gives me the same answer, nor do I see them as getting to the bottom of that question, discovering its source and investigating its authority- all stuff Christians have to do.
Paganism is a very broad category of religions...it's more broad than Christianity. It's "Abrahamic" broad. If you ask a Muslim, a Christian, a Mormon, and a Jew what laws they follow, there will be differences. Sure, there might be a little overlap...but they won't be the same. This diversity within the broad category isn't a bad thing.
As for me, my beliefs and practices have a strong foundation in Thelema. It's a system that makes sense and works for me...I don't expect it to work for you...or really for anyone else for that matter. It doesn't need to.
For me, religion is a very personal thing. It's an intimate relationship between a person and deity...and it's not a one-size-fits-all sort of situation. If Christianity, Judaism, Islam, or even Scientology work for you...then that is the religion you should stick with.
Lastly, when discussing Jesus (not the Church) with pagans, they seem to find Him attractive but find His lifestyle too stringent. Is that you're opinion too?
If by his lifestyle you mean giving up all worldly possessions and travelling the world preaching, then yes...otherwise I would have done that back when I was a Christian.
Now, if you think there are better ways to understand your beliefs, just post an authorative source for me and I promise I'll spend time on it.
Crowley can be incredibly abstruse, and I don't expect you to slog through his writings. However, if you were to make an attempt to understand my beliefs, here are the sources I'd recommend.
- Liber II by Aleister Crowley - short, sweet, and to the point.
- Liber CL by Aleister Crowley - not so short, not so sweet...not nearly as difficult to get through as the majority of his writing though.
- The Magick of Aleister Crowley by Lon Milo DuQuette - this is long and not free, but a much more in-depth look at Thelemic beliefs and practices.
My understanding of our post-modern, post-Christian world view. I think people are tired of airey-fairey religions and want more. That is why the Church is changing (I think it is being changed by God) and the New Age shops are closing down. I equate Neo-Paganism with New Age-ism because of the shared lack of spiritual authority and inability to be either verified or falsified. People will reject it and the only ones championing it are people in the later stages of life.
There is some definite overlap with new age, and not everyone is thrilled with that overlap. I'm Pagan, but I'm not terribly new-agey. I'm pretty skeptical when it comes to new-agey stuff.
The new age shops aren't closing due to lack of popularity of the subject - they're closing because there are better and cheaper places to acquire the same materials (Barnes & Noble).
Most pagans I know are well on their way out and seriously contemplating fresh yet ancient forms of religion.
There are also quite a lot of neo-Pagans that are moving into Pagan reconstructionism.