Does anybody ever wonder what is the point of life? If we're supposed to live for God, then we are not living for ourselves. We can't do anything that WE want to do, it's what God wants. So what is the point? I guess I'm kind of struggling with this.
I'm just so used to living for my self and doing what I want, that when God actually told me to do something I was like what?
I just don't understand why I was a Christian before and I did basically whatever I wanted and now I feel differently. I just feel like I've been robbed or something. I know it is possible to be happy doing what God's wants but it doesn't feel that way right now. I'm so confused. Does anyone else feel this way?
Your problem is that you don't love God deeply. When you are in love with somebody, then you WANT TO do what they want. Imagine a boy you are crazy about. Would you NOT want to do what he wants?
Don't worry, it's not too late. I felt that way about five months ago. But that was before I fell in love with God.
Did you know that Jesus Christ is your groom? Did you know that He WANTS YOU? He wants your attention. He wants your love. He cherishes you and adores you and loves you deeper than you can ever imagine. Did you know that He is actually IN LOVE with You? He loves to stare at you. Just thinking that He has you makes Him happy. I know it's hard to believe. I wouldn't believe it myself unless He Himself revealed Himself to me and told me all this.
Now I am happier than I ever was. Living for one's self is not as much fun as being in love with Jesus Christ and experiencing His love. It's fun and it's delightful. (But of course, it's not about fun, it's about love. Our love is what He cherishes and desires most from us.)
And besides, living for yourself, means you are living in bondage to your flesh. God's will for us was to become like Jesus Christ. (Rom 8:29) When we still live for our flesh and obey its desires, we are not doing God's will. It's bad for our soul. We won't be set free and we won't be saved.
Gal 6:7,8 The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.
Imagine if God did not change your heart and you still blissfully were living to please your sinful nature, living for yourself? What would your end be? Thank God that He touched you, that He opened your eyes. It's something to be grateful about, not sad about.
You are lucky, Jesus Christ is calling you. Song of Songs is a prophetic poem about a journey of each soul towards her Lover. Your journey is probably soon to start. (Mine started 5 months ago and I am so happy).
You were made to love Him. Your soul will feel fully satisified when you fulfill your destiny.
If you feel interested, please read these. They are about love. About the love of the bride and groom, of Christ Jesus and you.
Fall in love with Jesus Christ. You are his bride and He is waiting for you. (To fall in love, you simply start talking to Him, He is always near you, He is in your heart. Start thinking about Him. Focus on loving thoughts. Negative thoughts will only give you a headache. But enter into the communion with Him by lovingly thinking everything you can about Him. Tell Him you love Him. He longs to hear your voice (read it in Song of Song, He said it there). He is calling you:
Son 2:13 Arise, come, my darling; my beautiful one, come with me."
SON 4:8 Come with me from Lebanon, my bride, come with me from Lebanon. Descend from the crest of Amana, ...from the lions' dens and the mountain haunts of the leopards.
9 You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes
If you feel the desire in your heart stirring as you read this, then I am very excited for you. You are about to embark onto a very magical journey of a perfect love you have never known before.
Read this:
Bible 101 • View topic - Jesus Christ and YOU
Also read Song of Songs (or Song of Solomon).
Also, I share some of my experiences here:
(There are 5 parts)
Bible 101 • View topic - CONVERSATION WITH GOD, part one
And here are really good articles overall, you should technically read them all to grow in your knowledge:
Bible 101 • View forum - Questions by Christians