Hi, WCO! This is my first post on the site.
I came across your thread and read the first page, plus a few posts on this page, and wanted to respond. (I'll go back and read the rest of your thread later today, when I have more time.).
I've been married for 22 yrs; a bit of a veteran. I haven't read the languages of love book, myself, but I've heard about it and it sounds like it might be a good book for you! Also, I have 4 kiddies, and girl, I can't believe how much you've taken on in your life right now, along with having a newborn! How on earth are you doing it?
The sleep depravation alone would get to anyone. I don't think you sound at all overemotional or unbalanced, especially for someone so tired and overworked. *big hugs*
Someone else mentioned doing the legwork, giving your hubby ideas for gifts for you. I agree that this might work. Next holiday or event that's important to you, I'd talk to him a bit beforehand (like you did about V-day) and let him know in a non-threatening, non-accusing way that you'd like to celebrate the event. I wouldn't start toooo big the first time around and overwhelm the guy. Paint him a picture of how you'd like the holiday to look, keeping in mind his own tastes and interests so it'll be fun for both of you. And if it's an event where gifts would be involved, you could choose something for yourself and literally do almost all of the work in making it happen yourself, making it less intimidating for him (just until he gets the hang of gift giving and buying for you). If he doesn't hate shopping, he could go with you to purchase what you've already chosen for yourself ahead of time, and then maybe you could go out for a fun meal (someplace he really likes to eat).
I'm just saying I might start out light and easy until he learns to have fun with holidays. I don't know how your hubby was raised, but maybe holidays and gift giving weren't done big in his home. He might not even know how awesome and fun marriage can be. Maybe he has it in his mind that dating is the fun part, and marriage is just about keeping a family afloat.
I do think communication is super important, but also keep in mind who your hubby is. Pour your emotions out with a friend, and when you talk to your hubby, tell him how you feel more gently, without applying too much pressure and overloading him with expectations.
But DO let him know when something is important to you! You want him to understand you without him freaking out and feeling like a fish out of water. We can be pretty complex and intimidating to men sometimes.
If he loves you, he'll want to hear your heart and make you happy,
as long as he sees and believes it's within his power to do so.
Don't give up on what's important to you, but do be gentle in helping hubby to understand you, and in training him up to be the Mister Wonderful you know he is deep down!
On the other hand, if he's simply being selfish and nasty and you don't think he really even cares about how you feel, I'd definitely suggest seeing a counselor, having a strong support system for yourself, and lots and lots of prayer.
Blessing!
Hailey