I am starting to have flashbacks of some most recent incidents that happened at my apartment several months back, and I am starting to have flashbacks and see very graphic images, either in my sleep or in front of me as I go on with my daily routine of getting up in the morning, get a shower, and start my day after getting out of the shower.
As I am sitting in my room minding my business, either watching a movie that is "not" pornographic - which goes against my values - I am fixing, at multiple times, to go off and break things. My mind is like a shotgun. Once the hammer is cocked, it takes 2 seconds for the bullet to hit its target.
At approximately 3 o'clock or 3:15pm almost daily since the incidents, my mind has burnt with lustful images from videos and pictures I've been exposed to since I was 16 years old, meaning, that's when the flashbacks kick in, and they torture me until I am out of strength to stand the sanity.
I found this forum looking for a Christian Aspergers forum. And this is my first post. Attacks I can definitely relate to. That's all I've had since I've become a Christian.
You've given up something that used to take an inordinate amount of your time and emotions.
Christians, I don't believe, can be possessed; however, they can definitely be oppressed.
If Satan can't have you back, he definitely wants your mind and time and energy devoted to evil back.
The Lord's Prayer asks the Lord to deliver us from temptation. Luke 11.
Paul states that we are fighting a war, not with weapons of flesh and blood. So the decision to do what is right, doesn't always cut it.
I learned through desperation how to pray the Scriptures to defend myself against evil.
2Co 10:3 For though we walk (live) in the flesh, we are not carrying on our warfare according to the flesh and using mere human weapons.
2Co 10:4 For the weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood], but they are mighty before God for the overthrow and destruction of strongholds,
2Co 10:5 [Inasmuch as we] refute arguments and theories and reasonings and every proud and lofty thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God; and we lead every thought and purpose away captive into the obedience of Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One),
1. They are mighty before God...for the overthrow and destruction of strongholds.
2. We have to refute the lies of Satan with the truth, which is God's Word.
3. We lead every thought and purpose captive into obedience to Jesus Christ the Messiah.
I study the Word to find passages that apply to the situation.
I read them out loud and on that authority of the Truth, I go onto pray.
I've learned to pray that using "I" statements and I bind and rebuke what ever it is and bring it captive into obedience to Jesus Christ the Messiah in Jesus' name Amen.
We must pray in Jesus' name. It is not our authority but the authority of Jesus Christ that we rely upon.
John 16:23-24 AMP
23 And when that time comes, you will ask nothing of Me [you will need to ask Me no questions]. I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, that My Father will grant you whatever you ask in My Name [as presenting all that I AM]. [Exod. 3:14.]
24 Up to this time you have not asked a [single] thing in My Name [as presenting all that I AM]; but now ask and keep on asking and you will receive, so that your joy (gladness, delight) may be full and complete.
Then Paul teaches in Ephesians chapter 6 the Armour of God.
Don't always expect this stuff to go away and stay away the first time. If it's a foothold, then we must be vigilant to keep ourselves free from it.
Oh, and if you haven't already done it, repent!!!!
