Thoughts Of It's Too Hard

[SonOfThunder]

I'm a mess lately, depressed and nothing is going right.

I love Jehovah God, I really do, enough to leave my religion and be asked to leave home but since then I have gotten depressed and feel I don't fit into anything.

I am posting here as I think these feeling of not embracing the Nicene creed or knowing what I am is overwhelming me and these thoughts I have lately are not good thoughts at all about giving up. They don't belong in a believers mind even, but swinging them around to being positive is difficult and I know it is a sin which compounds it all the more.

This year has been a major change and now I have dreferred uni as I wont pass anyway.

I am so divided on where to be Spiritually and mixing into the world that it has made me so weak and lacking in energy to even try anymore.

Why does depression rob you of energy and drive? Why isn't this major move for Jehovah God giving me drive to carry on rather than colapse in a heap?

I was so driven in search of truth and now I have made moves it seems I am more of a mess with the changes and lack the drive to press on.

On the one hand I know that 'self' is getting in the way, missing my family and a new place to live etc.


It isn't getting easier, my thoughts are so so destructive I maybe should ask for prayer in this area. Jehovah God wont like my thoughts so may not hear me.


James

 

[Emmy]

Dear James(Son of Thunder),when you say Jehovah God might not want to hear you,when you pray,my advice to you is:"God loves us,God wants us back with Him again,God died for us,to show us the way back again."We are all sinners James,and God is waiting for us to repent,and repent again and again,until we change into His loving children.We can only do this by asking His help and pray to Him.He knows your heart James,if you are sincere,He will help you,God never lies.If the name Jesus is unfamiliar to you,remember that God and Jesus are one.Sincere greetings from Emmy,a sister in Christ.

 

[SonOfThunder]

SonOfThunder, what do you think is the cause of the depression? What are your thoughts when you are depressed? Do you think poorly of yourself?

Depression hit me after I left home, I grew up one of Jehovah's Witnesses and found a lot of error. It started after my cousin died and I found that she died for false religion. Then found Biblical truth wasn't in The Watchtower Organisation so decided to stop attending meetings.

My parents asked me to leave home as I have a younger brother that could be influenced, and my dad is an elder. I moved into Uni accomodation and live there now.

The depression hit then, I realised I had been so busy studying the Bible that my uni marks suffered. My family and friends within my congregation thought of me as an apostate and I just plain ole don't fit into society. Even thinking about further Bible study seems huge, there are just too many divisions out there with religion I feel I will never find peace and know I am in a true religion.

My thoughts are scaring me and my future seems ....

 

[The_White]

My parents asked me to leave home as I have a younger brother that could be influenced, and my dad is an elder

That sux. What happened to loving your neighbor as yourself?

The depression hit then, I realised I had been so busy studying the Bible that my uni marks suffered. My family and friends within my congregation thought of me as an apostate and I just plain ole don't fit into society. Even thinking about further Bible study seems huge, there are just too many divisions out there with religion I feel I will never find peace and know I am in a true religion

To Much of a good thing? I don't fit into society, it is something to be proud of not depressed about (although none has ever thought of me as an apostate) There is way to much division of religion (even between denominations in christianity) keep looking, you will find something that suits you eventually.

 

[Dan47]

Need answers? Can't find them in mainstream christianity? Copy and paste this link.



mikevinson.home.mindspring.com

 

[TheMainException]

Dear brother, SonofThunder, he WILL hear you, every plea, every scream, every tear that falls, every drop of blood that might spill from your heart. He will hear everything and see everything. He won't leave you to suffer. No, he will stand near to you and hold onto you and hug and love you until you have overcome this. But know this one thing...he is molding you into something new. You will come out of this a new person because of this time of depression. It has changed me and I know that it will change you, live in love, know that YOU ARE THE BELOVED. You belong to your abba, your daddy. He won't let you go, never EVER. He loves you more than anything in the whole world. This time of pain and suffering is necessary to grow closer to God in order to be brought into a new understanding of him. Live through this, you WILL make it, strive towards the prize no matter how hard. He is there, he won't let go, he will help you to stand when you only want to crawl back into bed. Dear brother, SonofThunder, I have been where you are now. I know how bad the pain gets and how much so you want to make it end. It may not go away soon, but if you endure pain and suffering here, you will recieve much more in heaven. Strive towards heaven...Christ is with you, he loves you, he won't let go of you ever....with love, Lauren

 

[MLynn]

Hello, SonofThunder! Jesus set us free from the shame and guilt of sin. You have made sacrifices to be true to yourself and it hasn't been easy. It's ok to feel depressed - we all do. You just have to remember that God is with you and that you are precious to Him. It's ok to wonder and question. In time you will be secure in your faith and you will know joy. It's just hard right now. Take care and be kind to yourself!! Mik

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

I'm a mess lately, depressed and nothing is going right.

I love Jehovah God, I really do, enough to leave my religion and be asked to leave home but since then I have gotten depressed and feel I don't fit into anything.

I am posting here as I think these feeling of not embracing the Nicene creed or knowing what I am is overwhelming me and these thoughts I have lately are not good thoughts at all about giving up. They don't belong in a believers mind even, but swinging them around to being positive is difficult and I know it is a sin which compounds it all the more.

This year has been a major change and now I have dreferred uni as I wont pass anyway.

I am so divided on where to be Spiritually and mixing into the world that it has made me so weak and lacking in energy to even try anymore.

Why does depression rob you of energy and drive? Why isn't this major move for Jehovah God giving me drive to carry on rather than colapse in a heap?

I was so driven in search of truth and now I have made moves it seems I am more of a mess with the changes and lack the drive to press on.

On the one hand I know that 'self' is getting in the way, missing my family and a new place to live etc.


It isn't getting easier, my thoughts are so so destructive I maybe should ask for prayer in this area. Jehovah God wont like my thoughts so may not hear me.


James

Dear James, the Lord already knows how you're feeling. It's okay to quietly tell Him how you feel-He values your honesty.

The good news is, you don't have to carry this burden on your back. The Lord will see you through it, and the Christian walk is a journey. It takes time to grow,m and the Lord knows that. He's far kinder with us than we ever are with ourselves.

Your beginning point is faith in Jesus Christ as your Savior. If you believe that, then your salvation is up to Him. He is faithful. Just rest in Him. Relax, and know He's taking care of it. You may not feel settled right now, but if you're settled in Him that's all that matters. Your job is to study His word (the Bible) and accept all of it. Implement all of it. That too is a process that takes time and growth takes time.

Pray that the Lord guides you to a faithful fellowship where the congregants care about you and will welcome you in. We're here to support you also, and to answer your questions.

Blessings,
Whitehorse

 

[nqstv1]

Dear James SonofThunder,

Never underestimate the love of God, and his son Lord Jesus. In this struggle you are going through, you should know that they are cheering for you because they want to welcome you into the kingdom of heaven. You say that you love God; imagine how much more he loves you, imagine the love Jesus has for you to have sacrificed himself for all our sins and shortcomings, yours included.

I have always believed that God existed, but for some reason I never fully acknowledged that Jesus is the Son of God. What distinguishes Christians from other people is that we accept Jesus as our Lord and saviour. It was not until I had done this that my relationship with God reached a whole new level - it was like that decision was the important piece in the puzzle. I have gone through depression stages too, but I have always been aware that God is always there to turn to. And he has helped me in so many ways.

I never realised the power of prayer in Jesus' name until recent years. Ask God for help with your situation in the name of Jesus.
May God bless you!

 

[Arkanin]

Hey man,

I just, and I mean just (very recently) have totally recovered from a severe depression. My life is going very well all of a sudden. I wish I could show you how well I'm doing.

How did I do it? I spent months in talk therapy and nothing got better. Then, I went to a psychiatrist. And I'm taking prozac. And bam, 2 weeks later, my life is pretty much better. And no -- I'm not high on life all the time in a way that's unhealthy -- I just feel reasonably good and functional, and I've been making a lot more friends, have a girlfriend now, etc.

So my advice is, see a psychiatrist. And when people tell you to 'just get better', tell them to shut up. And don't expect yourself to just get better. IMHO, you should see a psychiatrist and possibly get medicated; it may be at least partially chemical.

 

[Ben johnson]

There's actually truth behind the "chemical thing". Our brains are like a little man running a large chemical plant. Depression begets depression --- there are certain "endorphans" (pleasant-chemicals) that we need, and depression reduces them. Reduced endorphans make us depressed, more depression reduces further endorphans. It becomes a vicious cycle.

I second the idea of counselling. But preferrably with a Christian person, who has learning also.

You don't need to fear about "following the wrong religion", James. Though there are so many different denominations, we agree on the basic things; salvation by grace through faith, NOT by works; salvation being indwelt fellowship with Jesus and the Spirit. You are exceptionally bright --- just read the Word, and you'll be surprised how much falls into place.

I'll continue to pray for you, that the Spirit is real to you in your heart, that you find a counselor skilled both in Christian principles and psychology. And that you find a good fellowship with whom you can worship God.

 

[Revealed]

i am struggling with trying to break free of sexual sin. specifically masturbation. i am sick of it, but seem to keep turning to it still. i can no longer even enjoy one second of it yet i still do it. why am i tortured with thoughts of lusts continually when i don't want to behave this way anymore. i feel like i am losing the battle for my mind.

 

[Ben johnson]

The battles of our lives, are not won by fighting; in Jesus we are victorious. And have BEEN victorious for two thousand years! Personal battles are won by never even being fought; claim the victory in Jesus. Cease struggling to be strong in Him, and let HIM be strong in YOU! The essence of salvation is FELLOWSHIP with Jesus and with the Holy Spirit; but not just any fellowship, indwelt fellowship. The real person of Jesus, and the real person of the Holy Spirit indwells the believer!

Psalm118:14: "The Lord is my strength and son, He has become my salvation!"

Look at how we are given victory over evil: "And the seventy returned with joy, saying: 'Lord, even the demons are subject to us in Your name!' And Jesus said, 'I saw satan fall like lightning from Heaven; behold, I have given you authority to tread upon serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy; and nothing shall by any means hurt you.' " We have victory over evil! Luke 10:17-19

...but the truth is in the NEXT VERSE: "Nevertheless, do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you; rejoice instead that your names are written in Heaven." Luke 10:20

There is the victory, there is the triumph! Not a "struggle and war between the OLD nature and the NEW" --- but to CLAIM the WIN, through the strength of JESUS IN US!

"I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind, making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members. For the good that I wish, I do not do; but I practice the very evil that I do not wish. Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?!?!" Rom7:14-25

...and the solution is in chapter 8. By walking in Him, by putting to death the things of the flesh, THROUGH the power of Christ and the Holy Spirit, by walking in Him, we live!

When we have thoughts of suicide, or lust, or hatred --- the answer is to seek Jesus' face WITH ALL THAT WE ARE! We go to our knees in prayer! Pray like this:

1. Praise and worship! For God DESERVES it! He is highest in the Universe! He is perfect, and perfect love! He is righteous and honorable! He is magnificent and above all and in all! The Creator, the Comforter, the Lord and Savior! Praise His name all that live in the Universe! Worship Him in spirit and in truth, for He is worthy!!! Rejoice in His presence, sing a song of praise from your heart!!!

2. Repentance. Confess your sins, and He is faithful and just to forgive your sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1Jn1:9 Don't worry about "missing one or two" --- He's not running a "game-show". Repent of what you remember, and walk in repentance for what you don't; He is honorable, and will forgive one who walks in repentance, in Him.

3. Thanksgiving. Did you eat today? Are you clothed? Is the rain kept from your head? Then you are blessed. Grattitude is the foundation of humility; and ungratefulness is the root of sin. He never tires of hearing, "Thank You, God!"

4. Fellowship. FELLOWSHIP IS SALVATION! 1Jn1:3,6-7 Delight in His presence, knowing that He delights in YOURS! He really does, you know? "Greater love hath NO one, than to lay down his life for his friends." That's what He did for you! That's how much He loves you. Spend time with Him, fellowship with Him; let Him laugh and cry with you; let Him whisper in your ear how much He loves you, how He has a plan and a future for you! Jeremiah 29:11-14

5. Intercession. Prayer does move God --- many have been saved because of the "effective prayers of righteous men availing much" (James 5:16). Intercession focuses us off of our natural selfishness, and drastically increases our love for others. Pray for their salvation, for their diseases to be healed. Pray for law and country, that God need not repeat His wrath upon us as He did with Soddom and Gommorah. Pray for leaders and rulers that we be governed justly and peacefully (1Tim2:1-2). Pray for yourself, that He mature you and guide you in His paths of righteousness!

6. Pettition. How often prayer begins and ENDS only with THIS! He's not our "cosmic Santa", He's our DAD! Take your needs to Him in confidence, knowing He will MEET your needs. Increase yourself in Him (Jude21), that your mind becomes as His is (Eph4:13); that when "you delight yourself in the Lord", He will "give you the desires of your heart!" (Psalm37:4) For as you delight in Him, your desires BECOME His desires!

That's the answer. "Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you; draw near to God and He will draw near to you!" James4:7-8

BTW, I've been throwing verses at you; if anyone thinks he or she doesn't have to LOOK THEM UP, I need to warn you --- there WILL be a test on these verses, and it WILL go on your "permanent record"!



"I have been CRUCIFIED with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me! And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the One who loved me, and delivered Himself up for me." Gal2:20

Lets live, all of us (you AND me), live as victors, not as losers! For we are His children, and He has plans for us! All that we have, is from Him. All that we are, all that we will be, is in Him! We know the battle is already won; let us lay aside our cries of defeat, and shout with triumph!

We won! We already won! FOREVER!!!

 

[psychedelicist]

That really stinks that you got kicked out of your home... If you need a place to live, me and my friends got an old house in McKinney, TX with a lot of spare bedrooms and stuff, you're welcome here anytime (if you don't mind the fact that you will be living with 4 pagans, with a lot of weird beliefs and stuff like that), we don't mind what religion you are.

Also we might be losing the house soon, so it might not be here when/if you come

 

[All4THALORD]

Have you considered maybe the Lord doesn't want you to leave? Maybe He has other plans for you? Just pray to Him and ask Him to guide you in all you do. Just a thought.
With Love,
All4THALORD