Very depressed

[brinny]

Dear one, i can so relate to what you are saying. For me, the forgiveness part was sooo baffling. Until God said, in essence, give "them" to me. And i did. The "them" is the people who hurt me. At that point God gave me a different perspective, in that i was able to let go of the "space" they were taking in my mind. Their stranglehold on my psyche dissolved. They were now God's responsibility. In "letting go" i was, in essence, allowing God to take the reigns and free me from a prison, of sorts. The bottom line, that God does this for our well-being, not theirs. He, in essence, teaches us a "detachment" from the twisted "bond" that bounds and imprisons us. As He says "The truth shall set you free,.." The truth is, this is a "God" thing, and not ours. We leave it all (and them) in His hands.

Lifting you up to our Abba, dear one. (((((hug))))

 

[Steffenfield]

Yeah, God was able to help me get out of my head and into my heart where the painful thinking wasn't as strong as before.

God knows all of the secret tricks to help us when in need.

 

[razzelflabben]

Amen...may we each allow God to do what He does best...change hearts and minds, to transform us into His image.

 

[razzelflabben]

things are some better, a day off helped a lot. I think I have forgiven, but it still hurts and makes me angry. I am still in deep pain of grief only to have my own parent blame me for what other people say and do, people I barely know, and then on top of that, blame me for our sons death because it got us more attention to loose him than she gets for not having gone through that painful loss.

I guess the bottom line, is that I don't need that right now. Yet God is faithful and though it still hurts, I forgive and am moving on.

 

[Steffenfield]

*HUGS Lori*

To me, you're the sweetest woman on this site and have helped me so greatly in my own life.

Don't let anyone give you any grief, otherwise I'm personally coming after them!

 

[razzelflabben]

Thanks, not many people want to defend me, most think I make a pretty good punching bag, maybe it's my size and shape

 

[Broken Hearted]

LORI Youve also been so good to me. You know I love you and Im always gonna be here for you. I agree with Steffenfield. Ill take up for you any day or time. I know its hard. But like I told you we can chose our family and your mine I may have lost my real momma but you remind me so much of her. I love you. And I do protect my family the best I can to my ability you wont be my punching bag unless I got to come beat sense into you but you got plenty of that already. Love ya

 

[razzelflabben]

Thanks guys, you know I so love you...so much love for you that I don't think I could hold any more in my being. You are family, and love that you are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Steffenfield]

Have you heard from Southern lately, Lori?

 

[razzelflabben]

Have you heard from Southern lately, Lori?

No, still waiting to hear back from here, I haven't heard anything since before Thanksgiving...speaking of which I thought we would get to see you this weekend.....how is your battle going?

Southern, if your on, we would love to hear from you, you are a special part of this odd little family as well.

 

[Steffenfield]

I'm so sorry.

Someone else grabbed me for the weekend.

You know, i have nowhere to be on Christmas this year. *HINT*

Does your church do a late Christmas eve service? I love those!

 

[razzelflabben]

I'm so sorry.

Someone else grabbed me for the weekend.

You know, i have nowhere to be on Christmas this year. *HINT*

Does your church do a late Christmas eve service? I love those!

I'm not sure what the schedule for Christmas service is yet, but we will probably have a Christmas dinner like we did Thanksgiving...for all those alone for the "family" holiday.

 

[Steffenfield]

Yeah, I seriously need to meet you some day.

My Christmas wishes for this year are pretty lame.

I have a friend who has 40,000+ plus songs of Christian music that I asked for her to share with me.

The only other thing that I can think of....

Well, I know you and I have a different loss in our life, but still, I'm wishing for a Christmas hug from you.

I really would like this.

I think it would give me super happy smiles this holiday season.

 

[razzelflabben]

Yeah, I seriously need to meet you some day.

My Christmas wishes for this year are pretty lame.

I have a friend who has 40,000+ plus songs of Christian music that I asked for her to share with me.

The only other thing that I can think of....

Well, I know you and I have a different loss in our life, but still, I'm wishing for a Christmas hug from you.

I really would like this.

I think it would give me super happy smiles this holiday season.

If you can make it down, the hug will be waiting for you, if you don't make it, a cyber hug, from my heart to yours will always be there.

 

[southernwonder]

I am new to this forum and in need of Christian support/encouragement. I have suffered from depression since my teenage years (I am in my late 20s). I lost my job two years ago due to being unable to function. One year ago my husband told me he wanted a divorce because he no longer believed in God and could no long fight the homosexual feelings he had been having since a child. Our marriage was a loving one and I miss him so much. Please do not say anything negative about him. Our marriage was real and he married me believing God had healed him from his same sex attraction. He gave in to sin and I know that.

I am living with my parents now. I see a Christian therapist and a psychiatrist.

I feel like I am in hell. I am having such trouble letting go of my husband. When I met my husband, I felt safe and loved for the first time in my life. I never felt loved by my parents. It is so hard to let go of him. I am so afraid of being unloved and alone.

I am so alone right now. My already weak support system has fallen apart. I do not have friends that are supportive.

My future seems so bleak and dark. I know what the Bible says but I am still so afraid of my future.

In the evenings, I feel so much pain and hopelessness that I want to die. My therapist thinks spiritual attacks are occurring when I am at my weakest point in the evening.

I just need some support and encouragement. And prayer.

Reading what I wrote four years ago hurts my heart. I still feel a lot of pain and loneliness. This long season has been so difficult. I don't know why God has me here for so long. I feel he has stripped every thing from me. My depression is back again but thank God, I am not suicidal.

I could use a friend or two. I am still with my parents who were abusive and they are not supportive.

 

[Jeshu]

Reading what I wrote four years ago hurts my heart. I still feel a lot of pain and loneliness. This long season has been so difficult. I don't know why God has me here for so long. I feel he has stripped every thing from me. My depression is back again but thank God, I am not suicidal.

I could use a friend or two. I am still with my parents who were abusive and they are not supportive.

Hi, my name is Gerry, it sounds like you have gone through a very hard time in your life. This saddens me. Your loss was so great. I relate to the feeling of having lost everything and misery ruling its daily fashion. Sometimes we are taken on a heart wrenching journey. Trust that God can make something good out of it, if we give Him a chance.

Job lost everything, but gained double of what he had before. I don't know the whys, I suppose one day we will know and then we can drink in His comfort.

 

[razzelflabben]

Reading what I wrote four years ago hurts my heart. I still feel a lot of pain and loneliness. This long season has been so difficult. I don't know why God has me here for so long. I feel he has stripped every thing from me. My depression is back again but thank God, I am not suicidal.

I could use a friend or two. I am still with my parents who were abusive and they are not supportive.

I know this will sound like the dumbest thing in all the world to say, but you are so blessed, blessed beyond words, I know it doesn't feel like it, but you are, and when you emerge from these struggles, fully consumed by God, you too will see the wonders of the blessings you have not yet realized.

I was recently talking with someone about poverty. Our deep poverty, was also the richest times we knew, not because of money, but because God is like that, He takes our darkest moments and reveals the jewels hidden therein. Our pastor used to tell me all the time that he was sorry for what I have endured, I repeatedly told him that there was no need to be sorry because all of those sorrows worked to make me the person I am today. I think he has finally got it. Because I endured, because I serve the Living God, because God is...well...God, I have overcome and the blessings within that are astounding. It's an overcoming that God desires for each and everyone of His children and I look forward to the day that you and I talk and you see the richness of the blessings within the struggles. Proverbs 25:2 is your promise for today....KJV It is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter.

May you have eyes to see the blessings, grace to endure through the trials, and strength in supernatural proportions as you yield yourself to our Lord and King.

So great to hear from you again.

 

[southernwonder]

Hi, my name is Gerry, it sounds like you have gone through a very hard time in your life. This saddens me. Your loss was so great. I relate to the feeling of having lost everything and misery ruling its daily fashion. Sometimes we are taken on a heart wrenching journey. Trust that God can make something good out of it, if we give Him a chance.

Job lost everything, but gained double of what he had before. I don't know the whys, I suppose one day we will know and then we can drink in His comfort.

I am sorry you can relate to that feeling, Gerry. I am waiting to see what good God will make of it. I am curious and it is hard to be patient.

 

[razzelflabben]

May God reveal to you today the wonders that are in store for you. May you if only in a glimpse know the truth of how God intends to restore good to you.

 

[Jeshu]

I am sorry you can relate to that feeling, Gerry. I am waiting to see what good God will make of it. I am curious and it is hard to be patient.

Rest assured God will turn it all to your benefit, He has certainly done that for me, though it took 7 years in the making.

Sow good things in your heart like love, kindness, long-suffering, joy, gentleness, peace, meekness, hope, faith, patience and the likes. Ask God to grow these feelings back in your heart.

In the mean time surrender your times of faithlessness, hopelessness, misery, fear, guilt, shame, anger, hate and despair into His hand. Refuse to indulge in these feelings. Rather confess them to God and ask God to make you stronger than such feelings.

Await Him when the darkness strikes, don't give up but await Him when you are at your sorest.

Grow His loving goodness in your heart there is nothing that can beat God's goodness, certainly not depression, Jesus has overcome it all and can teach us to be stronger than pain can bring to bear as well.

Be of good courage

Peace

To God's Depressed Child,

To think less of yourself then God's own
Brings you much pain and suffering.
Your worth is an incredible high price
Also for you did Jesus die on the cross.

Depression is also what devil's lies brings inside
letting a low-self-esteem your good life rob
Untruths roaming freely through heart and mind
Evil lies extinguishing all happiness and fun.

His loving truth brings you His good life
While to believe lies brings pain and grief
So hold onto the promises Jesus made to you
and don't let Satan your good life squander.

Take hold of God's precious loving truth.
A life in Him stays safe from lies that hurt.
Jesus' truth will comfort your bleeding heart
Lovingly remaking your fallen life anew.