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[servant4ever]

I posted this on the Depression category, but I think I could get some help here. Here is the message:

Hello everybody,

I have a question that has been bothering me the last few nights. As some of you know, I have been majorly depressed and have even considered suicide. Well, my roommate, who subscribes to this board, found out that it was me posting as servant4ever. He sent me private messages to help encourage me, and I had to tell him it was me, I didn't want him to think I was betraying him or anything. Well, after that long story, my roommate is encouraging me to go see a pyschiatrist. In order that I do that, I need to tell my parents because they hold my insurance card for me to see a doctor. He is willing to call them to tell them that he has noticed me being depressed and everything, not telling the whole story, but enough to convince my parents to get my insurance card. I am scared to let my parents know because I am afraid I will be "disowned" by my family. I am so confused yet scared because this is probably the only way I can get better.

Any advice would be appreciated,

servant4ever

 

[Tyler16]

You might want to concider talking to your preacher if you attened church. Then see a pyschiatrist if that doesnt help. I think seeing a christian councelor would be good for you.

 

[Tyler16]

It doesnt have to be your preacher just a christian councelor.

 

[servant4ever]

hello Tyler,

I am seeing a counselor now at the church I attend, I guess the church I attend has the best counseling center for a Christian organization in the area I live in (city of 3,000,000 people).

servant4ever

 

[Tyler16]

Does it seem to be helping?

 

[Tyler16]

Another thing why or for what reason are you depressed?

 

[servant4ever]

Tyler,

sorry, I forgot to say if it was working or not, my fault. But, anyways, it seemed to work at first, then I have been getting worse and worse as time has gone on (I have been going since late September). I don't want to see a pyschiatrist, I'm so scared that they will place me in a hospital for thinking of suicide. But, this is probably the only way I will get better, according to my roommate. I am also scared that the medicine will not help me, and the costs involved. I am just so confused.

a confused servant4ever

 

[servant4ever]

Tyler,

I have been depressed for 2 1/2 years when my grandma passed away. The last time I got to see her, the day before she died in the hospital, she wanted me to talk to her, and I couldn't say a word because of how sick she was, it was showing on her face. I had never seen her so sick. Then it got worst last year when I had a horrible roommate situation in college, and this year with another roommate of mine (I have 5 roommates) told me I have never been a friend of his. I have a horrible relationship with my family, I believe some totally different things than they do within the Christian doctrine.

servant4ever

 

[B-Real]

Rejoice, I am praying for you, I know what you are going through for I have had those same problems in the past-the key is in resistance-the Bible says to resist the devil and he will flee and this is true. When the spirit of darkness gets heavy just call upon the name of Jesus-even if you are in a crowd just call upon his name softly and he will be with you to comfort you and give you light in darkness and peace in the middle of confusion. What ever has caused this depression to come upon you I pray that you will be set free and that a joyful spirit will return unto you speedily. Rejoice in the Lord turn to him and he will renew your strenght. I pray that the Lord will give you peace that surpasses all understanding and an unspeakable joy that you have never known before. We are all Gods children and he knows you by name call upon him he is your helpThere is power in the name of Jesus

 

[Breetai]

You know, I don't think that any loving parents would disown their son for being depressed. They would want to help their son to overcome this hard time in his life. They may not be able to understand, but they would help and any way they know how. I think that your parents should know about your troubles.

 

[Tyler16]

Man that must be real hard on you. sry that it has happened i live with my grandparents at the time because my mom has had a serious drinking problom for many many years. i would say about 14 yrs. All i can tell you to do is to get as many people to pray for you as possible. And keep going to councleing. It might be a good idea to get out and do things with some close friends that would be fun, stay active, read your bible pray to God that he will bring you out of this depression. I would be depressed to if anything ever happened to my grandma like that, she is like my mother to me she has been there all the times my mother couldnt be. And i would have to say i would be upset to if anything like that ever happened. And it wouldnt probably be the best to go to a physchiatrist. And no i dont think medicin would be a good idea either because my mom had to take anti-depressents and it didnt help because she never new what normal was or to act noraml around people so they wouldnt think she was drinking. My mom is in the process of getting help she is in a christian environment and i hope she is getting help. But i will be praying for you.

 

[servant4ever]

Hello Tyler,

the thing is, I have literally no friends on campus. I invite people over to hang out or go out on the town and do something (legal, of course), and they always reject. Majority of my roommates don't talk to me, I do everything alone. More or less, my friends from back home (I attend college 4 hours away) have left me. And I know that the counseling is about to come to an end because the program I am enrolled in only goes certain amount of weeks, I can't remember how many weeks.

servant4ever