Hello everyone.
I am sorry but I im such need of help.
My mother is bipolar, I have job that I need to maintain myself. I don't make enough to live on my own. I end up having to live with my mother.
My mother seems to have a huge demon inside her. Draining her life. Her condition is a consequence of sinning her entire life. She is followed by a psychiatrist, and medicated but it isn't enough.
She lost the will to live. Even her children, me and my sister aren't a reason for her to live. When she is not depressed she is maniac. We had to put her into a psychiatric hospital six times already and it's heading towards the seventh.
Sometimes when I am reasoning with her incongruity I end up in a state of confusion due to her irrationality. It seems that it's like a demon she has it wants me to sin also, and her behavior leads me to.
Today. Talking to her to make my point clear I told my strength and will to live, something she is lacking, comes to me from the Father and the bible. I used an expression to her saying "The book of the crazies" referring to the bible. I have sometimes used this expression because people think I am also crazy due to some behaviors of mine and faith. I have the impression that unbelievers think we are delusional and crazy because they don't see/believe/feel what we do, thus thinking we are crazy. So I sometime refer to the bible wrongfully and impulsively as the book of the crazy people.
Today when I used this expression it hurt a lot for the first time. And I realized I shouldn't call it anymore as such. It hurt and it scares me because the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit are included in it, and I have blasphemed or comitted the unforgivable sin.
I haven't done it on purpose or with bad intent. I love the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit with my life, all my heart and they are everything to me. My life, my strength, my will, my breath, they are the sun that rises every morning, my beloved ones, I live for them.
Still I am so afraid of having spoken blasphemy today. Matthew 12:32 "And whoever speaks a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whoever speaks against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come."
May the Father guide and bless you all.
I am sorry but I im such need of help.
My mother is bipolar, I have job that I need to maintain myself. I don't make enough to live on my own. I end up having to live with my mother.
My mother seems to have a huge demon inside her. Draining her life. Her condition is a consequence of sinning her entire life. She is followed by a psychiatrist, and medicated but it isn't enough.
She lost the will to live. Even her children, me and my sister aren't a reason for her to live. When she is not depressed she is maniac. We had to put her into a psychiatric hospital six times already and it's heading towards the seventh.
Sometimes when I am reasoning with her incongruity I end up in a state of confusion due to her irrationality. It seems that it's like a demon she has it wants me to sin also, and her behavior leads me to.
Today. Talking to her to make my point clear I told my strength and will to live, something she is lacking, comes to me from the Father and the bible. I used an expression to her saying "The book of the crazies" referring to the bible. I have sometimes used this expression because people think I am also crazy due to some behaviors of mine and faith. I have the impression that unbelievers think we are delusional and crazy because they don't see/believe/feel what we do, thus thinking we are crazy. So I sometime refer to the bible wrongfully and impulsively as the book of the crazy people.
Today when I used this expression it hurt a lot for the first time. And I realized I shouldn't call it anymore as such. It hurt and it scares me because the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit are included in it, and I have blasphemed or comitted the unforgivable sin.
I haven't done it on purpose or with bad intent. I love the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit with my life, all my heart and they are everything to me. My life, my strength, my will, my breath, they are the sun that rises every morning, my beloved ones, I live for them.
Still I am so afraid of having spoken blasphemy today. Matthew 12:32 "And whoever speaks a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whoever speaks against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come."
May the Father guide and bless you all.
