Thoughts ...

[Noxot]

now I remember that I posted this in youtube:

...genuine faith in God is important because it allows us to bypass our own souls understanding and perceptions and we will thus be enabled to grow faster. faith in a false image of God can become quite a disaster. by listening to an spiritual authority that is an authority because they have something worthy to offer someone is useful. to submit to an authority just because you are told that you must in order to obey God is to submit to a devil disguised as an angel of light.


I would now add that faith, hope, and love are of the utmost importance in clinging to and perceiving God.

 

[x141]

Imagination and perception are the same thing. The soul can only reflect the image. One image brings measurement the other has none. Most people believe they are the thoughts they are listening to rather than the one listening, which is to be caught between heaven and earth, or as the bread of two days or eating from two tables, voices, or towers, etc.

The images we make out of the truths given stop up our ears and cause our eye to be dual when it becomes left over a day. The six days of labor and the gathering of the manna/like unto to coriander seed (cutting seed, which equates to all the men/images of warfare’s carcasses falling in the wilderness) leads us to a rest, but it is not a rest we abide in, but keeps us wandering until we are ready to crossover into the truth of self, where the banks of this river are overflowed during this harvest, which causes us to enter into this one with God (even though this be not of gain). The Book is the (pure) language of this truth and the opening of it in us the revealing of who we are.

 

[x141]

Whom do men say that I the Son of man am? But whom say ye that I am? Where art thou? Who told you? Have you eaten?

For the most part people still believe the kingdom is some far off place by the same means Adam became afraid. It is by this same means that ones who ever learn never come to the knowledge of the truth of what the kingdom of God is to God , and therefore what it is to us, because they believe they are somehow separate from it.

What sets us free is the unending truth of self.

 

[Noxot]

God makes it easy for all of us. my version of it in a dream:

the charming thief then decided to hold the gun to the head of the woman he had charmed. he said "you will pull the trigger".

I was happy to see this because I had been wanting to understand and see other ways of loving that not many people have reduced to 'loving something other than God with'. for instance, the idea of romance is used to harness all that capacity of themselves towards another. so to some degree romance is something fallen away as it is not used to love God only but people have used it in lesser manners and not towards God very much at all. the idea of the family is subjected to sin. the idea of father and child is smeared by this world. the word "God" has been reduced so far away from what it reaches for.

dark sayings are a relief to me because not many identify them with love. Jesus crucified was one of those darkest of sayings. martyrdom was one of those dark expressions of love that are not common but still people will die for their country or for their lover. God ask for all that we are but it's only right. this entire reality is a dark expression of love.

this terrible illusion of reality... this symbolic reality that everyone pretends is real is nothing more than torture. it is like looking through a glass and never being able to reach the one I want.

you know what i have grown to hate? oneness. you go and listen to the new age people for months and months.... you will hate the word "oneness" too. what I have learned is that "oneness" is just another word that is dragged through the mud and used to exalt self and forget God. I see potential in those people though.

lyrics for "death of me":
Can't I just blow you away
With what I mean, how I say
It's hard to write what I can’t feel
when all you want is mass appeal
what you want, it isn't real
It isn't real

You should know most of it's fake
smoke and mirrors, for money's sake
Start to think of when you'll stray
Loose it all, be stuck this way
Between the lines, I'm not okay
I'm not okay

This industry, industry
will get the best of me, best of me
Your industry, industry
will be the death of me
Death of me

youtube.com/watch?v=rntUl1Ufdu0

 

[Noxot]

by the way my grandma spoke of a time she lived in Arizona and in her backyard was a lemon tree with huge fruits and she would eat those fruits as if they were oranges. it must have been the lemon tree of lemon trees...

 

[x141]

The soul loves to build cities, it is inherent in it's very nature to birth whatever seed is planted. It is eternal as the one it came out of being of him and is an absolute clarifying every seed sown.

God requires everything because this is the measure he gives back in which is found to be the measure from the very beginning through the perception, or birthing of this truth in us, which becomes to us a continuous place of where we are and will unveil all things to be this from the beginning.

The image of God brings the soul to confusion when it is outside of self which is all part of the birthing process. You see this in the words Jesus spoke to the rich young ruler, they were words driven by this love that has no shadow cast by an image less then God.

 

[x141]

by the way my grandma spoke of a time she lived in Arizona and in her backyard was a lemon tree with huge fruits and she would eat those fruits as if they were oranges. it must have been the lemon tree of lemon trees...

How well the narrative of life flows where truth is in abundance, though very few find it. This will all change in a moment and will be like it was never anything less than this forever.

 

[Noxot]

it is funny how much "perception colors everything"™ ( x141 lite version )

 

[x141]

It's really not about the abomination, but what turned it into the abomination, it is the apple of God's eye.

 

[x141]

Time (separation through knowledge) is not outside of God or it would rule over him, and where we are in relationship to this truth is where we believe ourselves to be.

 

[x141]

With all the languages in the earth it should occur to us, that God has one of his own.

 

[seeingeyes]

With all the languages in the earth it should occur to us, that God has one of his own.

Love.

 

[x141]

Love.

God is most certainly his language.

 

[Noxot]

It's really not about the abomination, but what turned it into the abomination, it is the apple of God's eye.

but how could the apple of Gods eye ever be an irrational freedom to create that which is not good if it is indeed the apple of Gods eye? freedom means that God can never force his own freedom on us. our freedom is darkness and Gods freedom is light. out of the depths of God this interaction of God and his other is. physical being is a kind of creative energy of spirit and freedom gives birth to spirit or freedom causes waves in the ocean which we call spirit. the crucifying and resurrection of the Son of God explains this blind fallen reality and Gods grace/freedom towards it and us towards him. the birthing of the new world by the return of the Son to the Father brought about with the Holy Spirit is a promise or revealing of the ultimate reality of eternal loving freedom - the kingdom of God and his children.

beneath this outer reality I find a depth of love that express itself through this one. layers of reality all going through each other, this reality that I hardly understand, I desire it to transform more and more into this loving expression of the eternal cosmos... for the shadows to fade away, but in the end it is only a play of love and a chance for free expression of love. a kind of goal is to transmute darkness into light, to find light in darkness. or like a seed planted in a ground and it grows to a beautiful tree.

love is rational just as much as it is irrational.

the tree of knowledge of good and evil was not needed, it was only a possibility.

 

[x141]

What the soul is in relationship to knowledge, and why it is the center of God's eye to himself, is why it is this to us.

To be naked and not ashamed, is not to be clothed with thoughts gendered by a labor to be, which measuring oneself by an image outside of oneself, even if this image is God, is to be a harlot-ed soul, or garden not enclosed.

It is the soul that prepares the table we eat from pertaining to self.

It wasn't the tree but the commandment that became a seed of a serpent in the mind of Adam, which (in the Bible) is the first picture of the birthing process of self.

It depicts how to understand self when the commandment is kept by taking no thought.

When Moses asked God who are you his answer came from this garden enclosed.

 

[x141]

And it shall come to pass in that day, that the light shall not be clear, nor dark ...

This is a Truth (not subject to time) that is both individual and collective, but not collective unless it is individual, and for every individual, found in the moment.

If something is not ours it becomes babel to us.

 

[seeingeyes]

I'm having trouble with this as a practical matter.

My dear sister (we love each other very much) is... I guess...back where I used to be as a matter of theology. We had an argument today about the importance of pointing out the sins of others (you can probably determine which side of that fence I'm currently on).

I remember the fear and self-righteousness of those days. I would absolutely carry that for her if I could. I know that no one could have "talked" me out of such a stance, and I also know that it took enormous tragedy to budge me at all.

All I can do is pray His will be done, but I'm afraid for her.

Edit: No, wait. Maybe it's more impatient then afraid.

Either way it's no good.

 

[x141]

The last time I was in church all I could do was cry. I cried for those who came to the bank of the river but would not enter in, from the Pastor down to the usher.

A young teenage girl came up to me at the end of the service to console the old man who had seemed to have his first taste of yes Jesus loves me. She was innocent of evil never yet having left her first love, but leave our first love we must.

In my youth I was very much the partier, my little brother for awhile followed. In the process of time, he became a police officer. It happened one day I came home to eat lunch with my family. As I sat my little brother began telling a story of an arrest in which he called the perpetrator a dirt bag. I stopped him in mid tale with a What did you just say! I recounted in a few words how just a few short years ago he was this same dirt bag (which he knew I was speaking of his nakedness relative to his salvation experience as did the rest who were sitting there). He hung his head in shame, and the story ended.

Why a sinner goes away justified is because they do not justify themselves which has every bit to do with the first commandment as it does with the, and all things are of Christ.

The soul constantly wants to build a temple. a city, a name, a son rather than lay at the masters feet, because to this harlot the truth is still something outside of them, which by this woman rules over them. This then becomes an image (as the first image, in the first garden that lacked still one thing) until their eyes are opened to the reality that this image mocks the truth of self.

(As you know) Practical is seed time and harvest until the truth is seen by them as something fulfilled in them, something God has done, and they have had no part in. A place where even your adversary you have come into agreement with. (this is the difference (in one form) of the Word of God, and the testimony of Jesus Christ as something we all posses whether we yet understand this truth or not).

I have more friends (those who will receive me into everlasting habitations) that saints deem sinners then sinners who deem themselves saints, who go in before the ones who are still unknowingly ruled over by their own soul, or wandering between two mountains, which is par for the course.

Some will die in their sins.

 

[Noxot]

well I for one am convinced that my brothers would have been much better people if they did not have me as a brother.

the sad thing about so many bad plants growing everywhere is that they go everywhere.

 

[x141]

I wish I could recount the conversation I had this morning about the cohesiveness of the narrative of the one Word that as a river comes out of this as one pleasure, of which we are all of by and for, as this one Word that flows out only to return to where it has come from in the measure it was sent out in, though it all be found in the moment that is God. (I'm sure you would have enjoyed the fellowship).

We, and all we have done and will do play to this one end declared from the beginning, all of this as God coming to a consensus in all.