Well, I told him

[texannurse]

I bit the bullet and told my psychologist about my fall the other day.

I still can't believe I told him. He did not walk away. He was upset - I think more disappointed and frustrated than anything and it just about killed me to see the pain and hurt in his eyes . I betrayed a relationship which I treasure deeply, but he said he won't ever betray me, only do the best for me. Honestly, I felt like the woman caught in adultery - deserving condemnation and stoning and recieving only mercy and compassion - and a command to go and sin no more. Not out of fear, but out of love and the desire to be whole.

I never before realized how much my cutting affects other people in my life.

I never before realized how powerful and beautiful forgiveness and acceptance can be.

I never before realized that limits and restrictions can be signs of love.

I have another chance - for which I am extremely grateful. I don't deserve it, which is what makes it even more astounding.

Wow! I'm still reeling from the whole experience and need to really spend some time facing some truths about myself that I really don't want to face - but I need to face. And I will. I don't want to ever feel this way again. I don't want to ever use my body as a tool to hurt or test others again. I don't want to ever hurt myself again. Finally, I can say (maybe in a whisper ) that I am choosing to stop for me.

Please keep praying for me! I love all you guys a ton!!!

We will overcome this!

 

[Quiddler]

I'm so very, very proud of you, Tn.

/me crash tackle hugs Tn.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

TN, I have no words - I'm sitting here in awe. My friend, that's fantastic and I'm so happy for you .

Wow

 

[mamalonglegs]

I bit the bullet and told my psychologist about my fall the other day.

I still can't believe I told him. He did not walk away. He was upset - I think more disappointed and frustrated than anything and it just about killed me to see the pain and hurt in his eyes . I betrayed a relationship which I treasure deeply, but he said he won't ever betray me, only do the best for me. Honestly, I felt like the woman caught in adultery - deserving condemnation and stoning and recieving only mercy and compassion - and a command to go and sin no more. Not out of fear, but out of love and the desire to be whole.

I never before realized how much my cutting affects other people in my life.

I never before realized how powerful and beautiful forgiveness and acceptance can be.

I never before realized that limits and restrictions can be signs of love.

I have another chance - for which I am extremely grateful. I don't deserve it, which is what makes it even more astounding.

Wow! I'm still reeling from the whole experience and need to really spend some time facing some truths about myself that I really don't want to face - but I need to face. And I will. I don't want to ever feel this way again. I don't want to ever use my body as a tool to hurt or test others again. I don't want to ever hurt myself again. Finally, I can say (maybe in a whisper ) that I am choosing to stop for me.

Please keep praying for me! I love all you guys a ton!!!

We will overcome this!

Hello Tex! I'm proud of you. It is tough to hold in such a secret as you have for soooo loooong. Unleashing it was quite an eye openner I see. I think you learned a lot from this experience. You can face those "Hard Things." It's not easy talking about things you don't want to hear yourself. But doing so will help in the long run. One step at a time. Pace yourself. And keep your eyes open to all of the kindness, love, and support, that God is surrounding you with. You are in my prayers daily. mamalonglegs

 

[berry2000]

Awesome! Truly amazing. Thank you for sharing. And I'm so proud of you for telling him.

 

[tapero]

Dear TN,

Hi, Wow! I was so glad to read such a good report. I am so glad for you that you took a risk and it went well. You have a lot of courage. God bless you, Tapero

 

[Taylor43]

I am so proud of you i know it was not easy but it took allot of Courage and i am praying for you.

 

[texannurse]

Thanks everyone! It means the world to me! Hopefully, each day will continue to be filled with honesty and the desire to stay true to myself. And that I keep in mind the mercy given to me.

I did learn a lot from this experience - toughest thing I've ever done - but possibly the most rewarding . It feels good to feel good about myself again - no more secrets!!

I love all of you very much - have a great day.

 

[anteloperunner]

you are a source of inspiration to us all.

-allison

 

[pockleberry]

Thanks for posting that it's really encouraging