Ever since I heard about the unforgivable sin I've been troubled with thoughts of blasphemy. I'm so scared this has lasted for quite a long time now. I used to cry and pray but nothing. I've asked God to kill me because I don't know how I'd survive without him, and he said in the scripture he would never forgive, that's very scary. Because of this, i've become depressed. Ive reached out to 3 girls in church and told them about it, they said I haven't yet commited the sin but these thoughts are still there. Ive tried not to pay attention to it infact, i cant pray anymore, can't even go to church anymore becos of it. In the scripture somewhere it says no matter how righteous a person is God would never forgive if they've blasphemed against the HS nor prayers (I've seen it in the bible but not sure of the exact passage). Sometimes, I have hope like hey I'm still alive other times, I want to just end it all. I've also thought about committing suicide instead of living a life filled with sorrows and no hope. Someone pls help in anyway u can. I know I'm not holy nor righteous and I sin every time but I'm just so scared. Is there someone who could talk to God on my behalf I would like some assurance pls. Thanks.