None of us are any strangers to death....
We have come to accept the fact that is a "part of life"....
I propose that it is NOT, and it is certainly NOT fair.......
I had reluctantly gotten into the sanctuary... just not feeling as though I should be in church this part Shabbath....
No particular reason, just felt like bedside baptist for a change....
Non the less, the lambs must be instructed in our rituals ...... (lol)
This past Shabbath on the way to church, it hit me like it had not before... Never before had I seen death for what it "really" is......
The idea came to me as if HE himself was trying to prepare me and or warn me....
"It is NOT part of the original plan, I had not intended for it to be this way.... You are all very special to me and I soooooooo long for us to be even closer...."
Of course I resisted the idea because deep down I knew exactly what it meant....
"I love you and I love each and everyone of you.... Do not be afraid, and do not be dismayed... I KNOW the pain, the hurt and I understand the anger".......
NO!!! I refuse to listen to another word.....
And yet, even as I dragged myself into the sanctuary and I continued to feel ackward with out my dear Sis at the piano... I REFUSED to accept what I have been warned.....
Then the Pastor gets up for the remarks... and BOOM! BAM!
He said it, "yesterday Sis. Anderson past away"...............
Like a succer punch in the gut.............
~Family, I have had blood relatives pass, and yet... NONE has hit me like this....
Perhaps because I was younger, perhaps because I was not as close to them or more so because Sis. Anderson JUST left us... NO warning...... I mean, we did not even know she was ill and or dying...
They just had not been to church in a while....
"Do not grieve as unbelievers"........
Whatever, Whatever, Whatever!!!
This hurts, not like I do not know what to think of it hurt, but more like I have been robbed.....
Death stinks!!! and HE did NOT have it as part of the original plan.......
Look, the sooner we get the word out to others, the sooner this thing can be over....
Please!!!
Get with the rescue mission.....
HE paid the ransom, we are FREE, we just need to let the others know and HE will do the rest....
We are ONLY the fishermen.... HE does the cleaning/gutting....
Stop with the unholy worship of false gods and spread the good news.....
~A hurting sista~
We have come to accept the fact that is a "part of life"....
I propose that it is NOT, and it is certainly NOT fair.......
I had reluctantly gotten into the sanctuary... just not feeling as though I should be in church this part Shabbath....
No particular reason, just felt like bedside baptist for a change....
Non the less, the lambs must be instructed in our rituals ...... (lol)
This past Shabbath on the way to church, it hit me like it had not before... Never before had I seen death for what it "really" is......
The idea came to me as if HE himself was trying to prepare me and or warn me....
"It is NOT part of the original plan, I had not intended for it to be this way.... You are all very special to me and I soooooooo long for us to be even closer...."
Of course I resisted the idea because deep down I knew exactly what it meant....
"I love you and I love each and everyone of you.... Do not be afraid, and do not be dismayed... I KNOW the pain, the hurt and I understand the anger".......
NO!!! I refuse to listen to another word.....
And yet, even as I dragged myself into the sanctuary and I continued to feel ackward with out my dear Sis at the piano... I REFUSED to accept what I have been warned.....
Then the Pastor gets up for the remarks... and BOOM! BAM!
He said it, "yesterday Sis. Anderson past away"...............
Like a succer punch in the gut.............
~Family, I have had blood relatives pass, and yet... NONE has hit me like this....
Perhaps because I was younger, perhaps because I was not as close to them or more so because Sis. Anderson JUST left us... NO warning...... I mean, we did not even know she was ill and or dying...
They just had not been to church in a while....
"Do not grieve as unbelievers"........
Whatever, Whatever, Whatever!!!
This hurts, not like I do not know what to think of it hurt, but more like I have been robbed.....
Death stinks!!! and HE did NOT have it as part of the original plan.......
Look, the sooner we get the word out to others, the sooner this thing can be over....
Please!!!
Get with the rescue mission.....
HE paid the ransom, we are FREE, we just need to let the others know and HE will do the rest....
We are ONLY the fishermen.... HE does the cleaning/gutting....
Stop with the unholy worship of false gods and spread the good news.....
~A hurting sista~
