- May 2, 2006
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I'm in a wonderful place in my life right now.
I'm in a terrible place in my life right now.
I spent the past six months of my life really, fully happy
I went through a suicidal time but then I got better. I stopped wanting to kill myself, I stopped wanting to cut myself, and I was fine with life. I was content.
But now I'm a wreck. Everything I believed in has been compromised.
And I don't know what to do. It hurts. I never wanted to have more than one partner in my life. And then I suddenly tell myself I believe that it is just the first step... that passion for passion's sake it alright.
I feel empty. And I don't know what to do. I hate it. This can never be made right. I will always have him in my life, or in my memory, no matter who I am with in the future.
And I want to come back to the Church but then I think about how much hate for myself I had within the Church. But then I think that at least I had something to live for. Now, I don't really have anything to live for.
I... I don't really know what to do. I'm 19, out on my own and not knowing what to do right now, where to go to, or who to turn to.
I just want to sleep and cry. Then sleep and cry some more.
I'm in a terrible place in my life right now.
I spent the past six months of my life really, fully happy
I went through a suicidal time but then I got better. I stopped wanting to kill myself, I stopped wanting to cut myself, and I was fine with life. I was content.
But now I'm a wreck. Everything I believed in has been compromised.
And I don't know what to do. It hurts. I never wanted to have more than one partner in my life. And then I suddenly tell myself I believe that it is just the first step... that passion for passion's sake it alright.
I feel empty. And I don't know what to do. I hate it. This can never be made right. I will always have him in my life, or in my memory, no matter who I am with in the future.
And I want to come back to the Church but then I think about how much hate for myself I had within the Church. But then I think that at least I had something to live for. Now, I don't really have anything to live for.
I... I don't really know what to do. I'm 19, out on my own and not knowing what to do right now, where to go to, or who to turn to.
I just want to sleep and cry. Then sleep and cry some more.
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