Hi bubblegirl23 ,
I pray the Lord And His Spirit help you mightily .
I've been making moody comments in the Singles area and now I'll just be plain selfish and say what's bugging me. (I feel bad burdening others with my problems.)
I don't think you're being selfish , by saying what's " bugging you " , I'd say you're being honest , which is a good thing , especially when we can be honest without being angry .
Merely , asking for prayer or advice is not " burdening others " , some of us enjoy sharing and caring for others in need , partly , at least in my case , because when we lend ourself to minister to others , we are ministered to , in ways that far exceed , what occurs when we seek mercy , grace , and truth for our own sake alone .
I'm a new christian who has an immune disfunction. This means I'm housebound and rejected by people, particularly men, constantly. I want to marry & be in love one day...
For the sake of your own spiritual encouragement , dwell on the things which you are able to do and enjoy , which are good and fruitful .
There are many who have been stricken in some way , who turned to God's Word , and prayer , and have been gifted to share with others , whether through writing books or , communicating even here , (over the internet etc. ) ; and they have found a deep and meaningful life , wherein their efforts help others to endure and overcome , as those with whom the Lord is pleased to welcome into His Everlasting Kingdom .
This life is not THE LIFE , as much as it may seem improbable , we who are for some reason outcasts , actually have a distinct advantage in the recognizing of this fundamental truth .
If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.
For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.
When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory. <-----> Colossians 3:1-4
This is not to say that marriage and love are beyond our grasp , this is to say , that the primary love and the principle marriage which will fulfill us completely , beyond all that we could think or imagine , is the Love of God in us , and our marriage to Christ and His Holy City . ( See Jeremiah 2:32 + 3:14 ; Isaiah Chapt. 54 + 60-62 & Revelation Chapt. 21 )
BUT I think what's the point of praying for this if God already has it planned?
We pray for a number of reasons .
1. We are instucted to pray . ( James 5:13+16 ; 1st Thessalonians 5:17 ; 1st Timothy 2:8 ; Mark 14:38 ; Luke 6:28 + 21:36 + 18:1-8 )
2. By praying we are acknowledging that The Lord is our provider , protector , deliverer .
3. Prayer helps to put us in a humble , reverent frame of mind .
4. Even though God knows our needs before we pray , by praying we acknowledge that we also are aware of our neediness , and are thereby ready to witness that it is the Lord's sufficiency which is to be praised and proclaimed , once our needs have been graciously met in His tender merciful lovingkindness .
5. And because prayer can make a tremendous difference , if our prayers seem to go unanswered , we are compelled to " examine our selves , whether we are sound in the faith " (See 2nd Cor. 13:5 ), ( have we been listening to what the Lord and His Spirit have be seeking to inspire to take place in our life ? Or are we trying , to make things work via a one sided relationship , where we expect God to listen to us , while we basically ignore His voice in our life ? ) This also is reason to pray .
Maybe He's planned me never to have love & that's why he made me immunely disabled?
It's not good to try and second guess ; but even if this were the case , God would no doubt have something better planned for you . ( Read 1st Corinthians Ch. 7 )
There is no cure in sight so it seems obvious he expects me to stay single.
Remember God's thoughts and ways are above ours , and we cannot surmize God's plans or intentions by what we sense physically within our current
situation .
It seems I go through all my personal growth for nothing sometimes! Why did he make me so eager to love if he was to deny me a man?
Do not attempt to restrict in advance which aspect of your life , your personal growth will noticably affect , be open to positive effects , in unexpected ways , also .
God made all creatures in general to have desire to reproduce , this desire is the strongest when one is at the prime of their physical life . This is a primary aspect of the trial of our faith , having both " natural instincts " , and " supernatural inspiration " bidding us to keep those instincts under subjection to the will of God in Christ .
Will God punish me for questioning him?
Certainly not if you do it with reverence . [ Possibly , if it is done with disrespect .] In which case , be quick to repent !
Not necessarily , I wouldn't say " bad " : struggling with difficulties doesn't mean we're bad .
No one will be condemned of God because they had an infirmity or we're somehow not in the best of physical health .
God has a new body waiting for us , one which will never get sick , feel hunger , thirst , or suffering , and which cannot die !
Even the best of these bodies we have now , will wax old as a garment .
There is no lasting quality in our physical selves .
This doesn't mean we shouldn't seek to be the best we can be in the physical , but that we should seek much more to be the best God can make us to be in the spiritual - in our inner man .
We are counselled to " Seek God's Kingdom and his righteousness first " , above our physical needs , ( See Matthew 6:24-34 ) , for having our priorities confused , will hinder even the meeting of our most basic needs . And if for some reason ,( which we may or may not understand completely ), some of our physical need isn't met even after our priorities are straight , the consolation of having our spiritual life in order will more than offset whatever distress not being physically perfect may cause us to experience .
I hope and pray God will greatly minister to you and turn your distress into rejoicing , your weakness into strength , and your dispair into deliverance .
In Jesus Name . Amen .
wm
