... what the Church teaches has the advantage of many prayerful minds examining the matter and prayerfully reaching a conclusion about it. I think I trust a well-considered and documented view that has stood the test of time above my fleeting opinions. Which do you trust?
You make good points here. In a perfect world, having a large organization would seem the perfect vehicle to deliver high-quality, well-considered wisdom on complicated points.
The problem is that we live in a world filled with ungodly people who love to put themselves into positions of power. I'm thinking of the high priest Caiaphas at the time of Christ. There he was, the pinnacle of the priesthood, the very system that God himself set up for education of His people. Who better should have been aware of the prophecies that taught of the birth of the Messiah during his term? He certainly must have heard about the 3 Magi following a star and the subsequent massacre of babies in Bethlehem And wouldn't he have been told about the prophetess Anna who spoke of Jesus at the time of His dedication? So why did the Jewish bureaucracy of religious intelligentsia fail to recognize the messiah?
The system should have worked. But it didn't.
I think it is because we have a powerful adversary who was doing everything possible to spoil Christ's mission. If I was in Satan's position (God forbid!), I would have worked hard to position one of my operatives in just such a position as Caiaphas held. Recall also how Satan manipulated Peter himself, one of Christ's closest disciples, to tempt Jesus. Satan was working among Jesus's closest friends!
Matthew 16:22-23 Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!” Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”
Satan constantly works to counter the work of God. There are numerous stories I could reference, such as when Ananias and his wife Sapphira infiltrated the believers, committed a fraudulent donation and were put to death after the words of Peter. I am not one to be looking for a boogieman or devil behind every misadventure, but we are warned to be aware and to understand who we are battling against.
Ephesians 6:12 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Paul warned that soon after his death, "wolves" would come in to tear down the flock
Acts 20-29 29 I know that after I leave, savage wolves will come in among you and will not spare the flock.
So you asked, "
Which do you trust?" And I'll tell you frankly, I don't trust large organizations. I live in the USA, a country with a democratically-elected government. Their job is supposed to be to work for the people. But I know that every one of the politicians is just thinking about his next reelection campaign. Do I trust that he has my best interest in mind? No. Likewise, my church (SDA) has a fairly large bureaucracy of people I don't know. Do I trust them to do everything properly, to not waste money, to be 100% accurate in their activities? No. I hope they do, but I know that all mankind is typically corrupt. If they produce guidance, I will read and consider it. If it is truthful, great! I learned something new. But if it doesn't make sense, I set it aside.
How do I trust then, myself? You made a very good point about hearing various arguments that sound good, but then one might later realize are not so great after all. It reminds me of this proverb:
Proverbs 18:17 He who states his case first seems right, until his rival comes and cross-examines him.
I don't know about your age, but I'm 56 yrs. I have been jerked around enough that I finally feel fairly stable on my own two feet. When I did my professional training, we would spend a few months with a trainer who would insist that things were just a certain way and that we all had to do things exactly as they did. Then we would move on to another trainer who would emphasize a different and sometimes conflicting way. Frustrating! One quickly learns that the conflict can be resolved by looking up the information ones-self from reliable sources, following written guidelines, and when questioned, be ready to stand your ground and defend one's decisions based on logic and data.
Do I think I know always better than others, when a question comes up? No. But I know how to look for answers, to weigh their relative merits, and to make a decision. Do I make mistakes this way? Yes, but this is the process of learning. We act with the best information we have, and be ready to change when better information is found.
So in conclusion, I don't trust organizations because I feel ungodly people work their ways into positions of power, or are more vulnerable to attack by our foes. I don't TRUST my own decisions, but I trust them more than some decision from some committee. And ultimately, I daily pray that God will bring wisdom to my mind, or bring me into contact with others that can help me understand the right way to act.
I don't know if that will help you or not.
Best wishes,
Kevin