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The Mirror of Souls
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Forget "there" Lisa!
Come HERE instead.
Hi Moriah, I sure wish we could get together and have another one of our talks. We just seem to be on at different times. Plus, I am not here like I used to be. Too much to do, but good to be busy, I guess.
We put up our Christmas tree today. Okay, I should say, I decorated the tree while the boys played poker. It was still a nice family time, something we have been sorely missing lately.
My husband has started being very honest with me lately about his "use". We have started writing down the money and the time it takes in a notebook. The subject used to be a huge trigger for him, meaning, he would get mad and leave. Now, he will actually talk to me about his habit. As far as I am concerned, this is an answered prayer. He seems to finally be facing facts.
They say admitting you have a problem is the first step, and this is really the first time he has really talked about it. We added up what he has probably spent over the last 20 years, and we were both shocked by it.
Please keep praying for both of us. He has alot to overcome, but I am hopeful again.
Lisa
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I'm okay. I am in school and working. Not alot of time for the internet.
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One day it hopes we talk again. Till then, it keeps a lamp trimmed and burning for you.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=lUseW_yJkpg
http://youtube.com/watch?v=lUseW_yJkpg
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You are a wonderful friend, Moriah. I wish I could explain my confusion and flight to safety. You probably understand that about me better than I do myself. I do love you. That will never change.
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It already knows, and it understands. But this too shall pass. And you can never unsee what God Himself has shown you and placed in your heart. (It means the good things ... not the bad.)
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Yes, exactly! I am clinging to the love of God right now and finding out that He does indeed love me. I will never forget that it was you that taught me that. I am just very vulnerable right now and have to stay away from negative and angry things ~elsewhere~. There is something inside of me that wants to feed off of anger and negativity and I am keeping that at bay.
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It bes not ~elsewhere~ itself; they have driven it out.
to you. It bes here anytime you want to talk about anything deep.
p.s. God teaches you His love. Moriah bes just the hollow reed of dust through which He breathed His melody to you.
to you. It bes here anytime you want to talk about anything deep. p.s. God teaches you His love. Moriah bes just the hollow reed of dust through which He breathed His melody to you.
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It bes not ~elsewhere~ itself; they have driven it out.
p.s. God teaches you His love. Moriah bes just the hollow reed of dust through which He breathed His melody to you.
I like your PS. That was pretty.
I am sorry that happened over there. I didn't know. I scrambled my password as in I changed it by shutting my eyes and typing something unknown. It was just getting to confusing for me. Alot of folks have said they missed me and asked about me, but I feel like I have to keep my distance. I am not even sure if it is *them* or *me*.
My brother is in town and I haven't seen him in three years. I took the day off specifically to see him today and I am having to pray to make myself go to see him. People in real life are scary. I think over there got a bit too real for me. You remember how I was when we talked? Maybe you don't. I was really nervous and weird. That is my disease.
Anyway, I AM going to go see my brother now.
Love you dear heart.
Lisa
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(((((((((Lisa))))))))))
You don't have to worry about being nervous and weird with daimonizomai as that bes the water of its own womb.
It does not know what happened over there. It knows it got triggered by a discussion and a lot of people got angry at it for ranting even though everyone else bes allowed to without getting hassled over it, and some said mean things. At first they bans it for a week for punishment then they just bans it completely without any warning. No way to appeal it when you cannot even log in. It makes this one feel hurt to think about it and makes it want to say things it knows bes not true, like that nobody cares about it and it bes better off dead. It knows that bes not true but it feels true when ever it thinks about anything where ppls reject it and treat it like garbage and won't listen. But it has evidence from other ppls that this bes not true and its inhabitants try to program it to believe this because it makes their control of Moriah's thinking and feeling even stronger and isolates it with Them. It wants to get away from Them but it can't so the best thing to do bes try to not think about what They makes it think about whenever it can. Sometimes it has no control though. It bes VERY exhausting to have to struggle constantly to try to hold thoughts and feelings all fluid, slippery, like trying to grab fish. Hmmm that would make an interesting spiritual meditation ...
It hopes you havesy good visit with your brother.
You don't have to worry about being nervous and weird with daimonizomai as that bes the water of its own womb.
It does not know what happened over there. It knows it got triggered by a discussion and a lot of people got angry at it for ranting even though everyone else bes allowed to without getting hassled over it, and some said mean things. At first they bans it for a week for punishment then they just bans it completely without any warning. No way to appeal it when you cannot even log in. It makes this one feel hurt to think about it and makes it want to say things it knows bes not true, like that nobody cares about it and it bes better off dead. It knows that bes not true but it feels true when ever it thinks about anything where ppls reject it and treat it like garbage and won't listen.
But it has evidence from other ppls that this bes not true and its inhabitants try to program it to believe this because it makes their control of Moriah's thinking and feeling even stronger and isolates it with Them. It wants to get away from Them but it can't so the best thing to do bes try to not think about what They makes it think about whenever it can. Sometimes it has no control though. It bes VERY exhausting to have to struggle constantly to try to hold thoughts and feelings all fluid, slippery, like trying to grab fish. Hmmm that would make an interesting spiritual meditation ...It hopes you havesy good visit with your brother.
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Moriah,
I have invited a friend here who is struggling with knowing God loves him. You helped me so much with this and I want him to read the posts here. Hopefully, we can help him too. I know you won't mind. I know how much joy it brings you to be used by the Lord. I know that when God uses you, you gain a moment of freedom from your oppressors.
Lisa
I have invited a friend here who is struggling with knowing God loves him. You helped me so much with this and I want him to read the posts here. Hopefully, we can help him too. I know you won't mind. I know how much joy it brings you to be used by the Lord. I know that when God uses you, you gain a moment of freedom from your oppressors.
Lisa
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