Hi

We all feel doubt sometimes, but what I've learned is that faith is a choice, not a feeling. Feelings come afterwards. Everytime you feel doubt, try to choose to believe anyway...and your faith might grow.
I understand what you are saying about church...a relationship with God is what truly counts, and I've known really strong Christians who don't ever go to church. But whether or not you go to church, I think it's really helpful to have Christian friends. We should not give up meeting together, as it says in the Bible. We always have God, but sometimes we're weak and find it difficult to approach Him

but He can use people around us to help. There was a time in my life when I didn't know any Christians at all, and I felt really lonely. Yes, there are bad religious people out there, and Christians aren't perfect. That's why we need God

But we should love them all anyway, and try to show God's light to others.
No church is perfect, but there are those that teach good doctrine. Make sure you really know what you believe and that it's from the Bible, pray about it, and don't compromise...don't go to a church that teaches something you find very wrong. But I don't think you should give up looking for one, because there are good churches out there, and good Christians

I hope you find something...and I pray that God would guide you to the right people.
God bless!
monica
ps: Happy Birthday!
