Finally, I am on my way to Jesus. Many years ago my faith was completely lost and the darkest period in my life began. I cannot begin to explain to you how much of a struggle it has been dealing with the state of my mental health. Unable to even leave my home, I have had to fight to complete even the simplest of tasks. Every day I cry because of how much mental anguish I am in.
For the past few months I have desperately been trying to find my way back to God. I knew in my heart that he was calling me back. He knows how much pain I am in; he knows how to fix it; he will keep me safe at night; he will help me fight the demons off. Sadly, every time I would get close to him some conspiracy theory, atheist, questionable bible verse, or misconception of the faith would break me away.
So a few days ago I came here and asked for prayers to help me find God ... and tonight I think I did it; I really think I finally have found him. I have never felt like this before.
Just hours ago I had a horrible panic attack that forced me out of bed, walking the dark halls of my home alone. I sat down and began to think about Jesus. Through a string of thoughts he came to me. Pictures of life with him on my side became clear. My fear melted away, without even needing medication. I cannot explain it, but I really think this is it, I think I am officially content with declaring Jesus as my God.
I cannot say what tomorrow will bring for my faith, but please, keep me in your prayers. They are working. Tomorrow I am going to purchase a bible and begin reading, soon after conquer my fears and find myself back through the doors of the church.
God bless you all,
Sam

For the past few months I have desperately been trying to find my way back to God. I knew in my heart that he was calling me back. He knows how much pain I am in; he knows how to fix it; he will keep me safe at night; he will help me fight the demons off. Sadly, every time I would get close to him some conspiracy theory, atheist, questionable bible verse, or misconception of the faith would break me away.
So a few days ago I came here and asked for prayers to help me find God ... and tonight I think I did it; I really think I finally have found him. I have never felt like this before.
Just hours ago I had a horrible panic attack that forced me out of bed, walking the dark halls of my home alone. I sat down and began to think about Jesus. Through a string of thoughts he came to me. Pictures of life with him on my side became clear. My fear melted away, without even needing medication. I cannot explain it, but I really think this is it, I think I am officially content with declaring Jesus as my God.
I cannot say what tomorrow will bring for my faith, but please, keep me in your prayers. They are working. Tomorrow I am going to purchase a bible and begin reading, soon after conquer my fears and find myself back through the doors of the church.
God bless you all,
Sam
