Giving that it may not happen, I am still frustrated. What makes the frustration worse is that there are fewer places where I can "safely" say it.
I can't stand this system of good and evil. The reason this country and by extension the world, has this stuff going on is because the way evil works is that we can't do squat until the evil is already committed and it's too late.
It's like you are born into this existence and have terror happen like lives lost, families destroyed, marriages divorced, all evil stuff. And we are supposed to praise God? The one responsible for all creation? It's like a father who says he hates and disapproves of his children being raped, destroyed, killed, but just passively allows and watches himself as men do the above atrocious things, like he knows what the men are doing and still believes it's horrible but says he can't stop it anyway.
But it's okay, you get all that restored when you go to Heaven, do you? It turns out that God is going to rewire your physiology so you no longer desire what "worldly" things you might miss or had dreams of doing and achieving. But hey, at least you can only be with Jesus...
And if you don't accept the plan of God, you go to eternal punishment in Hell under Satan, the devil. So either way, there is no way out of the system after you are born. You have to decide between eternal extreme suffering and torment or eternal extreme high/bliss. Sometimes I contemplate I'd rather just not exist at all. Either way, I'm bound to some form of rules.
I rambled off subject, but I wanted to at least get it out. The subject here is one of my triggers for it.
