What do I do?

[Chowder17]

Hello all,
Im new to this site, Im glad I found you guys. I have had ocd since I was a young child, however recently it has gotten alot worse. I have disturbing thoughts and images in my mind happen especially when Im reading the Bible or in prayer. I hate it so much and I pray for GOD to take it away but nothing is changing. I have a prescription for Zoloft but I didnt want to rely on medication for healing, I feel like it would be giving in and admitting GOD isnt powerful enough to heal me HIMSELF. I dont know what to do. I hate living this way, it seems like this is truly a messenger from the devil. Do I persist in prayer alone or take the meds?

 

[gracealone]

Hello all,
Im new to this site, Im glad I found you guys. I have had ocd since I was a young child, however recently it has gotten alot worse. I have disturbing thoughts and images in my mind happen especially when Im reading the Bible or in prayer. I hate it so much and I pray for GOD to take it away but nothing is changing. I have a prescription for Zoloft but I didnt want to rely on medication for healing, I feel like it would be giving in and admitting GOD isnt powerful enough to heal me HIMSELF. I dont know what to do. I hate living this way, it seems like this is truly a messenger from the devil. Do I persist in prayer alone or take the meds?

Hi Chowder. Welcome to the forum
Since you know you have OCD then you have a head start in treating the thoughts and disturbing images as OCD by doing your level best to ignore them.
Lots of us here on the forum have used meds. at one time or another to treat our OCD when it got really bad. Sometimes it just helps dampen down the anxiety to the point where you can focus clearly enough to learn to do the necessary therapy to desensitize your brain to the thoughts. So if you need to take meds. don't feel bad. Taking meds. for a chemical imbalance in your brain is no different than taking meds to correct diabetes, hypertension, or high cholesterol. Brains are subject to illness too and God has gifted Dr.'s to help us with that.
Having said that it is still possible to treat OCD through therapy and lifestyle changes alone for some folk. Everybody is different. It depends on the severity of the OCD.
Right now I'm on a minimal dose of Buspar. I used to take Remeron also but am doing fine without that now. Back 28 years ago I managed to get through some pretty horrendous episodes of OCD without meds. just using relaxation techniques and vigorous exercise. So it is possible.
Hope you'll stick around there's lot's of caring and compassionate people on this forum who give great advice.
Praying for you,
Mitzi

 

[Chowder17]

Hi Chowder. Welcome to the forum
Since you know you have OCD then you have a head start in treating the thoughts and disturbing images as OCD by doing your level best to ignore them.
Lots of us here on the forum have used meds. at one time or another to treat our OCD when it got really bad. Sometimes it just helps dampen down the anxiety to the point where you can focus clearly enough to learn to do the necessary therapy to desensitize your brain to the thoughts. So if you need to take meds. don't feel bad. Taking meds. for a chemical imbalance in your brain is no different than taking meds to correct diabetes, hypertension, or high cholesterol. Brains are subject to illness too and God has gifted Dr.'s to help us with that.
Having said that it is still possible to treat OCD through therapy and lifestyle changes alone for some folk. Everybody is different. It depends on the severity of the OCD.
Right now I'm on a minimal dose of Buspar. I used to take Remeron also but am doing fine without that now. Back 28 years ago I managed to get through some pretty horrendous episodes of OCD without meds. just using relaxation techniques and vigorous exercise. So it is possible.
Hope you'll stick around there's lot's of caring and compassionate people on this forum who give great advice.
Praying for you,
Mitzi

Hi Mitzi,
Thanks for your reply. I have started with the meds last night. I feel better about it now after hearing from you. Hope to see you again on the site soon.

 

[gracealone]

I'm so glad to hear that.
I look forward to hearing from you again.
Mitzi

Hi Mitzi,
Thanks for your reply. I have started with the meds last night. I feel better about it now after hearing from you. Hope to see you again on the site soon.