In all of high school I never considered that I might not be good at what I planned to do in college. I decided at around 16 that I wanted to be a doctor. So I applied for the biggest STEM school in my state as a pre-med neuroscience major. However, after my first year at this school, I've realized that this might not be the path for me. I want to be a doctor so badly, but I've done very poorly in my premed classes (three Cs) , all with the knowledge that my courses will only get harder from here. What takes my classmates an hour to understand, takes me five. I am not inclined or gifted in my science/premed courses (chemistry, labs, maths, etc) even a little bit, no part of me even enjoys learning about science. But I know that these are really just the classes I have to take to get into medical school, but I'm feeling more lost than ever at the concept that right now, I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing.
As a result of this I've began considering other options, and things I would be good at. People keep telling me that I'll excel the most at life with doing things I'm good at and generally enjoy. My favorite job I've ever had was at my town's elementary school, I love children and are very naturally gifted with them. However, I feel like I'd be an awful teacher. Additionally, I love reading and writing, and have always excelled in English courses. I have no idea what to do with this though, in an ideal world I could be a book editor, but I know that's not at all realistic. I've trapped myself in a pre-med trap and after a year of trying to convince myself I liked science and math and that if I just worked really hard I would enjoy it, I haven't. In fact, I kind of hate it. All I wanted was to be a doctor, to help people, but at this point I feel like it's all out of reach.
At the end of the day, I just want to have a career that will allow me to be able to take time away to be able to take care of children and a family, or I can at least go back to once my children grow up. However, I know I can't just plan on being a stay at home mom, and that having a good education and job to fall back on is crucial to supporting my life and the family I want someday.
I'll take any advice. Thank you!
As a result of this I've began considering other options, and things I would be good at. People keep telling me that I'll excel the most at life with doing things I'm good at and generally enjoy. My favorite job I've ever had was at my town's elementary school, I love children and are very naturally gifted with them. However, I feel like I'd be an awful teacher. Additionally, I love reading and writing, and have always excelled in English courses. I have no idea what to do with this though, in an ideal world I could be a book editor, but I know that's not at all realistic. I've trapped myself in a pre-med trap and after a year of trying to convince myself I liked science and math and that if I just worked really hard I would enjoy it, I haven't. In fact, I kind of hate it. All I wanted was to be a doctor, to help people, but at this point I feel like it's all out of reach.
At the end of the day, I just want to have a career that will allow me to be able to take time away to be able to take care of children and a family, or I can at least go back to once my children grow up. However, I know I can't just plan on being a stay at home mom, and that having a good education and job to fall back on is crucial to supporting my life and the family I want someday.
I'll take any advice. Thank you!