Hey everyone!
This is my first post on ChristianForums and thought I'd introduce myself and share my testimony of how I came to be a follower of our Lord Jesus Christ! Some basic info is that I live and work in London and I used to identify myself as homosexual, but now I've received the Holy Spirit I call myself celibate.
Anyway, before I came to Jesus I was in such spiritual darkness and was on the road to destruction. I never denied Jesus or God, but I thought there was some deeper spiritual meaning to life and I had been heavily involved in the New Age movement and other occult practices and used to take an awful amount of drugs. I got wrecked at nightclubs and raves and house parties. I abused them so much that I ended up in a psychiatric ward after taking a legal variant of LSD where I tripped out bad and thought I had gone to Hell with the Devil (the only way I thought I could get out was to kill myself). So obviously I was pretty screwed up and had a lot of psychological problems.
Once I got out of the psychiatric ward I was still involved in the New Age and used to rely on psychics, mediums, Reiki healers and Gurus to find the answers in life. I even used spirit boards and tarot cards, studied the Kabbalah, used crystals and researched countless articles and books about Esotericism. One thing that I practiced was a thing called Law of Attraction which is basically just witchcraft repackaged and it worked! I had no idea these were tools of the enemy though (even though when I used to go to sleep I would get sleep paralysis and feeling evil spirits go through my body).
So what led me to nearly ending my life for the second time was when my ex-partner broke up with me and I was emotionally distraught. My heart was breaking into pieces and I couldn't stay in my lonely flat in London so I went back to my parents house (who are atheists) in Suffolk which is in the east of England.
I wasn't much better after 4 days but my aunt was round to visit and I've always admired her and my Uncle for being good Baptist Christians and have always found their home to be very comforting and peaceful. So out of the blue she asked if I wanted to go to Church with her, I saw this as a sign and said yes! So that following Sunday she and my uncle picked me up and took me to their Church.
When I got there I was a little nervous but I picked up this good vibe about everyone around me. These were good people! We stood up and sang some songs praising Jesus and a trainee Minister about 30 years old did the sermon. As it happened it was communion that day so I drank the wine and ate the bread without knowing what it symbolised until my aunt told me that it was a sign that I acknowledge what Christ did for me on the cross. Needless to say I really did believe in Jesus but never understood his word, but agreed that I understood sin now and that I am a sinner. My aunt said a prayer for me and she took me home back to my parents house.
That night I went to my bedroom, knelt on my floor and said a prayer of repentance:
"Dear Jesus our Heavenly Father,
Please forgive me for my idolatry of my wicked past, and my divination and necromancy as I have found you, my good shepherd and I have heard the good news.
Please can you help me overcome my temptation to lay with mankind as I know it is wrong.
I know that I am a sinner and through you I know that you can make me wholesome.
I ask if you could also forgive me of my sorcery and drug abuse as I know these are not good for my body or my soul as they lye with you.
Thank you for the afternoon out with The Minister from the Church I am so grateful that you have sent him into my life to help me teach me of your word.
I will continue to live as you and your father want me to live as I devote my life to you, please can you continue to guide me through my life and help me to understand your infinite love and wisdom.
I love you with all my heart and soul,
Thank you Lord,
Amen"
And instantly I felt all the burdens lift off my shoulders and felt true peace! I felt so different, so elated and overjoyed that his Holy Spirit has graced me! I felt all my struggles vanish and my mental illness healed right at that second! UNBELIEVABLE!!
I pulled my Bible off of my shelf and turned to the Gospels and I understood! I finally understood! It was like the veil had been lifted from my eyes! No longer did I have to worry because Christ will be with me every step of the way. I asked him "why didn't you come to me sooner?" and He said "I've always been with you Ben"
He then led me to a couple of ex-New Age to Christ testimonials on YouTube and I felt physically sickened by what I had gotten myself into. I felt so ashamed and guilty that I would rather have put my faith in someone else or deceiving spirits rather than the one who created me! I cried and cried and tore down all the tribal posters from my wall and threw out my dream catcher and amulets and chucked my Harry Potter books in the bin.
After my little paddy I apologised to my mum who had been so distraught with the torture I put myself through with drugs and my mental illness and told her that the Holy Spirit has saved me (she didn't understand as she is an atheist). After a couple of days she knew I had been cured and saw I was finally happy and at peace! I no longer got cross at her or argued with her and I was eager to help around the house. She then told me the next day that she said a little prayer of her own to God even though she didn't believe saying "thank you for saving him!".
My aunt and uncle were so pleased when I told them what happened and they were so pleased and they took me to their house group (which I've only just gotten back from). I found out that everyone there had been praying for me! I couldn't believe it, I was so humbled and I couldn't give thanks enough!
So now, at 22 years old I have been delivered from a life of torment where I saw no future and any hope in living to becoming a child of God. I asked Him "I wish I knew you before" and He said "Deep down you always believed"
I am so overjoyed and I can't thank the Lord enough! I have a new life now and there are so many things to look forward to now now that Christ is in my life. I'm thinking that the Baptist denomination is definitely for me as they have been very welcoming and warming.
So I hope you enjoyed reading my testimony and if there is any advice that you could give me about becoming a good Christian than it is most welcome.
Rejoice and praise our Lord, Jesus Christ!
This is my first post on ChristianForums and thought I'd introduce myself and share my testimony of how I came to be a follower of our Lord Jesus Christ! Some basic info is that I live and work in London and I used to identify myself as homosexual, but now I've received the Holy Spirit I call myself celibate.
Anyway, before I came to Jesus I was in such spiritual darkness and was on the road to destruction. I never denied Jesus or God, but I thought there was some deeper spiritual meaning to life and I had been heavily involved in the New Age movement and other occult practices and used to take an awful amount of drugs. I got wrecked at nightclubs and raves and house parties. I abused them so much that I ended up in a psychiatric ward after taking a legal variant of LSD where I tripped out bad and thought I had gone to Hell with the Devil (the only way I thought I could get out was to kill myself). So obviously I was pretty screwed up and had a lot of psychological problems.
Once I got out of the psychiatric ward I was still involved in the New Age and used to rely on psychics, mediums, Reiki healers and Gurus to find the answers in life. I even used spirit boards and tarot cards, studied the Kabbalah, used crystals and researched countless articles and books about Esotericism. One thing that I practiced was a thing called Law of Attraction which is basically just witchcraft repackaged and it worked! I had no idea these were tools of the enemy though (even though when I used to go to sleep I would get sleep paralysis and feeling evil spirits go through my body).
So what led me to nearly ending my life for the second time was when my ex-partner broke up with me and I was emotionally distraught. My heart was breaking into pieces and I couldn't stay in my lonely flat in London so I went back to my parents house (who are atheists) in Suffolk which is in the east of England.
I wasn't much better after 4 days but my aunt was round to visit and I've always admired her and my Uncle for being good Baptist Christians and have always found their home to be very comforting and peaceful. So out of the blue she asked if I wanted to go to Church with her, I saw this as a sign and said yes! So that following Sunday she and my uncle picked me up and took me to their Church.
When I got there I was a little nervous but I picked up this good vibe about everyone around me. These were good people! We stood up and sang some songs praising Jesus and a trainee Minister about 30 years old did the sermon. As it happened it was communion that day so I drank the wine and ate the bread without knowing what it symbolised until my aunt told me that it was a sign that I acknowledge what Christ did for me on the cross. Needless to say I really did believe in Jesus but never understood his word, but agreed that I understood sin now and that I am a sinner. My aunt said a prayer for me and she took me home back to my parents house.
That night I went to my bedroom, knelt on my floor and said a prayer of repentance:
"Dear Jesus our Heavenly Father,
Please forgive me for my idolatry of my wicked past, and my divination and necromancy as I have found you, my good shepherd and I have heard the good news.
Please can you help me overcome my temptation to lay with mankind as I know it is wrong.
I know that I am a sinner and through you I know that you can make me wholesome.
I ask if you could also forgive me of my sorcery and drug abuse as I know these are not good for my body or my soul as they lye with you.
Thank you for the afternoon out with The Minister from the Church I am so grateful that you have sent him into my life to help me teach me of your word.
I will continue to live as you and your father want me to live as I devote my life to you, please can you continue to guide me through my life and help me to understand your infinite love and wisdom.
I love you with all my heart and soul,
Thank you Lord,
Amen"
And instantly I felt all the burdens lift off my shoulders and felt true peace! I felt so different, so elated and overjoyed that his Holy Spirit has graced me! I felt all my struggles vanish and my mental illness healed right at that second! UNBELIEVABLE!!
I pulled my Bible off of my shelf and turned to the Gospels and I understood! I finally understood! It was like the veil had been lifted from my eyes! No longer did I have to worry because Christ will be with me every step of the way. I asked him "why didn't you come to me sooner?" and He said "I've always been with you Ben"
He then led me to a couple of ex-New Age to Christ testimonials on YouTube and I felt physically sickened by what I had gotten myself into. I felt so ashamed and guilty that I would rather have put my faith in someone else or deceiving spirits rather than the one who created me! I cried and cried and tore down all the tribal posters from my wall and threw out my dream catcher and amulets and chucked my Harry Potter books in the bin.
After my little paddy I apologised to my mum who had been so distraught with the torture I put myself through with drugs and my mental illness and told her that the Holy Spirit has saved me (she didn't understand as she is an atheist). After a couple of days she knew I had been cured and saw I was finally happy and at peace! I no longer got cross at her or argued with her and I was eager to help around the house. She then told me the next day that she said a little prayer of her own to God even though she didn't believe saying "thank you for saving him!".
My aunt and uncle were so pleased when I told them what happened and they were so pleased and they took me to their house group (which I've only just gotten back from). I found out that everyone there had been praying for me! I couldn't believe it, I was so humbled and I couldn't give thanks enough!
So now, at 22 years old I have been delivered from a life of torment where I saw no future and any hope in living to becoming a child of God. I asked Him "I wish I knew you before" and He said "Deep down you always believed"
I am so overjoyed and I can't thank the Lord enough! I have a new life now and there are so many things to look forward to now now that Christ is in my life. I'm thinking that the Baptist denomination is definitely for me as they have been very welcoming and warming.
So I hope you enjoyed reading my testimony and if there is any advice that you could give me about becoming a good Christian than it is most welcome.
Rejoice and praise our Lord, Jesus Christ!
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