- Jun 18, 2020
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So I decided Sunday, after a (in my opinion) powerful sermon by our young adults pastor at our church, that I would begin trying to put my full trust in Jesus. However, there’s always worries plaguing my mind.
1) How do I know if I’m actually trying to trust in Him, or if I’ve just been given a strong delusion, since I’m fairly certain we’re in the last days, and the reason I’ve become so desperate for saving after a period of doing whatever I wanted (though not taking it “too far”) is because I’m afraid of being left behind. It just seems so wrong.
2) A part of me feels like I’m only doing ERP to gratify my desires, and trying to convince myself that I’m not trusting if I’m restricting myself from things based on fear. I’ve just started self-ERP today, and I’ve only been able to eat a few things that I’m normally afraid to eat. I tried to wear my Vans hoodie today, but I’m afraid that by wearing it, I’m associating myself with California, which seems to represent things that are contrary to the Christian faith.
3) I’m still very anxious and afraid about sharing my faith and submitting to God’s will. I’ve struggled with the concept of faith before works. People often tell me that I do love God, contrary to my belief that I don’t. They say that I have the Holy Spirit, but I disagree. It’s frustrating. How could i love God and have the Holy Spirit, yet be so reluctant to do God’s will?
Answers and prayers are appreciated, thank you.
1) How do I know if I’m actually trying to trust in Him, or if I’ve just been given a strong delusion, since I’m fairly certain we’re in the last days, and the reason I’ve become so desperate for saving after a period of doing whatever I wanted (though not taking it “too far”) is because I’m afraid of being left behind. It just seems so wrong.
2) A part of me feels like I’m only doing ERP to gratify my desires, and trying to convince myself that I’m not trusting if I’m restricting myself from things based on fear. I’ve just started self-ERP today, and I’ve only been able to eat a few things that I’m normally afraid to eat. I tried to wear my Vans hoodie today, but I’m afraid that by wearing it, I’m associating myself with California, which seems to represent things that are contrary to the Christian faith.
3) I’m still very anxious and afraid about sharing my faith and submitting to God’s will. I’ve struggled with the concept of faith before works. People often tell me that I do love God, contrary to my belief that I don’t. They say that I have the Holy Spirit, but I disagree. It’s frustrating. How could i love God and have the Holy Spirit, yet be so reluctant to do God’s will?
Answers and prayers are appreciated, thank you.