One day I was at a fair with friends when a group of christians handing out pamphlets asked me if the life I'm leading was worth going to hell for. This was not the first time that I've had scare tactics being used on me in the name of jesus, as a young kid (I was born into a christain home) I was in constant fear of not being a "good christain" ya know, what if jesus came from the sky and left me here? I was terrified and then one day I realized that if hell wasn't in the equation then I wouldn't have been a christian, I didn't love jesus, I didn't even believe in him. Which made me worry more, I wanted to believe so bad but I just couldn't, and I worried a lot about if jesus was real would he understand? Was I a bad person? I was a little kid at that time, I'm a proud atheist now. But the point I'm trying to get at is do you agree with making people afraid of hell? And what do you think about the people that try to be christain but wouldn't believe if they weren't threatened by eternal torture? I would really like to hear opinions.
I wasn't afraid of hell even as a kid. Even when I became atheist, and still not thinking about it now.
Using hellfire is the lousiest way to get Christians into Christianity. Or any other faith in that matter.
Its like using death as a deterrent. It doesn't stop people from smuggling drugs, it doesn't stop people from committing murder. It doesn't solve the problem why people do these things in the first place.
Many murders for example, aren't premeditated. Without having to go into the death penalty debate death as a deterrent isn't very effective.
But the time I spent as a child thinking and searching for God and the person I am today has taught me alot.
Like not expecting people to convince you of faith or the existence of God. Or not putting the onus of religion on the religious - why? Because no one is perfect, and its the laziest way one can reach any kind of deduction, right or wrong, without taking the initiative to be the seeker, not wait for someone to seek you.
I did the same thing you did. Took myself out of Christianity but not to hide from these people or the fear, but to get away from these people who were actually in my way of learning more about God... or as I put it back then, "searching for truth".
I thought the people of that church were hypocritical, judgmental, etc etc, the usual stereotypes people apply to Christians.
I met many more people, Christians, atheists, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists, agnostics, free-thinkers, etc etc as I travelled and lived in various countries, not all Western countries btw - and realised people are people, but with a religion. There are good and bad in every 'religion'.
The mistake I made was to decide that Christianity was "bad" because of a strain of Christians I disagreed with, very strongly - the way they behaved, the way they believed, the way they practiced things such as "shunning" when they disagreed with you to pressurise you back into the group without the behaviour they disagreed with.
I personally think people who hold out these pamplets didn't have ill intentions or anything bad, but perhaps are misguided in their thinking or perhaps just not educated in the ways of how people react to things psychologically.
But have you ever thought that some (not all) of these people might be motivated by their sincerity of not wanting to see people be a stranger to Jesus and God, and end up in Hell?
Perhaps to them that is motivation enough to try to give out pamphlets to jolt people to think about their mortality and at least think about God's existence.
I personally disagree of using hellfire to scare monger people into Christianity.
Children, especially, are fragile and very impressionable. Turning a religion into a bogeyman thing isn't the best way to teach children about God.
But dislike of how Christians behave shouldn't be the reason why one shuns God.
I do hope you get past your unpleasant past and realise that many of the Christians you will meet in your life, do have good intentions, even if they don't come out the way it hoped and that you will not let the fact that you are atheist stop your search for God.